its official...and im scared

well it looks like im in this fight again.just got the news from my liver biopsy done on jan.31.i have got 2 mets to the liver.i will go monday to the doc that saved my life the first time and see what is going to happen on this particular roller coaster ride.i sure did not like the first ride i went on and am really scared about this one.so to all my cyber family,the familar ones and new ones to meet i will be posting often because i could not have done it without you the first go round and i dont know if i can fight this one without you ...Godbless...johnnybegood
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  • Dharma girl
    Dharma girl Member Posts: 40
    johnnybegood
    I’m a newbie here so I can’t offer you any advice. Just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear your bad news. Cancer is indeed a roller coaster ride. Hang in there.
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    Oh, dear
    I hate this for you, and I'm praying this won't be a rough ride for you. Please keep us posted and let us know whenever you need a little hand holding.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117

    johnnybegood
    I’m a newbie here so I can’t offer you any advice. Just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear your bad news. Cancer is indeed a roller coaster ride. Hang in there.

    hey Dharma girl
    nice to meet you.here is a little history dx stage 3 colorectal cancer sept.2008 did xeloda and radiation for 5 weeks,then surgery to remove tumor dec,2008.temporary colostomy then reversal feb.2009.and chemo(oxy and 5fu)10 rounds finished july 2009.i have always been a part of this board but decided to take a long break from all the cancer talk and try to find the new me.i am still struggling with the side effects of radiation and the oxy.it has been 19 months since i have finished chemo.my body is just now feeling as if it has begun to heal from all it was hit with and now i am being told the cancer is back.i just dont know witch way to turn anymore.
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117
    tootsie1 said:

    Oh, dear
    I hate this for you, and I'm praying this won't be a rough ride for you. Please keep us posted and let us know whenever you need a little hand holding.

    *hugs*
    Gail

    ohh tootsie
    i have missed you so, i know i can always count on you and so many others on here to bring sunshine to my days and even shed a few tears together...Godbless...johnnybegood
  • herdizziness
    herdizziness Member Posts: 3,624
    Ahhhh
    So sorry, that really sucks. I think I can sort of imagine the feeling you have of going back on chemo, I only had a two month break, and then had to go back on, I'm just lucky it was only Xeloda with Avastin as a side dish. But I went in with dragging feet, as I just wanted to be done with it.
    And You've had such a long break, and those memories of that chemo in your mind, I know has to really scare you a bit, and the unwillingness to go in for that first round.
    Just remember, you did it before you can do it again, you're tough, you fought the good battle and won for a while, so just time to pick up that weapon (chemo)and start fighting the enemy (cancer) once again. You'll win again. We're all here ready to help you battle.
    Winter Marie
  • Kathleen808
    Kathleen808 Member Posts: 2,342 Member
    we are here
    johnybegood,
    We are here for you. I am so sorry that you have to gear up again. **** had a 4 month break and started back on chemo on Tuesday. It was hard, for sure, but he is starting to feel better and hoping to enjoy the weekend.
    Thinking of you

    Aloha,
    Kathleen
  • Nana b
    Nana b Member Posts: 3,030

    Ahhhh
    So sorry, that really sucks. I think I can sort of imagine the feeling you have of going back on chemo, I only had a two month break, and then had to go back on, I'm just lucky it was only Xeloda with Avastin as a side dish. But I went in with dragging feet, as I just wanted to be done with it.
    And You've had such a long break, and those memories of that chemo in your mind, I know has to really scare you a bit, and the unwillingness to go in for that first round.
    Just remember, you did it before you can do it again, you're tough, you fought the good battle and won for a while, so just time to pick up that weapon (chemo)and start fighting the enemy (cancer) once again. You'll win again. We're all here ready to help you battle.
    Winter Marie

    So sorry to hear this! We
    So sorry to hear this! We will be here for you! You can do it!!
  • Buzzard
    Buzzard Member Posts: 3,043 Member

    we are here
    johnybegood,
    We are here for you. I am so sorry that you have to gear up again. **** had a 4 month break and started back on chemo on Tuesday. It was hard, for sure, but he is starting to feel better and hoping to enjoy the weekend.
    Thinking of you

    Aloha,
    Kathleen

    JBG............its gonna be fine
    yeah its gonna be another road trip but it will be fine...You have a lot of options dealing with this. You have to remember that I too have been back at it and I am starting to feel as you did just prior to your re occurrence. I was really feeling good as you are so if it has to happen, I would really want it to be now when I feel my best, it tells me that my body is feeling its best as well. Pick and choose your options wisely, they work for you, do your homework, you have been through this before and even if seconds aren't good (we all hope for never) at least we know what we are dealing with... There is so much they can do, and the liver does regenerate itself. Now its time to draw a deep breath, keep us involved, and lets get this over and done with...You will be back in great shape before you know it...get the game face on girl....we can and will do this........Love to you and yours, Clift
  • pete43lost_at_sea
    pete43lost_at_sea Member Posts: 3,900
    sorry you got the extra long roller coaster ride
    goodluck with the surgeon.
    let us know.
    Pete
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673
    Sorry
    Johnnybegood, I am really sorry to read this. You can do this + I am really glad you are back posting; this site is awesome. Warm thoughts + cyber (((hugs))) are heading your way. Darn this disease!
  • dianetavegia
    dianetavegia Member Posts: 1,942
    :-(
    Debra, I'm so sorry for this news. I really don't know what to say!

    Wishing you well and praying the doctors have a great plan to rid your body of this awful disease!

    Diane
  • pepebcn
    pepebcn Member Posts: 6,331

    :-(
    Debra, I'm so sorry for this news. I really don't know what to say!

    Wishing you well and praying the doctors have a great plan to rid your body of this awful disease!

    Diane

    Feel so sorry for the results !
    But sending you all the needed strength to fight from Barcelona!
    Hugs!
  • tina dasilva
    tina dasilva Member Posts: 641
    Sorry
    Johnnybegood i'm so sorry to hear .i will send some cyber hugs your way hugs hugs Tina
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117
    Buzzard said:

    JBG............its gonna be fine
    yeah its gonna be another road trip but it will be fine...You have a lot of options dealing with this. You have to remember that I too have been back at it and I am starting to feel as you did just prior to your re occurrence. I was really feeling good as you are so if it has to happen, I would really want it to be now when I feel my best, it tells me that my body is feeling its best as well. Pick and choose your options wisely, they work for you, do your homework, you have been through this before and even if seconds aren't good (we all hope for never) at least we know what we are dealing with... There is so much they can do, and the liver does regenerate itself. Now its time to draw a deep breath, keep us involved, and lets get this over and done with...You will be back in great shape before you know it...get the game face on girl....we can and will do this........Love to you and yours, Clift

    thnaks buzzard
    i have alot of different feelings inside right now,maybe i will feel some what better when i talk to doc.we dont have any colon cancer support groups here(just breast cancer)so this here board is it for me.have a good day,,,Godbless..johnnybegood
  • geotina
    geotina Member Posts: 2,111
    Johnny:
    Take some time to let the news settle in. I'm sorry your scans were not what you were hoping for and that you are now back in the battle. Several on the board recently received bad news with either progression or the cancer is back so we know the emotions you and your familiy are suffering.

    Make sure you explore each and every option available to you then come back and let the board know what the docs say and people will share their experiences with you. There may be options available to you other than straight to chemo so ask, ask ask and make sure you understand why they can or can't do a certain procedure.

    Take care - Tina
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117

    :-(
    Debra, I'm so sorry for this news. I really don't know what to say!

    Wishing you well and praying the doctors have a great plan to rid your body of this awful disease!

    Diane

    hey diane
    you are looking well,i dont know how you have done it to keep the beast away,i am happy for you.keep up the good work i think of you often as well....Godbless
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117
    geotina said:

    Johnny:
    Take some time to let the news settle in. I'm sorry your scans were not what you were hoping for and that you are now back in the battle. Several on the board recently received bad news with either progression or the cancer is back so we know the emotions you and your familiy are suffering.

    Make sure you explore each and every option available to you then come back and let the board know what the docs say and people will share their experiences with you. There may be options available to you other than straight to chemo so ask, ask ask and make sure you understand why they can or can't do a certain procedure.

    Take care - Tina

    geotina
    thanks for the reply.yes i have noticed some of the people that was dx on or around the same time as me have had some kind of recurrance.its just not fair.im going to try to enjoy my day today you have a good one....Godbless...johnnybegood
  • lizzydavis
    lizzydavis Member Posts: 893

    geotina
    thanks for the reply.yes i have noticed some of the people that was dx on or around the same time as me have had some kind of recurrance.its just not fair.im going to try to enjoy my day today you have a good one....Godbless...johnnybegood

    Hi Johnnybegood,
    You know we are here for you. You can do this. Hang in there. Good thoughts and prayers from me.

    Hugs,
    Lizzy
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576

    Hi Johnnybegood,
    You know we are here for you. You can do this. Hang in there. Good thoughts and prayers from me.

    Hugs,
    Lizzy

    johnny
    oh johnny I am so sorry you have to do this again. We can help Johnny....really we can and we will be here for you.

    with a big hug from your second mom :)

    mags
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117
    maglets said:

    johnny
    oh johnny I am so sorry you have to do this again. We can help Johnny....really we can and we will be here for you.

    with a big hug from your second mom :)

    mags

    hello maglets
    yes here we go again i have so many mixed feelings right now,i feel things are tearing me in many directions.i will talk to doc on monday and maybe that will narrow my directions a little.yes it is a rollercoaster ride for sure and right now it is whipping me all around.i hate this cancer sh!@$$! and what it does to our lives...Godbless....johnnybegood