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TAG1204
TAG1204 Member Posts: 3
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hello,

I'm new to this forum so I'll explain my case and look forward to some needed support from fellow friends. I just turned 35 and was diagnosed and treated for colorectal cancer just over 5 years ago. It is about 4 yr and 3 months since my surgery (illiostomy) and I'm still clean (THANK GOD!). I have CAT scans about every 3 months. I had blood work about 6 weeks ago and all was clean. I just had a new CAT scan yesterday and see my oncologist Friday. I get so nervous still. I have a wife and 2 children 9 and 16. I guess at times I get very scared at dying and leaving my family behind at my age. During my treatments my wife lost her sister at the age of 31 due to this I think it makes everything that much more real for me. I don't mean to talk or write so much but I find at times I need some extra support. Thanks for the time and comments.

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  • krystiesq
    krystiesq Member Posts: 240 Member
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    HelloTag1204
    Worrying feeds the devil's lies! Just be patient with yourself. It is normal to worry about new tests, new scans. But your blood work is normal. The new scan is just extra precaution.
  • Jimbob-
    Jimbob- Member Posts: 46
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    krystiesq said:

    HelloTag1204
    Worrying feeds the devil's lies! Just be patient with yourself. It is normal to worry about new tests, new scans. But your blood work is normal. The new scan is just extra precaution.

    Hello Tag
    Yep, I know exactly what you are talking about. I am 66 years old and my Family is grown, so i do not have that issue.

    However I do want to see grandchildren and continue enjoying my wife and Travel and do all of those things we dreamed about in our younger days.

    I dread tests and hearing the results. But they are a part of the hand we have been dealt.

    God Bless you and be strong. Your family deserves that.
  • ldot123
    ldot123 Member Posts: 272
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    Jimbob- said:

    Hello Tag
    Yep, I know exactly what you are talking about. I am 66 years old and my Family is grown, so i do not have that issue.

    However I do want to see grandchildren and continue enjoying my wife and Travel and do all of those things we dreamed about in our younger days.

    I dread tests and hearing the results. But they are a part of the hand we have been dealt.

    God Bless you and be strong. Your family deserves that.

    Hang in there
    Hi Tag,

    I am going through a similar thing. Just had my scan today. I am 2 years from diagnosis. I start getting a bit wired and worried waiting for the results. I know this is normal but I still worry. It is human nature. I am sure everything is fine. Stop by more often. We all enjoy hearing success stories and are ready to pitch in with support when needed. The people here are amazing.

    Cheers,
    Lance
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  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
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    'Still clean'....
    THAT'S the ticket!!! And, at going on 5 years, well, it's magic!!!!

    I'm a bit older than you are, but am right behind you (sorry...lol) on surgery timetable...4 years in May of next year....

    I have a small self-talk when I find myself getting too stressed....stress cause my cancer, I don't want cancer again, so I won't stress anymore!!!!!

    I know, it may be stretching a bit to say that was the only reason for my rectal cancer...but this talk always makes me de-stress and stop worrying, whatever is bothering me....

    The time-wore saying fits, too....80% of what we worry about never happens, the other 20% that does happen, we can't do anything to keep it from happening, so why worry????

    Hugs, Kathi
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
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    I understand
    I understand your fear and your worry when you have tests. I feel the same way. But I do have days when I'm just a person, not a cancer patient, and those are very good days.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • TAG1204
    TAG1204 Member Posts: 3
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    tootsie1 said:

    I understand
    I understand your fear and your worry when you have tests. I feel the same way. But I do have days when I'm just a person, not a cancer patient, and those are very good days.

    *hugs*
    Gail

    Thanks everyone. It really
    Thanks everyone. It really helps hearing from others that are in the same boat as me. I'll let you all know how tomorrow goes. As for now I'm getting back to work and letting my worries go as best I can. Thanks again for the prayers and support.

    TAG
  • Kanort
    Kanort Member Posts: 1,272 Member
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    Wellness!
    Congratulations on your great bloodwork results. I know your CT scan will prove that you remain cancer free as well. I certainly understand your fears. I am sorry about your wife's sister. Your living a healthy life to an old age will be a tribute to her.

    Thinking of you tomorrow and wishing for the best possible results.

    Hugs,

    Kay
  • TAG1204
    TAG1204 Member Posts: 3
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    Kanort said:

    Wellness!
    Congratulations on your great bloodwork results. I know your CT scan will prove that you remain cancer free as well. I certainly understand your fears. I am sorry about your wife's sister. Your living a healthy life to an old age will be a tribute to her.

    Thinking of you tomorrow and wishing for the best possible results.

    Hugs,

    Kay

    Just got back from my
    Just got back from my doctor's appointment and all was clear except a small gull stone which I can deal with. These weeks are so stressful for me. I would like you all to know how much all your thoughts and prayers ment/mean to me. Your words help me through when times are confusing for me. I will keep you all in my prayers. I will be active on this forum and I hope to be able to help some of you and others when I am able.

    TAG
  • msccolon
    msccolon Member Posts: 1,917 Member
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    TAG1204 said:

    Just got back from my
    Just got back from my doctor's appointment and all was clear except a small gull stone which I can deal with. These weeks are so stressful for me. I would like you all to know how much all your thoughts and prayers ment/mean to me. Your words help me through when times are confusing for me. I will keep you all in my prayers. I will be active on this forum and I hope to be able to help some of you and others when I am able.

    TAG

    Awesome scan results!
    I am sure you are greatly relieved! The gall stone won't be fun, but you will be able to enjoy the holidays without worrying about the beast having come back! Enjoy and God bless.
    mary
  • ldot123
    ldot123 Member Posts: 272
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    msccolon said:

    Awesome scan results!
    I am sure you are greatly relieved! The gall stone won't be fun, but you will be able to enjoy the holidays without worrying about the beast having come back! Enjoy and God bless.
    mary

    Fantastic
    Great News! Believe me, I am one of the worst for worrying. I just had my CT done this week and will wait a week and a half to see the doc for the results. I had to wait. The folks here on this board are great though - so supportive.

    Cheers,
    Lance
  • mykidsmommy
    mykidsmommy Member Posts: 76
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    Jealous
    I am happy and jealous - as I wish I could hit the fast forward button and be where you are - but I know in due time.. Thank you for reminding all of us that the 5 year mark can happen and you made it!!! Yeah for you and yeah for your family! You all made it!
  • steven12
    steven12 Member Posts: 51
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    I just hoped to be NED after
    I just hoped to be NED after five years. Unfortunately It is reoccurred after 2 and half year after my surgery. You are doing fantastic and I think you can start to think that you are cured. You should not worry much about every new test. I think you'll have it less and less often. I have a question. How long you having CAT scan every 3 months? Did it ever occured to you that this is too much radiation? I am trying to avoid too much of that but still my onco and radiologist doesn't want an MRI. Obviously because it is more costly for the health care. Regards and good luck
    Steve

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