After the "well, we can prolong your life" talk

lisa42 said:

dear Leslie
Hi Leslie,

It sure does get hard sometimes, doesn't it- we just need a boost back up from someone else who has been there "in the mud", as was so eloquently already said.
I feel your pain, girlfriend- I found myself quite down this past week too, just pondering all the possibilities of my life from here forward.
Maybe you do need a new perspective from a different onc- something to consider.
You'll keep looking forward and picking yourself up again because it's what you have to do!

By the way, I just fell in love with Wyoming when I was there for the first time 2-1/2 years ago. My husband's great aunt lives in Dubois and the Wind River Valley is a beautiful place! Just thinking about that beautiful landscape cheers me up- you live in God's country- that's how I think about it- still so open and free!

Hugs to you tonight Leslie-
Lisa

pete43lost_at_sea said:

leslie just strive to thrive. I love ryming and wish I could spe
I am strangley glad you heard one doctors honest opinion. Of course I wish like hell it was "we can prolong your life until 150 years" tell the doctor if he can get you close to that age he can have your horse in the photo. it might work.

We all need to the score, I don't want it withheld or watered down either.

Get a few others is possible. Tell them you are looking for HOPE. has anyone seen her ?

Say if tomorrows your last day and you spend it down in the dumps. what a waste.
Get some warm and wonderful real and virtual friends and fill your life with Joy.

Its Xmas after all. Pray for a miracle and at least ask the universe for help.
If I get tested by the same sort of news I hope I have the courage to honest with my feelings like you were. By breaking the ice you really have helped many others contemplate a confronting message and senario.

Pete

Annabelle41415 said:

Sorry
Those are some pretty sobbering words. Did you ever think about getting a second opinion. With all the new trials out there, a statement like that shouldn't even be allowed. Hope your flue gets better too. Praying for you.

Kim

snommintj said:

Buying time
A lot can change in just a few months. Buy as much time as you can. The drs gave me 2 months at diagnosis (mar 08) then they gave me 30 days in Aug (09). During my infection days when I kept getting septic the drs called my family in from out of town and said my death was imminent with maybe 6 hours left. I reached a point where I simply couldn't breathe anymore, it was to hard and painful and wasn't doing me any good when I did. So I said goodbye to my wife and little boy and gave up. I really thought I would die and at that moment became completely cool with the idea. I guess I blacked out. I woke up some 12 hours later feeling better and in a much better emotional state. Death is no longer a burden that weighs on me. In my condition death is the easy way out and the one everyone expects me to take. They may be right, but I'm going to take advantage of every new treatment that comes along. I never know when the next clever idea will come along and buy me another 6-12 months. Right now they seem to be coming along every 6-12 months and that is just fine with me.

coolvdub said:

It's been said before
Leslie,

There is no expiration date on our foreheads. I'm so sorry you doctor doesn't understand this. If you are feeling reasonably well, that is good. Just take each new day as a blessing,hard to do some days, but a positive attitude can do wonders for you.

Sorry you and your husband are down with the flu, I'm at home fighting a cold that as been going around at work. It's actually nice to just be feeling sick from a cold versus the cancer, words I never thought about saying before. I will be praying for you to find the strength to fight on and the knowledge to win this fight. Happy Holidays to you and yours.

Don