Jan 03, 2011 - 11:09 pm
One brain tumor located behind the left cheekbone, back along side the ear about the size of a golf ball? Starting to affect speech and thinking skills. It's a good thing my husband is left handed. Primary melanoma was never located but first metastasized to the leg/groin area. Tumor was surgically removed end of July just 5 months ago. Now my husband faces another surgery soon and with it comes risk as in any surgery.
I want off this roller coaster ride. (This is how I feel, not what I will do, really).
Christmas Day 2010 my husband was stage 3b
The difference is life.
OK... some have had many years of "no evidence of disease"...
I've been a good support system so far for my husband, he tells me so. I've been brave, I've cried when he has cried. I worry about our future... I realize our time together is not what we had hoped it would be. Taking one day at a time takes on a whole new meaning. I am scared and worried as I am his only caregiver, his only support, and he looks to me for guidance in all the he decides. Are my shoulders big enough for him to lean on?
My fears are growing and surgery will be soon.
I am not mentally ready.