IDONTWANTAGO

ramona41
ramona41 Member Posts: 72
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
ever feel like that?? i dont want to go to the doctors.. its that magic three month check up time..and alas i am sure its some kind of cat scan pet scan something something due also.. grrrr i dont wannaaaaaaaa has a semicolon fit..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh then gets up and grins..okay i feel better now..thanks for this board..you guys and gals are the BESTTTTTTTTT..love ya..ramona who has a sore butt and likes to throw fits..cause i can.. heh heh..

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  • Moesimo
    Moesimo Member Posts: 1,072 Member
    #2
    I agree, i hate taking time off fromwork for a doctor visit or a test. i would rather take a day off to go shopping or something. Oh weell, we can't always have what we want. I am finding that my appts. aren't as frequent as they used to be.

    Moe
  • crazylady
    crazylady Member Posts: 543 Member
    #3
    Hi,
    I can totally relate. I had just gotten to the point where my appointments where less frequent when it spread to my lung. I actually sat in my car and argued with myself about going in to the doctors office to start chemo. I went, but I sure didn't want to.
    Jamie
  • Betsydoglover
    Betsydoglover Member Posts: 1,248 Member
    #4
    I can relate completely to what you are saying. I have chemo on Monday after a 6 week break and I am dreading it. Doc's office is next to a mall and one part of my brain just wants to go shop when my husband drops me off instead of going inside and getting the drugs. I know I have to do it though - and I will - but it isn't easy, especially after all this time.

    Betsy
  • taraHK
    taraHK Member Posts: 1,952 Member
    #5
    I can relate. Honestly, I think the most courageous thing many of us do is simply crossing the threshold of the hospital door. Some days it is like climbing Everest. But, we do it. We should get a medal just for that!
    Tara
  • jana11
    jana11 Member Posts: 705
    #6
    I hear ya!! Everytime I check in for chemo they ask, "how are you?" I always respond - I'll be better when I'm not here and smile.

    I hate going to see doctors and I am a doctor. My mom always asks me if I've seen a doctor - and I tell her I see them everyday. Hee hee.

    We are all with you; doing the right stuff and praying it all works. Not fair, but it is what we need to do.

    Let me join the ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh with you. jana
  • kangatoo
    kangatoo Member Posts: 2,105 Member
    #7
    jana11 said:

    I hear ya!! Everytime I check in for chemo they ask, "how are you?" I always respond - I'll be better when I'm not here and smile.

    I hate going to see doctors and I am a doctor. My mom always asks me if I've seen a doctor - and I tell her I see them everyday. Hee hee.

    We are all with you; doing the right stuff and praying it all works. Not fair, but it is what we need to do.

    Let me join the ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh with you. jana

    Hey Ramona..ever seen a grown man cry? It is't a pretty site to be sure. I must admit during chemo I sat in the smallest corner I could find and went thru a few handkerchiefs....nah...not tissues...I blew a hole in them!
    Jamie...do you know what tha first sign of madness is?.....talkin to yahself!....lol! Jest kiddin...lol!
    Ramona....as you can see it is pretty common stuff for us all to fall in a heap once in a while gal. Jen often gets woken up in the middle of the night 'cos she senses that I have "gone to tha puta room". She knows that me being awake 2.00am in the morning a day or two before tests is my way of saying...I HATE THIS CRAP.
    So you are never alone in your thoughts Ramona. We are all strange bedfellows...well, not in a literal sense but yah get my meaning babe.
    You'll be fine....kanga says so!
    huggs, Ross n Jen
  • 2bhealed
    2bhealed Member Posts: 2,064 Member
    #8
    hi ramona,

    I hear ya woman. Last year I tried a new doc (local and the tests are "free" through the hospital where my hubby works) and I sat in the CT room with tears streaming down my face. The techs didn't quite know what to make of it. But it's sitting there thinking that I don't want this to be part of my life for the rest of my life. A part had to grieve losing my "normal" life in exchange for one revolving around cancer healing and tests verifying that fact. It just hits ya sometime.

    But on the other side of that coin when I go to the Mayo Clinic my hubby takes off work, we stay at a nice hotel go shopping and browsing at Barnes and Noble, and when the tests are all done we hit the co-op for a wonderful organic meal. We make a date of it. Hey with 5 kids ya grab what you can.

    Mayo is incredibly beautiful. They spend millions in their buildings and the end result is a place that does not feel "medical" or institutional at all. It's a sight to see. The wordwork is dark and beautiful, the waiting rooms warm and inviting and large. there is interesting art work all around.

    Gosh I am gushing about it but point is they understand the patient and how tired we get of cold institutional sterile medical facilities.

    Now if they could only get some People magazines in the waiting room!! haha (gotta have some mind candy once in awhile).

    peace, emily who can so relate to what you're saying

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