Quick Update on My Dad's 'Tude'

Well - I had high hopes after last Thursday and Friday. I had shared some comments from the board on staying positive, what to expect, and tips. (Thanks to you ALL!) But I guess while he seems to rally for me - when I am not at my parent's house, apparently he sits, mopes, and will not eat more than two bites of anything put in front of him. His biggest complaint is stomach pain (I think gas or constipation which he has always had issues with). Right now he is about 1/2 way in to treatment (rad 20 is on Wednesday). He does not have throat pain, but has the thick saliva issue and says everything tastes like glue, I am sure it is true that things taste bad. I mentioned that elementary kids eat paste all the time, so he should just eat regardless!

My mom and I have theorized that he is trying to sabotage his treatment - i.e. if he does not drink he will not have good kidney function = no chemo. I have tried the tuff love, sympathy, and ignoring it route. My poor mother cries every day and is off the deep end as it is hard to watch him do this and she is like a chicken with her head cut off trying to find things to give to him that he will eat - with no feedback or help from him. He says as long as he is going to treatments all should be well - we are trying to go with that ... however he has to eat. Ice cream for 6 meals a day - we don't care - just something. He has lost 11 pounds, this from a man who started at 155lbs. A thin mint to begin with. I am sure a feeding tube is coming next week - the Dr. told him yesterday to EAT EAT EAT - he nodded, shook his hand, said he would - and then refuses everything we offer to him.

Anyway - I appreciate all your other comments. I am just looking to vent at this point. We keep trying the counseling thing etc. One day at a time I suppose! I am inspired by so many of your stories and of your strength in dealing with all that has come your way - or the way of those you love. It helps me keep resolve!