My husband's battle has ended ;(

pattynonews said:

your strenght gives me hope
Your strenght Michelle is giving me hope I just pray that I can be as strong as you, I feel like I shutting down already, I am so afraid to lose Jack, I honestly believe he does not have months, i believe it is going to be sooner and it is breaking my heart, I just hope he knows who I am at the end and he knows that I will always love him and we will be one soul, and one spirit, I just cant stop crying now, Please help me get though this, I need some support

Patty
I felt the same way. At one point I truly thought we could beat this cancer. I was in total denial running around like a robot with no sleep....there was one and only thing on my mind. Saving my Donald. I thought that with all the love I had for him and the constant prayers to God asking for more time that somehow a miracle would happen. It didn't my dear....but I can tell you that I don't blame God....I blame the cancer. In fact after his passing I went out of my mind throwing out anything and everything in this house that reminded me of the cancer.

As far as strength....if I weren't 100% positive that my love is still here with me at this very moment I would crumble. I even prayed to my husband after his passing and asked him to talk to God and ask that I could follow. Just the thought of living my life without him is something I couldn't and can't imagine even at this moment.

I'll be sending you a pm following this post. Please....please....contact me anytime you want. You and I are and have lived the same painful journey and perhaps we can help each other. I truly care Patty!

PS And as far as knowing who you are and being able to hear you at the end....he can and will....don't stop talking to him. He CAN hear you!