1 year ago today, I heard those three words
It causes reflection, since they didn't give me this long to live, and yet, here I am, and will be I hope for many more years. I thought since hearing those words, I would change, towards being a better kinder person. Yet, I find I'm still me. I still laugh, love, argue, sing, dream, have nightmares, get ticked off. Cancer hasn't changed me, just changed my world in the way I have to live it, such as around Doctor appointments, chemo appointments, surgeries, where are the nearest bathrooms.
I thought I would greet this day with sadness and a bit of depression, after all, I still have cancer, it didn't magically disappear, and even when my turn at NED will be here someday, (doing mop up chemo right now) I will still be anxious at every scan, every colonoscopy, wondering when the next tumor is going to appear. But I find myself waking up today, it's 63 degrees at 9:00 AM as I type this, and it's going to be a beautiful day, the sun is shining and I'm just plain happy.
Pete's party is today in celebration of his life, and I'm going to enjoy that, as I hope all of you will be enjoying the celebrating along with him and us.
Today is Nana B's Birthday and I'm sure everyone will be including that in the celebration too.
So hello February 6th, my "anniversary" date, I'm here, I'm still me, and it's OKAY.
Winter Marie
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I m so happy for you
Oh our dearest Winter Marie you have come a long way and you give all of us so much hope to go on . And just for that I thank you from the bottom of heart I love you hugs Tina0 -
You've come a long way Winter!
You are on an absolutely amazing journey. I remember when you came "on board" + I do think there have been some changes in you. You post often, + confidently. Maybe it's just partly I have gotten to know you better, but I see someone leading a happy, rich life, supporting so many on this board along their own journeys. I love reading your stories, even when you are talking about sweeping the floors. I see such a can-do spirit in you. You have conquered so much in the past year + should be so proud of yourself. I am proud of you!0 -
Winter Marie
Winter Marie,
We are so glad you are here. You are such a supportive member of our family here. I hope your NED title is coming up soon.
Here's to you, Pete and Nana B today!
Aloha,
Kathleen0 -
Cheers to the 3 Amigos !!!Kathleen808 said:Winter Marie
Winter Marie,
We are so glad you are here. You are such a supportive member of our family here. I hope your NED title is coming up soon.
Here's to you, Pete and Nana B today!
Aloha,
Kathleen
Yep 3 great individuals all in the own limelight today. May this be a great day for each of you and for you Winter.....my rememberance of you will always be of your first avatar sitting on the beach with your back turned to me like my child does when shes upset at me, a woman of many thoughts and many rebuttals but yet sitting there like a storm brewing....and just as a storm erupts, it just as quickly becomes calm, serene, beautiful in itself.....That was you, is you, and will be you for as long as I know you....You are a wonderful story in yourself, keep sharing it........Love to you and yours, Clift0 -
very well saidBuzzard said:Cheers to the 3 Amigos !!!
Yep 3 great individuals all in the own limelight today. May this be a great day for each of you and for you Winter.....my rememberance of you will always be of your first avatar sitting on the beach with your back turned to me like my child does when shes upset at me, a woman of many thoughts and many rebuttals but yet sitting there like a storm brewing....and just as a storm erupts, it just as quickly becomes calm, serene, beautiful in itself.....That was you, is you, and will be you for as long as I know you....You are a wonderful story in yourself, keep sharing it........Love to you and yours, Clift
i have not known you long but you have the kind of fight in you that a lot of us wish we had.to tell you the truth i am fixing to start my second fight with this beast and really need the people like you to push me.you said you have not changed just the world you have to live in did.i never thought of it like that and i respect you for saying that.i have fought for 2 years wanting the old me back,that will never be,but now i will sit and think about what you have said in hopes it will help me to fight once again...Godbless...johnnybegood0 -
Anniversay
Hey we all remember that anniversay date with those three words, it's a terrible funny how sometimes we can't remember our kids, or grandkids birthday at a second thought, but we always remember the anniversary we don't want to remember. Yup I'm still laughing, living, aruging, and being the person that people knew me as before - well maybe more redefined. I've given a lot of thought to what has happened and I'm sometimes not liking me from where I'd come from - putting my husband through He!! because I'd been feeling bad through my ordeal. I'm sure lucky he was so forgiving. Keep those special things about you. Love your posts and just remember that you are always thought of by me. Wishing the best for you. Stay happy
Hugs! Kim0 -
I know you willjohnnybegood said:very well said
i have not known you long but you have the kind of fight in you that a lot of us wish we had.to tell you the truth i am fixing to start my second fight with this beast and really need the people like you to push me.you said you have not changed just the world you have to live in did.i never thought of it like that and i respect you for saying that.i have fought for 2 years wanting the old me back,that will never be,but now i will sit and think about what you have said in hopes it will help me to fight once again...Godbless...johnnybegood
I have every bit of faith in you, that you will fight this newest round well and vigorously with all you've got.
You keep fighting hun, we're right here with you fighting along side.
Winter Marie0 -
Happy for you
Dear Winter Marie I'm so happy for you! You are such a dear sweet person. You were the first person to contact me with advice. I am going to have a liver resection tomorrow and I wanted to let you know. I will not be here for a little while (not taking my laptop to hospital). It all happened so quickly my head is still spinning but it is all good. I care so much for everybody here on this board. I will be in touch as soon as I can.
Hugs
Diane0 -
It seems like a lifetime and yet
One year can fly by! I find that attitude makes all the difference. Congrats on making it to a better place.
Hugs!0 -
DianeOGammy01 said:Happy for you
Dear Winter Marie I'm so happy for you! You are such a dear sweet person. You were the first person to contact me with advice. I am going to have a liver resection tomorrow and I wanted to let you know. I will not be here for a little while (not taking my laptop to hospital). It all happened so quickly my head is still spinning but it is all good. I care so much for everybody here on this board. I will be in touch as soon as I can.
Hugs
Diane
I know you'll do just fine. I'm glad you are having your liver resection. Yea!!! Take good care of yourself, and we'll all be thinking of you tomorrow and the next few days!!!
Please let us know when you can how you are doing.
Many Hugs your way!!!!
Winter Marie0 -
This comment has been removed by the Moderatorsoccermom13 said:It seems like a lifetime and yet
One year can fly by! I find that attitude makes all the difference. Congrats on making it to a better place.
Hugs!0 -
I year of you kicking some
I year of you kicking some cancer ****. Good job. Do I wish I was magically a better person after hearing I had cancer, sure. But it did help put things in perspective for me. I hope all of the coming years are nothing but amazing for you.0 -
I don't think any of us willlisa42 said:yes you are here & vibrant as ever
Hi Marie,
It is weird when you get to that diagnosis "anniversary" date. I've had three of them so far, and plan to keep on going. You will too!!
Take care,
Lisa
I don't think any of us will forget the aweful day, mine will be the 13th and it was a friday, go figure... almost 2 years ago.. every scan and appt is still stressful.. Congrats on doing so well. just a matter of time before you hear the best 3 works NED..HUGS0 -
DianeOGammy01 said:Happy for you
Dear Winter Marie I'm so happy for you! You are such a dear sweet person. You were the first person to contact me with advice. I am going to have a liver resection tomorrow and I wanted to let you know. I will not be here for a little while (not taking my laptop to hospital). It all happened so quickly my head is still spinning but it is all good. I care so much for everybody here on this board. I will be in touch as soon as I can.
Hugs
Diane
I want to wish you the best of everything with your liver surgery. When you are up to it let us know how you are doing.0 -
BuzzBuzzard said:Cheers to the 3 Amigos !!!
Yep 3 great individuals all in the own limelight today. May this be a great day for each of you and for you Winter.....my rememberance of you will always be of your first avatar sitting on the beach with your back turned to me like my child does when shes upset at me, a woman of many thoughts and many rebuttals but yet sitting there like a storm brewing....and just as a storm erupts, it just as quickly becomes calm, serene, beautiful in itself.....That was you, is you, and will be you for as long as I know you....You are a wonderful story in yourself, keep sharing it........Love to you and yours, Clift
Thank you Clift, I love the memories of that day, thank you for reminding me of them, and your kind words.
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Those words
I'm amazed at how far all of us have come since those words. We didn't wallow COMPLETELY (I did wallow a bit) in the words and the diagnosis. We overcame those words, we did the chemo's or the other alternatives, but we did what we could to live our lives to their fullest to our best. We do what we can, to keep on going, taking in words of encouragement to hold us for a little longer, giving words of encouragement to help others go on and keep on being themselves. It isn't easy living around cancer, but we've done it, we're doing it, and we'll keep on trying to get rid of those tumors. Those words, it turns out will be with us the rest of our lives. After all, they were harsh words to our ears, words we thought we would never hear. So we will carry those words with us, remember the date we heard them, but we won't let those words define us, remake us, or change us for the worse.
We will strive on, we will not lie down and die, cancer can kiss our royal arses!!!
Winter Marie0
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