Sometimes I just get tired of it ~UPDATE POSTED~

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  • robinvan
    robinvan Member Posts: 1,012
    #22
    Suck it up Princess!
    Sorry Brooks... Had to say it! :);)

    I hope you are feeling better today. I surrender to my "down days", spend the day in bed reading and napping. I'm ussually ready to be human again by the time Pam get's home from work. Rarely do I stay down for mmany days in a row.

    I've personally never had "clinical depression" but it is something to watch out for. Even, or especially, after treatment finishes. The "emotional aftermath" can take us by surprise and leave us feeiling pretty bad.

    You've got many very good days ahead Brooks. I hope they bring you every blessing.

    Be well... Rob; in Vancouver

    "Life is short. And we do not have long to gladden the hearts of those who walk the way with us. So let us be quick to love, and let us make haste to show kindness." Henri Amiel
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #23
    "Life is NOT Funny Sometimes"
    Brooks - I've waited a long time for you to say this - that Life is NOT funny sometimes.

    Some days, it's hard to keep all of the plates up in the air spinnin'.

    I'm sure you are feeling better hopefully today - all that each of us can do is to take those days as they come, go to bed, get up the next morning and hope it's better. "Hope Springs Eternal" as they say.

    But like everyone else, I completely relate to what you are telling us. The entire population goes through this as well, only when you have/have had Cancer, it raises the ante.

    I'm up against one of those "Not Funny" moments right now - at the financial crossroads in my journey, so right now it's not funny. Keep on keepin' on as you've been doing. When we get up more than we've been knocked down, we win.

    "You've Got a Friend", here in TX, remember that, Brooks :)

    -Craig
  • luv3jay
    luv3jay Member Posts: 533 Member
    #24
    Oh Brooks...how many times
    Oh Brooks...how many times have I thought the very same thing. But yes, you are right the sun will come out tomorrow. And its ok to lurk in the dumps sometimes, you're only human after all. But don't stay down there too long. You have lots of folks thinking and praying for you in a big way!

    -Sheri
  • thready
    thready Member Posts: 474
    #25
    Feeling Better
    Hey Brooks,
    Just wondering if you are feeling better?
    Jan
  • just4Brooks
    just4Brooks Member Posts: 980 Member
    #26
    luv3jay said:

    Oh Brooks...how many times
    Oh Brooks...how many times have I thought the very same thing. But yes, you are right the sun will come out tomorrow. And its ok to lurk in the dumps sometimes, you're only human after all. But don't stay down there too long. You have lots of folks thinking and praying for you in a big way!

    -Sheri

    If we dont have a down day?
    If we dont have a down day how would we know when things are good? Thanks everybody for the kind words. I just had that one day that I just wanted to run away and was fine the next day. I went to my 4 years olds (Hunter) T-Ball game later that day and sat there freezing my butt off thinking. DANG... I'm happy to be alive!! Them little guys are so cute running around without a care in the world. I'll post a pic or two of the game for you guys to see.

    You guys are great
    Brooks
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    #27
    Oh, yeah
    Hi Brooks,

    I am SO sick of it at this moment! It is just so all consuming- not only trying to stay alive, but deal with side effects, and then having the stress of fighting with idiots at the doctor's office and more idiots who are also calloused and cruel within the health insurance company. I almost feel like taking off to a tropical island all by myself and leaving everything and everyone behind for a week. Hmm... I just thought of that right as I wrote it- lol! I really wouldn't want to go away from my family, but the thought of having peace and bliss right now sounds wonderful!

    I'm glad to read you got over your down time and are feeling better again. We ALL have our ups and downs. I know that things will be up for me again soon (I hope and pray). :)
    Take care, Brooks!

    Lisa
  • just4Brooks
    just4Brooks Member Posts: 980 Member
    #28
    lisa42 said:

    Oh, yeah
    Hi Brooks,

    I am SO sick of it at this moment! It is just so all consuming- not only trying to stay alive, but deal with side effects, and then having the stress of fighting with idiots at the doctor's office and more idiots who are also calloused and cruel within the health insurance company. I almost feel like taking off to a tropical island all by myself and leaving everything and everyone behind for a week. Hmm... I just thought of that right as I wrote it- lol! I really wouldn't want to go away from my family, but the thought of having peace and bliss right now sounds wonderful!

    I'm glad to read you got over your down time and are feeling better again. We ALL have our ups and downs. I know that things will be up for me again soon (I hope and pray). :)
    Take care, Brooks!

    Lisa

    I hear ya
    Hey Lisa, I cant even begin to imagine what you are going through inside of your head. I often remember thinking that if I can just let my head go on a 10 min vacation how nice that will be. To escape form everything cancer for just 10 minutes would be the best feeling. It’s BS what the insurance people do. I’m sure they just want to stall anything they can before they pay for what they should. But I really believe this advocate is a great idea because I think they are large enough where they would scare them with a law suit. Try to enjoy the rest of the day with your family. In the meantime if you happen to find that tropical island can I borrow it for a day or two?


    Call me anytime
    Brooks
  • maglets
    maglets Member Posts: 2,576 Member
    #29
    just4Brooks said:

    I hear ya
    Hey Lisa, I cant even begin to imagine what you are going through inside of your head. I often remember thinking that if I can just let my head go on a 10 min vacation how nice that will be. To escape form everything cancer for just 10 minutes would be the best feeling. It’s BS what the insurance people do. I’m sure they just want to stall anything they can before they pay for what they should. But I really believe this advocate is a great idea because I think they are large enough where they would scare them with a law suit. Try to enjoy the rest of the day with your family. In the meantime if you happen to find that tropical island can I borrow it for a day or two?


    Call me anytime
    Brooks

    up and down
    hello Brooks, Lisa and all....just checkin in...I like what you say Brooks a 10 minute vacation from cancer would be a great gift. Smiling and being strong ....you know the question that drives me nuts! "oh you must have learned so much in this journey" yikes I guess so.....let me see...am i more wise? Gee I don't seem to have discovered the true answer to life :):)

    ok just Thursday nite blabbing....hang in Brooks....

    hugs, mags
  • GOOFYLADIE
    GOOFYLADIE Member Posts: 232 Member
    #30
    Sundanceh said:

    "Life is NOT Funny Sometimes"
    Brooks - I've waited a long time for you to say this - that Life is NOT funny sometimes.

    Some days, it's hard to keep all of the plates up in the air spinnin'.

    I'm sure you are feeling better hopefully today - all that each of us can do is to take those days as they come, go to bed, get up the next morning and hope it's better. "Hope Springs Eternal" as they say.

    But like everyone else, I completely relate to what you are telling us. The entire population goes through this as well, only when you have/have had Cancer, it raises the ante.

    I'm up against one of those "Not Funny" moments right now - at the financial crossroads in my journey, so right now it's not funny. Keep on keepin' on as you've been doing. When we get up more than we've been knocked down, we win.

    "You've Got a Friend", here in TX, remember that, Brooks :)

    -Craig

    Hi Craig and Brooks
    I am right with you Craig. It has been 12 years and I have been pinched, poked, proded, every step of the way. Thank Gosh! All those tests made sure I was and am here today. However, now all my side affects from the Super whammy chemo, I got back then has taken a toll on my body and our pocket books. Financially we are just what ever. I have been praying, dancing, kneeling, singing war dances and standing on my head to find our way. A dollar will only stretch so far. I here ya the NOT FUNNY moments are here and I have cried alot lately. Smiled some because at some point all the frustration in the world is only going to cloud the situation. So hopefully somekind of sunshine will find some rain on our shoulders soon.
    God Bless all of you,
    Goofyladie (Cass)
  • maryjane
    maryjane Member Posts: 71
    #31
    lisa42 said:

    Oh, yeah
    Hi Brooks,

    I am SO sick of it at this moment! It is just so all consuming- not only trying to stay alive, but deal with side effects, and then having the stress of fighting with idiots at the doctor's office and more idiots who are also calloused and cruel within the health insurance company. I almost feel like taking off to a tropical island all by myself and leaving everything and everyone behind for a week. Hmm... I just thought of that right as I wrote it- lol! I really wouldn't want to go away from my family, but the thought of having peace and bliss right now sounds wonderful!

    I'm glad to read you got over your down time and are feeling better again. We ALL have our ups and downs. I know that things will be up for me again soon (I hope and pray). :)
    Take care, Brooks!

    Lisa

    Tropical Island---Great to Focus On!
    Hi Lisa...
    Let's make it happen! Lisa...you're one courageous woman to be dealing with all that you're dealing with. This Recovery Time is not a good time to be dealing with Insurance Companies by yourself. I've gone that route too but eventually discovered I needed someone more objective to handle those situations. Any good friends that might come forward--a Judge Judy type??? Good Luck with climbing that mountain.
    maryjane
  • RickMurtagh
    RickMurtagh Member Posts: 587 Member
    #32
    yup - like today...
    ... dropping a bag on the floor in the basement. Three week streak without an accident and that is how it has to end. At least it was not in the restaurant at lunch. Most of the time, a deep breath or a nap and everything would be fine - not today. Fortunately, for us it seems, bad days are just that - a day.

    Sometimes when I see all the struggles others are going through, I get encouraged by their perseverance. Today I did not come online because I would have only seen defeat.

    I am hoping, this new day will bring new hope and no dropped or broken bags of poo.

    I hope your new day springs a new hope for a better tomorrow (even if today sucks).

    P.S. laf - I just figured out your post was from days ago. Glad you already turned the corner...
  • Kerry S
    Kerry S Member Posts: 606 Member
    #33
    copilot
    Ok folks there was something I got in an email that makes good sense. Yes I have bad times too.

    When you find God is your copilot – change seats!

    Now enough of feeling sorry for ourselves cancer warriors. Get off your butts and get in there and fight this crap.

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