Well,I served my hubby with divorce papers last week. It has been a living hell ever since.
I have been accused of all sorts of carnal acts, and harassed every nite and day.
I am 10 months out of treatment for head & neck and doing well. As far as any emotional support, kindness, sympathy, empathy - nope! NaDa! It was never there before, why did I think he would magically change. Dumb blonde syndrome - I guess. Hee Hee.
After my 1st clean PET - he asked when I was going to get a job? Lying in bed after driving to and from rads & chemo, I could not even get him to get me a glass of water. I lost 34 lbs, and ended up being 110 lbs at 5'9". I quit the pity parties, and started the fight for life.
Going thru this "journey", I know have become a strong, and confident patient woman, after having only my Bible for company. He dos not recognize this woman, and feels threatened.
After 20 years together, and 2 beautiful children, Iwas foolishly hoping he would "come around". HA! Thankfully, I know I am not walking alone, and He is guiding my path.Whatever time I have left, will not be wasted on negativity, anger, and sadness. I have read the previous post on divorce and dating, and loved all your posts. I am writing now because I am living thru it NOW. I do not wish to date. I need to get healthy, without his added stress, and have some peace. This is my wish. Thank you all for listening. I wish you health in body, heart and soul. Patty