Dec 23, 2008 - 3:48 am
I am not sure if I should even be here on this message board but you all are the only thing that I could find that looked like it could help me. I am the daughter of a very brave man. His name was Phil and this February 9th it will be 2 years since he lost his battle with cancer. I thought that I was able to handle the holidays but I am having such a hard time. My dads bday is the 27th of December and I don't know how I am going to handle this without my family now. My mom acts like nothing ever happened and the rest of the family says that it is still too hard to deal with. How am I going to ever come to grips with this when they can't even talk to me about it??? I know they lost someone they loved. So did I and I think that I lose him too soon ( he was 48) I really thought that I had this handled but now I am wondering how I even made it this long without breaking. I know this is a survivors network, I feel like I have had to survive cancer right along with my dad. It was like a battle that I feel like I am still having to fight.... Is this right to feel or am I losing my mind???? Please tell me, because I have no clue.