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Tinabug
Tinabug Member Posts: 158
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Oct 26, 2009, the day I was told I had breast cancer...it's been a year & what a year it's been. I had no clue today was going to start out so emotional. I awoke from hot flashes(tamoxifen) & decided to log on to the boards. This past year has truly been the roller coaster ride from hell. Got married, core needle biopsy("it's not cancer"), surgical biopsy("it is breast cancer"), hematoma, bilateral mastectomy, I don't have to have chemo, I do have to have chemo, I have (4) rounds of chemo, 4 trips to the ER, hives, angeodema, reconstruction, staph infection, still battling staph(5 mths after surgery), moved twice, lost my dad. I didn't know it was possible to do so many things in just 365 days. In that amount of time, I also learned the true meaning of family, friendship, & faith!!! I learned that CSN would become my lifeline, when it's time to fight the beast they are by far...WARRIORS!!! I learned to let others help me when neccessary, I learned to say "no", I learned to rest when I'm exhausted, I learned to sometimes fight the depression & get out of bed, I learned that being bald wasn't near as bad as I thought it would be, I learned that a sense of humor goes a long way, I learned that not having breasts & hair doesn't make me less of a woman, I learned that a bag of steroids can make me VERY mean(& hungry), I learned that I married the most amazing man on earth...he is my HERO, I learned when one of my CSN sister's gets good news, it makes my heart dance, I learned that when one gets bad news, it breaks my heart...love & praying for you MamaG, I learned I'm a lot tougher than I realized, I learned I had it pretty easy compared to others, I learned that just because I had both of my breasts removed, it doesn't keep me from worrying about the beast returning, I learned the cooler at the local florist is a wonderful place for hot flashes, I learned that I am very blessed by a huge wealth of friends...true friends, I learned to be thankful for another year of living.

Thanks to all of you who helped me through my difficult journey last year. You are amazing & you made my battle easier. Love you all.
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  • BlownAway60
    BlownAway60 Member Posts: 851
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    You made it!!!!
    Dispite all
    You made it!!!!

    Dispite all of the difficulties you are here. I am proud to call you sister.

    Hugs

    Donna
  • smalldoggroomer
    smalldoggroomer Member Posts: 1,184
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    Wow what a trip you have had
    Wow what a trip you have had this past year. But you made it you are a true Warrior. We are always stronger then we think. Take care Kay Your in my prayers and thoughts.
  • pattimc
    pattimc Member Posts: 431
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    You make me proud
    to call you my Sister in Pink! I've been out of treatment (except for Arimidex) since last December. People ask me how did you do it...I tell them I didn't think about it at the time I just fought for my life. Looking back on it now, I can't believe I did it either! We are all stronger than we think. You are a true warrior!

    Love,

    Patti
  • Sher43009
    Sher43009 Member Posts: 602 Member
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    smalldoggroomer said:

    Wow what a trip you have had
    Wow what a trip you have had this past year. But you made it you are a true Warrior. We are always stronger then we think. Take care Kay Your in my prayers and thoughts.

    Beautifully said
    Kay, thank you for sharing your year. It's amazing how much can change in only one year.
    Wishing you a year that is uneventfull and calm.
    Sher
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
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    You made it and it was the
    You made it and it was the year from hell, I'm sure of it! Your review of the happenings in such a short time, 365 days, is amazing. We all learn a lot from our battle with the beast and perhaps that's the "good" that comes out of it. I'm also proud to call you one of my pink sisters and am so happy that you made it to this place in your life. Keep up the positiveness and keep on living, most importantly! Here's to many, many more anniversaries!!
  • teresa41
    teresa41 Member Posts: 471
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    MyTurnNow said:

    You made it and it was the
    You made it and it was the year from hell, I'm sure of it! Your review of the happenings in such a short time, 365 days, is amazing. We all learn a lot from our battle with the beast and perhaps that's the "good" that comes out of it. I'm also proud to call you one of my pink sisters and am so happy that you made it to this place in your life. Keep up the positiveness and keep on living, most importantly! Here's to many, many more anniversaries!!

    congrats to you!
    you have came a long way and learned so much wishing you the best!


    teresa
  • KayNYC
    KayNYC Member Posts: 495 Member
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    your year of challenge
    Congratulations TinaBug on getting through a really tough year. You made it! How are you celebrating your achievements and efforts? Plan something special for yourself and your hubby. You both deserve happy times.
    Big Hugs, K
  • roseann4
    roseann4 Member Posts: 992 Member
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    KayNYC said:

    your year of challenge
    Congratulations TinaBug on getting through a really tough year. You made it! How are you celebrating your achievements and efforts? Plan something special for yourself and your hubby. You both deserve happy times.
    Big Hugs, K

    Your story is amazing!
    It brought tears to my eyes which is easier to do since my bc diagnosis 1 1/2 years ago. You are one brave sister. Congratulations on being 1 year out.

    Roseann
  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
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    teresa41 said:

    congrats to you!
    you have came a long way and learned so much wishing you the best!


    teresa

    Congrats Tina! You are a
    Congrats Tina! You are a true survivor, a true sister in pink!


    Hugs, Debby
  • Christmas Girl
    Christmas Girl Member Posts: 3,682 Member
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    Heartfelt Congratulations, Tinabug!
    Yes, pink sister & warrior - our Firecracker Girl, that very first year anniversary is a huge milestone, indeed.

    With very best wishes for many, MANY more NED anniversaries for you!

    Kind regards, Susan
  • fauxma
    fauxma Member Posts: 3,577 Member
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    Christmas Girl said:

    Heartfelt Congratulations, Tinabug!
    Yes, pink sister & warrior - our Firecracker Girl, that very first year anniversary is a huge milestone, indeed.

    With very best wishes for many, MANY more NED anniversaries for you!

    Kind regards, Susan

    Tinabug,
    You summed up your
    Tinabug,
    You summed up your year in the life of a breast cancer survivor beautifully. You really had a lot to work through and you did it. I pray that you stay NED forever and that your next year is the best ever.
    Stef
  • carkris
    carkris Member Posts: 4,553 Member
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    fauxma said:

    Tinabug,
    You summed up your
    Tinabug,
    You summed up your year in the life of a breast cancer survivor beautifully. You really had a lot to work through and you did it. I pray that you stay NED forever and that your next year is the best ever.
    Stef

    I felt that I was standing
    I felt that I was standing there and rocks were being thrown at me. You find out how strong you can really be. Congratulations on getting through this year in one peice, hope the next year is happy and peaceful.
  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991
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    Christmas Girl said:

    Heartfelt Congratulations, Tinabug!
    Yes, pink sister & warrior - our Firecracker Girl, that very first year anniversary is a huge milestone, indeed.

    With very best wishes for many, MANY more NED anniversaries for you!

    Kind regards, Susan

    Happy Anniversary Tinabug!

    Happy Anniversary Tinabug!
  • ms.sunshine
    ms.sunshine Member Posts: 707 Member
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    Angie2U said:

    Happy Anniversary Tinabug!

    Happy Anniversary Tinabug!

    Tina how sweet
    I enjoyed what you posted. We can all huddle around that cooler. In your discovering I hope you learned how beautiful you are. Take care.
  • chenheart
    chenheart Member Posts: 5,159
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    When I see your picture I
    When I see your picture I just smile...you are so engaging and beautiful! You have walked the walk down a path none of us wanted to be on, and yet, you found yourself surrounded by an amazing, empathetic group of true Kindred Spirits. You of courdse, are one of our shining stars, and I am so happy that you posted to let us all know not just where last year was, but who you today ARE. We absolutely gain strength, courage and fellow feeling from these boards, don't we?
    I am so happy that you are living Life After Cancer..fears and all! I have a sneaking suspicion that no matter what, you will live life with all of the gusto and big-heartedness you always have!

    Thanks for checking in!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
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    chenheart said:

    When I see your picture I
    When I see your picture I just smile...you are so engaging and beautiful! You have walked the walk down a path none of us wanted to be on, and yet, you found yourself surrounded by an amazing, empathetic group of true Kindred Spirits. You of courdse, are one of our shining stars, and I am so happy that you posted to let us all know not just where last year was, but who you today ARE. We absolutely gain strength, courage and fellow feeling from these boards, don't we?
    I am so happy that you are living Life After Cancer..fears and all! I have a sneaking suspicion that no matter what, you will live life with all of the gusto and big-heartedness you always have!

    Thanks for checking in!

    Hugs,
    Chen♥

    We all love you Tina and we
    We all love you Tina and we all are always your sisters in pink forever! Don't ever forget that. You can always count on us for anything.

    You get out there and live your life to the fullest and try to put bc as far behind you as possible. There is life after cancer and you will find it with a smile.

    Take care and enjoy life,

    Kylez
  • Heatherbelle
    Heatherbelle Member Posts: 1,226 Member
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    You are indeed a TRUE
    You are indeed a TRUE Warrior Tinabug!! So many of the things you wrote are my thoughts exactly!
    CSN has also been my lifeline since June 14th of this year -which was the day before i was diagnosed, I spent the sleepless night before my Dr appt to receive my biopsy results reading through the message boards.
    I'm so glad for you that you made it through your journey & are healthy & recovering. I hope you have many many more years to celebrate your anniversary of being cancer free. Thank you for sharing this post - it really hit home with me on alot of levels & gives so many of us hope - I'm almost done with my cancer journey myself -got the "all clear" from my doctor & the great news of "officially in remission from breast cancer" - just have my exchange surgery & port removal surgery, followed by 5 years of Tamoxifen. I'm almost in the light at the end of the tunnel!!
    *hugs*
    Heather
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
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    Heatherbelle said:

    You are indeed a TRUE
    You are indeed a TRUE Warrior Tinabug!! So many of the things you wrote are my thoughts exactly!
    CSN has also been my lifeline since June 14th of this year -which was the day before i was diagnosed, I spent the sleepless night before my Dr appt to receive my biopsy results reading through the message boards.
    I'm so glad for you that you made it through your journey & are healthy & recovering. I hope you have many many more years to celebrate your anniversary of being cancer free. Thank you for sharing this post - it really hit home with me on alot of levels & gives so many of us hope - I'm almost done with my cancer journey myself -got the "all clear" from my doctor & the great news of "officially in remission from breast cancer" - just have my exchange surgery & port removal surgery, followed by 5 years of Tamoxifen. I'm almost in the light at the end of the tunnel!!
    *hugs*
    Heather

    Now live your life!!!!
    Happy Anniversary dear sister in pink!


    Sue :)
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
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    Ritzy said:

    Now live your life!!!!
    Happy Anniversary dear sister in pink!


    Sue :)

    TinaBug .. now the hard and most difficult part of this
    journey for most of us .. Getting back to normal, and getting our mojo back. It does take a while .. Smile, rest and relax and known you crossed that finish line! Kudos to you and finishing this length and sometimes ugly battle!

    Strength and Courage

    Vicki Sam
  • cahjah75
    cahjah75 Member Posts: 2,631
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    Tina
    congrats on finishing one year of what most of us would rather not have. You are a survivor for sure!
    {{hugs}} Char

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