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  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    Shayenne said:

    You have it so hard!
    ....here we are talking about our problems with our diseaase, and poor Michelle is going through her own hell, I'm so sorry to hear about your situation, tough love it on the son, it's the only thing that will work, even though it's hard to do, and my prayers are with your brother, there are so many people out there who have it worse then me, and you're one of them! I can't complain about my family, but those anti-depressants should help you out. I am on zoloft, and the dr. said it would take like a month to be all in my system, and it does help, so give it some time. I wish I was there giving you a hug, hope you can settle on my cyberhugs for now!

    Hugsss and Blessings!
    ~Donna

    Thanks Donna
    But my problems really are nothing compared to all of you, and maybe some of you have some of my problems plus being sick that has to be sooooo hard to deal with,and you just getting out of the hospital and still wanting to help you are awsome too. huggs to you back, I will be ok and thanks for thinking of my brother and the prayers.

    michelle
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    2bhealed said:

    (((Michelle))))
    Didn't know you were going through such a rough patch. Glad you come here and get some lovin'.

    2bhealed
    And i do get the lovin thanks your another wonderful person who thinks fo me often and that is comforting to me take care be well

    michelle
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member

    Michele,
    Michele, I am so sorry you are going through all this. I know you need to mourn the loss of Angel and it sounds like things are just so hard right now. It will be very good for you to have some time and a place for yourself.
    I will keep praying for you and your brother.
    Aloha,
    Kathleen

    Thanks Kathleen
    I think of all of you everyday and that makes me feel good. Thanks for the prayers for my little brother he got a battle in front of him but he wants to fight and i will be there for him. Take care

    michelle
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member

    hey michelle
    sorry you are having rough times but just remember we are all here for you day or night.i think about you often as you know i am originally from scottsdale and my mom still lives there.things will get better you are a fighter and i know angel is watching over you .Godbless.....johnnybegood

    johnnybegood
    You give me encourgement to go on you are all so wonderful i can't say that enough you take care I will get threw this some how , Like i said my problems are minor compared to all of yours, you are fighting to live and i am fighting for you too


    michelle
  • sharpy102
    sharpy102 Member Posts: 368 Member
    wow...good luck
    @Michelle: wow....I just wish you good luck...I truly don't know how you can handle all that. I'm already gone crazy, and whole life seems to be really bad at the moment...I have a quiet hard time, but nothing close to as you do. I don't have anyone to worry about anymore....but tell me one thing please: since you lost your husband a couple months earlier than I lost my mom....how did you get over it? How did you forget? Or...did you forget? I think I'm going crazy, but I cry every night, and just don't seem to be able to accept it....and people said it will be easier by time, but for me it seems harder. It's been almost two months now and I don't feel it is getting any easier....tell me the trick! Or...anyone! I don't know what I should do so that I can move on, but I am getting emotionally drained...I am just as tired as I was when I was fighting for mom and took care of her and when I no longer could kill her pain and she would beg me to help her and I couldn't....I am having the same tiredness here...and I shouldn't be nuts, as I've got new parents who adopted me, and I moved to the US and have a nice place to live (nicer than the place I lived back at my homeland), and still...I feel more alone than ever. And I catch myself turning my pain into anger....I'm not angry at mom...not at all...I'm just generally angry...to life..or I dunno how to explain this...but I want to move on, and cannot, and I don't know what would help me to forget and think of her when she was happy and healthy, and laugh again. All I want is to be happy again...it's been sooo long.
    Ok, here I complained...again...sorry about that! And I wish all of you recovery, and please don't be influenced by my stupid whining...I just needed to get this out and hope to get some good ideas on forgetting....
    Please take care everyone!
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member

    I just
    Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

    ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

    have a wonderful day

    michelle

    I'm sorry, Michelle
    Michelle,

    I'm so sorry that things are so hard for you. And I'm sure it's doubly hard now, because you don't have Angel there to be a support system for you. I'm glad you're getting out and away from your son. That situation is just too destructive for you! I'm curious to know if you're moving to a place where you won't be responsible for yard work and such.

    I'll keep praying about your situation. Please keep us in the know and lean on us whenever you need to.

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • Julie 44
    Julie 44 Member Posts: 476 Member
    sharpy102 said:

    wow...good luck
    @Michelle: wow....I just wish you good luck...I truly don't know how you can handle all that. I'm already gone crazy, and whole life seems to be really bad at the moment...I have a quiet hard time, but nothing close to as you do. I don't have anyone to worry about anymore....but tell me one thing please: since you lost your husband a couple months earlier than I lost my mom....how did you get over it? How did you forget? Or...did you forget? I think I'm going crazy, but I cry every night, and just don't seem to be able to accept it....and people said it will be easier by time, but for me it seems harder. It's been almost two months now and I don't feel it is getting any easier....tell me the trick! Or...anyone! I don't know what I should do so that I can move on, but I am getting emotionally drained...I am just as tired as I was when I was fighting for mom and took care of her and when I no longer could kill her pain and she would beg me to help her and I couldn't....I am having the same tiredness here...and I shouldn't be nuts, as I've got new parents who adopted me, and I moved to the US and have a nice place to live (nicer than the place I lived back at my homeland), and still...I feel more alone than ever. And I catch myself turning my pain into anger....I'm not angry at mom...not at all...I'm just generally angry...to life..or I dunno how to explain this...but I want to move on, and cannot, and I don't know what would help me to forget and think of her when she was happy and healthy, and laugh again. All I want is to be happy again...it's been sooo long.
    Ok, here I complained...again...sorry about that! And I wish all of you recovery, and please don't be influenced by my stupid whining...I just needed to get this out and hope to get some good ideas on forgetting....
    Please take care everyone!

    Hey Michelle
    Hey there glad to hear from you again.Sorry I didn't reply sooner but I was in the hospital.....
    I am so very sorry for everything that you are going through..I just can't imagine having to do tough love on your child..That must have been Hell to decide that but all in all it seems like it is the best to do for you....Like everyone has said you need to take time for MICHELLE!!!!!!
    Take time to heal yourself from Angels passing..It sucks so bad but hopefully the meds will help you some...Michelle needs to do this...You have so much on your plate but you have proven how strong you really are and you will get past this too...Greive greive greive you can't get better until you do......
    Your brother seems strong also so I am sure he will fight like crazy..You know all you can do is be there for him...
    Your daughter seems to be on top of things and your grand baby is getting better too ..
    Your son will have to deal with his own demons on his own.As hard as it it your are doing whats right for you...
    Now you just have to work on yourself...Find the right meds for yourself and keep on plugging along...Keep busy and remember we are all her for you and praying for you and your family...Things will get better for you..I will and is a hard long road but you are not traveling it alone...You are always in my thoughts and prayers JULIE
  • Julie 44
    Julie 44 Member Posts: 476 Member
    sharpy102 said:

    wow...good luck
    @Michelle: wow....I just wish you good luck...I truly don't know how you can handle all that. I'm already gone crazy, and whole life seems to be really bad at the moment...I have a quiet hard time, but nothing close to as you do. I don't have anyone to worry about anymore....but tell me one thing please: since you lost your husband a couple months earlier than I lost my mom....how did you get over it? How did you forget? Or...did you forget? I think I'm going crazy, but I cry every night, and just don't seem to be able to accept it....and people said it will be easier by time, but for me it seems harder. It's been almost two months now and I don't feel it is getting any easier....tell me the trick! Or...anyone! I don't know what I should do so that I can move on, but I am getting emotionally drained...I am just as tired as I was when I was fighting for mom and took care of her and when I no longer could kill her pain and she would beg me to help her and I couldn't....I am having the same tiredness here...and I shouldn't be nuts, as I've got new parents who adopted me, and I moved to the US and have a nice place to live (nicer than the place I lived back at my homeland), and still...I feel more alone than ever. And I catch myself turning my pain into anger....I'm not angry at mom...not at all...I'm just generally angry...to life..or I dunno how to explain this...but I want to move on, and cannot, and I don't know what would help me to forget and think of her when she was happy and healthy, and laugh again. All I want is to be happy again...it's been sooo long.
    Ok, here I complained...again...sorry about that! And I wish all of you recovery, and please don't be influenced by my stupid whining...I just needed to get this out and hope to get some good ideas on forgetting....
    Please take care everyone!

    Hey Michelle
    Hey there glad to hear from you again.Sorry I didn't reply sooner but I was in the hospital.....
    I am so very sorry for everything that you are going through..I just can't imagine having to do tough love on your child..That must have been Hell to decide that but all in all it seems like it is the best to do for you....Like everyone has said you need to take time for MICHELLE!!!!!!
    Take time to heal yourself from Angels passing..It sucks so bad but hopefully the meds will help you some...Michelle needs to do this...You have so much on your plate but you have proven how strong you really are and you will get past this too...Greive greive greive you can't get better until you do......
    Your brother seems strong also so I am sure he will fight like crazy..You know all you can do is be there for him...
    Your daughter seems to be on top of things and your grand baby is getting better too ..
    Your son will have to deal with his own demons on his own.As hard as it it your are doing whats right for you...
    Now you just have to work on yourself...Find the right meds for yourself and keep on plugging along...Keep busy and remember we are all her for you and praying for you and your family...Things will get better for you..I will and is a hard long road but you are not traveling it alone...You are always in my thoughts and prayers JULIE
  • sheri22
    sheri22 Member Posts: 273

    I just
    Saw your post thanks for thinking of me i went to the dr yesterday i have been playing with my hair to much and i am pulling it out,so my doc put me on a anti depressant. i took my first pill today. So we will see, i have to many stresses going on my 31 yrs old son who is living with me is starting to use crystal meth again he says the wierdest things now if angel was here anthony my son would not be at our house , the house is up for a short sale the harley is going back to harley. My pool is green i am trying to get a handle on that. my car alarm went off and i could not turn that off yesterday at work. Just to many things at once i can't even greive for angel because of all this other crap. Will be moving and my son is not coming or knowing where i am, I don't want or need and drama from the police about my son i know what i have to do and i am trying, I will be ok once things calm down . But i still have a positive attitude i have to . keep my brother in your prayers he needs them. brain cancer dr gave him a grim outlook yesterday but my brother wants to fight God bless him. Take care.

    ps will not use my alarm again just lock the car i say. Ha Ha

    have a wonderful day

    michelle

    thinking bout you
    Michelle
    Always have you in my prayers my sister has a friend whose brother did beat brain ca. also a friend of my husband has beat it also so hope that gives you positive thoughts on that . You ARE SO STRONG I know things will get better for you they have to
    so take care just wanted you to know you are in my thouhts and prayers

    Sheri22
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    sharpy102 said:

    wow...good luck
    @Michelle: wow....I just wish you good luck...I truly don't know how you can handle all that. I'm already gone crazy, and whole life seems to be really bad at the moment...I have a quiet hard time, but nothing close to as you do. I don't have anyone to worry about anymore....but tell me one thing please: since you lost your husband a couple months earlier than I lost my mom....how did you get over it? How did you forget? Or...did you forget? I think I'm going crazy, but I cry every night, and just don't seem to be able to accept it....and people said it will be easier by time, but for me it seems harder. It's been almost two months now and I don't feel it is getting any easier....tell me the trick! Or...anyone! I don't know what I should do so that I can move on, but I am getting emotionally drained...I am just as tired as I was when I was fighting for mom and took care of her and when I no longer could kill her pain and she would beg me to help her and I couldn't....I am having the same tiredness here...and I shouldn't be nuts, as I've got new parents who adopted me, and I moved to the US and have a nice place to live (nicer than the place I lived back at my homeland), and still...I feel more alone than ever. And I catch myself turning my pain into anger....I'm not angry at mom...not at all...I'm just generally angry...to life..or I dunno how to explain this...but I want to move on, and cannot, and I don't know what would help me to forget and think of her when she was happy and healthy, and laugh again. All I want is to be happy again...it's been sooo long.
    Ok, here I complained...again...sorry about that! And I wish all of you recovery, and please don't be influenced by my stupid whining...I just needed to get this out and hope to get some good ideas on forgetting....
    Please take care everyone!

    Sharpy
    There is no trick, I am still crying i will never get over his death but that is ok .I am truely sorry for you loss but your mom is watching you and if she could help you she would. Every one is different and it does take time sometimes alot of time to move on but remember your mom loved you alot and you loved her , I am going to counseling and i have to take antidepressents I hope it helps and eveyone on this board has helped me alot. I am not angry just sad.,It helps to talk to people i wish i could give you more better info but i am just learning to live again by my self and i have to have other stresses too but I will try my hardest to go on and i hope you find peace ..take care

    michelle
  • angelsbaby
    angelsbaby Member Posts: 1,165 Member
    Julie 44 said:

    Hey Michelle
    Hey there glad to hear from you again.Sorry I didn't reply sooner but I was in the hospital.....
    I am so very sorry for everything that you are going through..I just can't imagine having to do tough love on your child..That must have been Hell to decide that but all in all it seems like it is the best to do for you....Like everyone has said you need to take time for MICHELLE!!!!!!
    Take time to heal yourself from Angels passing..It sucks so bad but hopefully the meds will help you some...Michelle needs to do this...You have so much on your plate but you have proven how strong you really are and you will get past this too...Greive greive greive you can't get better until you do......
    Your brother seems strong also so I am sure he will fight like crazy..You know all you can do is be there for him...
    Your daughter seems to be on top of things and your grand baby is getting better too ..
    Your son will have to deal with his own demons on his own.As hard as it it your are doing whats right for you...
    Now you just have to work on yourself...Find the right meds for yourself and keep on plugging along...Keep busy and remember we are all her for you and praying for you and your family...Things will get better for you..I will and is a hard long road but you are not traveling it alone...You are always in my thoughts and prayers JULIE

    Julie
    thanks I am trying things will get better they have to . One good thing i got the pool blue again they came and picked up the harley friday that was sad but a relief too. I hope you are ok i am sorry you were in the hospital wishing you a speedy recover. Thanks julie i think about you too take care

    michelle
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