Still fighting.

hummingbyrd said:

Hey lady, sorry to hear the news. I guess once diagnosed always diagnosed. I'm 41 and was dx w/ breast cancer at age 38. I've got bone mets now treated with radiation to my right arm and low back. I also had another lump removed from my other breast, but I'm doing great. Not technically in remission cause my tumor markers are still on the rise, but they can't find any cancer, thank God. For me that has been my refuge in all of this. I realized when I was first diagnosed, after I quit pushing the Demoral button, that this is just another thing. My diagnosis wasn't a death sentence, it was a new lease on life. I wake up w/ such a grateful attitude, I don't take any day for granted, I make the most of everyday I have because it may be and always has been possibly the last day of my life. Not because I have cancer but because thats the way it is. Who went to the World Trade Center thinking a plane was going to hit thier office? Who wakes up and says I'm going to have a heart attack today or a car wreck? Do you see what I'm saying any day can be anybody's last day. We are actually blessed by knowing that. We can take advantage of that knowledge. Slow down, enjoy life more, the kids, the grandkids, and a new relationship with God. I tell you I could not have done it without him. He will give you the strength to endure the tests, the treatments plus they make some good drugs out there to help also! Laughter helps me a lot. My docs tried to tell me how long I had to live. I said "nope, stop right there, my days are #'ed just like yours. You don't know how long I have to live, you don't know how long you have to live, but one things for sure we'll all be dead before I get this bill paid off!" I'm about 18 months past what I think they thought I would make, but that's not whats important. I'll be here till God calls me home. I may get hit by a truck tomorrow, but I'm not going to sit around and worry about it. As for a cure you're right lymphoma is one of the ones that they are on the verge of curing. I think we are about to see an explosion in medical technology with this gene therapy and stem cell research. Course we may see an explosion in the middle east first! I know I have a strange since of humor. Hey, when you can't sleep don't count sheep, go to the shepherd instead. God bless you, hope this helps. By the way I have Parkinson's, Sarcoidosis, got a divorce last year, lost my job and had to put my house up for sale. Sounds like a country song! But I still got my dog and by the grace of God got to keep my house and two wonderful boys, 13 and 10. Life is good, heavens better, but I'm living till I go.