ct results not good

nettie4
nettie4 Member Posts: 145
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
hello all. i got my ct results and meet with the onc on monday. it showed progressive disease. the tumor in my left lower lobe is twice the size it was just in may and i have one in my medial sternum and prgression in the nodes. i expected some growth but not like that. i write this with many tears flowing from my eyes not for me but for my children. i know the Lord will take care of them if this stupid disease takes my life but in the meantime i need the strength to deal with this new trial. and i am soooooo tired. i plan to fight this but for today i just need someone to lean on. thank you

nettie
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  • juliababy
    juliababy Member Posts: 130
    Oh Nettie, I am so very very sorry for this step back, but please know that there is still a very good chance you can overcome this hurdle. I'm sure you onc will have a new game plan ready for you on Monday. I know it's so so hard right now but pleaaassseee try to stay positive. DOn't forget there are many people out there who have advanced disease and live a long life.

    I will keep you in my prayers and please let us know how Monday's visit turns out.

    Susana
  • rwkeach
    rwkeach Member Posts: 17
    Hello nettie,
    Just wanted to send a big hug your way. I wish I could do more for you. I'm so sad that so many of us have to walk this hard road. I will be thinking of you and will include you in my prayers.
    Stay strong!
    Regine
  • kerry
    kerry Member Posts: 1,313
    Nettie,

    You lean on us all you want and need. We'll be here for you. You stay strong and fight this dastardly disease with all your strength. You will be in our prayers.

    Kerry
  • scouty
    scouty Member Posts: 1,965
    I am so sorry for you and your family but have to recommend something to you. After all, what choice do you have? I hate to be that truthful, but I too face that same dilemna everyday. Unless you have been there, no one understands it like we do. You CAN help yourself today!!!! JUICE, JUICE, JUICE. Slow the **** cells down. Please let me know if I can be of any assistance to you honey. As I told you before, I owe you.

    Also know that you are in my daily thoughts and prayers. I admire you so. Hugs to you and remember internal fortitude is huge and you have that down pat.

    Lisa P.
  • jsabol
    jsabol Member Posts: 1,145
    Nettie, I was so sorry to see the title of your post. You have been so strong and brave in this fight; more prayers are coming your way for continued strength. Judy
  • CAMaura
    CAMaura Member Posts: 719
    Oh Nettie, I am so incredibly sorry for you. Please lean...lean hard. You will find the strength to stand and fight again. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
    All the best for a quiet and restful day for you.
    Maura
  • Glv49
    Glv49 Member Posts: 206
    Nettie,
    Sorry to hear about your ct results. My prayers and thoughts are with you. Stay strong, and put yourself in the hands of the Lord, he will give you strength.
    Peace and prayers,
    Gail
  • livin
    livin Member Posts: 318
    Oh Nettie, Iam sorry about your results. My prayers are with you. Try to stay strong, I know the doctors has to have another plan. This is in God hands.
  • 2bhealed
    2bhealed Member Posts: 2,064
    ((((((((((NETTIE))))))))))))

    honey, let the tears flow. Cry them all out. Scream. Rant. Rave. Howl. Bawl.

    Then pick yourself up and move to Plan B....whatever that may be. Of course I like scouty's idea. :-)

    Please read this book:

    A Cancer Battle Plan by Anne Frahm

    It should give you hope....and Lord knows we can never have too much hope!

    As a mother--especially of a little one like you have--I grieve with you. It just sucks. But they will give you strength to carry on and fight like the dickens. So will we. You are going through the second worse fearful happening that a mother can have -- the first thing being something awful happening to our babies.

    You are in my daily prayers. If there is anything I can to help do not hesitate to email me.

    peace, emily who is a mother first and cancer survivor second
  • BusterBrown
    BusterBrown Member Posts: 221
    Nettie,
    Tomorrow is another day so hang in there. You are a pillar, you are an inspiration, and you are strong...
    You are in my thoughts and prayers...
    Buster

    Take Care
  • crazylady
    crazylady Member Posts: 543
    Hi Nettie,
    I'm so sorry that your ct results were not good. Hang in there and stay strong! This is the place to come whenever you need someone to lean on.
    Take care,
    Jamie
  • themis01
    themis01 Member Posts: 167
    Nettie,
    Keep fighting for yourself and your family. I hope the doctor's have a new plan on Monday that helps to restore your strength.
  • Reini
    Reini Member Posts: 22 Member
    Hi Nettie,
    We are so sorry it took so long to get back to you, you are in our prayers. Good luck on Monday, our oncologist said that the chemicals are getting so much better to fight this, God bless, Bel and Reini
  • pia123run
    pia123run Member Posts: 33
    My heart goes out too you and your family, As hard as it may seem, be positive and fight like crazy!!!! make the most of everyday and know you are loved by many. You are in my thoughts and prayers.FIGHT, FIGHT. FIGHT!!!!!!
  • jana11
    jana11 Member Posts: 705
    Nettie, Hi.

    It has all been said. You never left my thoughts and prayers. You are such a sweet and wonderful person-you feel like an old friend to me. Give yourself some time to adjust to this new situation. Talk to the onc. Stay strong. Enjoy every last moment, smile, and hug.

    We are always here for you. Lean in any direction - we got you.

    Keep us posted when you have time. jana
  • taunya
    taunya Member Posts: 390
    Nettie,
    I am so sorry to hear your news. I am praying for you. Hang in there and try everything. Maybe Lisa and Emily have something up their sleeves. It can't hurt eh? Love and hugs to you sweetheart.
    Love,
    Taunya
  • ramona41
    ramona41 Member Posts: 72
    gets my air pump and pumps up my shoulders..lean all ya want..thats what we are here for.. dont lose hope.. so many wonderful things these docs can do these days.. keeping ya in my thoughts .. stay strong..ramona
  • taraHK
    taraHK Member Posts: 1,952
    I am so sorry to hear this news. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know what you mean about the kiddies -- that is always my greatest concern/fear. But children are amazingly resiliant. Thinking of you.
    Tara
  • jana11
    jana11 Member Posts: 705
    jana11 said:

    Nettie, Hi.

    It has all been said. You never left my thoughts and prayers. You are such a sweet and wonderful person-you feel like an old friend to me. Give yourself some time to adjust to this new situation. Talk to the onc. Stay strong. Enjoy every last moment, smile, and hug.

    We are always here for you. Lean in any direction - we got you.

    Keep us posted when you have time. jana

    Just came back from yoga, you stayed with me the whole time. One of my instructors told me a yoga master once said, (paraphrased, of course)
    "life can be measured in both time or breaths. If you measure with breaths, you can lengthen your life by simply taking longer, more soothing breaths." I try to do this every moment I think of it.

    j
  • Moesimo
    Moesimo Member Posts: 1,072
    I am soooooo sorry to hear your news. i hope they can come up with a plan for treatment for you. You will be in my prayers.

    Maureen