scan results aren't what I had hoped for

lisa42
lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
edited March 2014 in Colorectal Cancer #1
Hi everyone,

Well, I had my PET scan Thursday and I went to the hospital and got my results today. This is the third summer in a row that scan results have brought bad news since my original diagnosis in Aug 2007. I suppose it could have been worse, but I was definitely hoping things would be totally gone or at least no worse than before. It definitely wasn't what I was expecting or hoping for- especially since I've been on a maintenance regime of Avastin and Xeloda since going off of irinotecan when my last PET on 4/2/09 showed no activity.

This one showed numerous subcentimeter nodules lighting up in my lungs, especially in the right lung. The hilar node which had shown activity in the past but didn't in April, has again shown growth and activity this time. There are some new subcentimeter nodes lighting up in the right lung as well- in both upper and lower lobes. In addition to the lungs, I now also am showing hypermetabolism in the right hepatic (liver) lobe along the area where part of my liver had been surgically removed in May '08 (entire left lobe had been removed & I had a wedge resection in the right lobe) The report didn't mention an actual nodule in the liver, just hybermetabolic activity along the resection margin that is "suspected for recurrent metatastic disease". Nothing was found in my rectum or anywhere else.

I was not expecting this, since I thought I was "protected" from further disease advancement while on the Avastin and Xeloda. I went off the irinotecan in April, following my good PET scan results then & that's probably when things start growing again, I imagine. My CEA levels starting rising above normal within a few weeks of going off the irinotecan (nothing terribly high, but above normal). I was concerned then & I guess it was a founded concern. My CEA level was just tested this week again & it tested at 3.2- so nothing too profound, but it was above normal. 4.8 was the highest it's been tested at in the past couple of months.

I see my oncologist on Tuesday to discuss it all. I'm wondering if he'll want to put me back on irinotecan, since it seemed to keep things at bay before, or if there's something else to look into. I'm not looking forward to it, but I guess that's what I'll have to do.
I feel so bummed, though to realize that I can't even just stay on a minimal chemo dose- that I need to be on "major" stuff or else my cancer will progress. I was told before I'm not a candidate for any surgery or radiation treatments because of sizes and the number of nodules.

I'd appreciate prayers from any of you who are believers. I'm not falling apart or anything, but this is a definite setback.

Blessings,
Lisa
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  • ittapp
    ittapp Member Posts: 383 Member
    I am praying for you Lisa,
    I am praying for you Lisa, just finished a prayer!! Keep your spirits up, I know that's easier said than done. I am only 2 mths. into it and going on my fourth treatment on Tues. I am stage four with multiple mets to liver. I can't have surgery until they shrink. I understand your bummed attitude but we must look forward and take it one day at a time. God Bless, Patti
  • idlehunters
    idlehunters Member Posts: 1,787 Member
    ittapp said:

    I am praying for you Lisa,
    I am praying for you Lisa, just finished a prayer!! Keep your spirits up, I know that's easier said than done. I am only 2 mths. into it and going on my fourth treatment on Tues. I am stage four with multiple mets to liver. I can't have surgery until they shrink. I understand your bummed attitude but we must look forward and take it one day at a time. God Bless, Patti

    Lisa
    Hi Lisa,

    I will definately say a prayer for you. I know you are bummed but keep that positive attitude you always have. You did it once.... you can do it again. I know all this sucks. I too have the multiple mets to lungs and liver. Faith... and the people here keep me going... and of course my family. Take care...... Jennie
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    Patti and Jennie
    Thanks Patti and Jennie,

    I know that I will keep pressing on and doing what I need to do & I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I've done the major chemo twice now plus the maintenance, so I guess this will be considered third-line. I know I can do this, it just sucks though- I just saw several people on my vacation at my nephew's wedding. It felt niceto get several compliments on how well I appeared- now to go through the chemo craps all over again. I fortunately haven't really had many symptoms from my cancer itself- just from the chemo in the past. I think I had been seeming so well and energetic lately because I had finally gotten the irinotecan out of my system- now just to have to start it (or something like it) up all over again- arrgghh!!! Okay- getting it out of my system... now onward in my fight and working on getting positive in my attitude again with God's help and the support of all of you!

    Thanks everyone & blessings to you all,
    Lisa
  • karguy
    karguy Member Posts: 1,020 Member
    praying
    Try and keep a positive atittude,and keep doing what you have to do to fight the cancer,and I will be praying for you.You have to keep faith.
  • Kathleen808
    Kathleen808 Member Posts: 2,342 Member
    Lisa
    Lisa,
    I am so sorry that the scan showed more growth. I know you are strong but I know this hurts like crazy. I know that you are in a tough spot since you look so healthy and feel good. I will pray for you right now. I am praying for God's peace. The peace that seems impossible at times but the peace we know God has promised us. I am praying for the peace from Philippians 4:6-7.
    With prayers and aloha,
    Kathleen
  • kristasplace
    kristasplace Member Posts: 957 Member
    oh, no..
    I'm so sorry, Lisa. I hardly know what to say. I guess i'm shocked. We have to keep faith though, that getting you back on the irinotecan will shrink the tumors. I can't remember if you were doing a trial? I know xeloda isn't new, but maybe that with the avastin is? I don't know. I've heard such wonderful things about xeloda treating stage IV colorectal. I hope this news doesn't stress you out too badly. That will just make things worse. Are you still consulting with Dr. Fanta? Maybe he has some ideas?

    Know that i am always thinking about you (you are so much one of my heroines), and i hope your onc has some wonderful new ideas that will annhilate those BLEEPING tumors.

    Please let us know what he says.

    Many hugs,
    Krista
  • dianetavegia
    dianetavegia Member Posts: 1,942 Member
    Continue to pray
    Lisa, this just breaks my heart. I had really hoped you'd get some good news.

    I certainly will increase my prayer efforts for you. You are a precious friend.

    Diane
  • ADKer
    ADKer Member Posts: 147

    oh, no..
    I'm so sorry, Lisa. I hardly know what to say. I guess i'm shocked. We have to keep faith though, that getting you back on the irinotecan will shrink the tumors. I can't remember if you were doing a trial? I know xeloda isn't new, but maybe that with the avastin is? I don't know. I've heard such wonderful things about xeloda treating stage IV colorectal. I hope this news doesn't stress you out too badly. That will just make things worse. Are you still consulting with Dr. Fanta? Maybe he has some ideas?

    Know that i am always thinking about you (you are so much one of my heroines), and i hope your onc has some wonderful new ideas that will annhilate those BLEEPING tumors.

    Please let us know what he says.

    Many hugs,
    Krista

    Sending concern and best wishes
    Lisa - I am sorry to hear about the disappointing results from your most recent scan. There is no justice or reason in this disease. I read about your experiences with trepidation because I also have multiple small lung nodules and am concerned about the options available to treat them. Your good health and strength otherwise are assets that I hope your doctor can use to your advantage. Best wishes and keep up the fight.
  • dixchi
    dixchi Member Posts: 431
    Thinking of You
    I can't remember the details of your story but I wonder if you have
    gone the second/third opinion route.....if not maybe it's time to
    get additional input from other docs about what treatments they
    would recommend. There are many more options than we used to have
    and even tho docs are very savvy they don't always know all the
    options. Trying to give some hope here; I know this is so difficult;
    you have had a long road....I keep remembering philleg and snoj....sp?
    and they have had a long road too so there are people that can give
    you support from a personal standpoint. Will keep you in my thoughts
    and prayers.

    Huggs,
    Barbara
  • PhillieG
    PhillieG Member Posts: 4,866 Member
    Hi Lisa
    If this is of any help, I went through 3 consecutive spring/summers where I had to have lung surgery to remove nodes. One year ago today, as a matter of fact, was my last lung operation. Maybe the third one was the charmer. I still have 2 small nodes in me between my lungs that seem to be staying stable with only Erbitux. I know how you feel about irinotecan. I was on that stuff for over 3 years, the cramps and all were real bad.
    Hang in there, your in my thoughts
    -phil
  • ittapp
    ittapp Member Posts: 383 Member
    Lisa, were you ever on
    Lisa, were you ever on Folfox with Avastin....alot of big words in folfox I can't spell, but I did not notice you writing anything about it, and it seems alot of CC patients with mets to the liver are on this treatment plan. Just curious what you were on originally. God Bless you, Patti
  • Fight for my love
    Fight for my love Member Posts: 1,522 Member
    Hi Lisa,I truly understand
    Hi Lisa,I truly understand the frustration you have.I am very worried about my husband for the following check with surgeon.I understand how you feel.I am praying for you and sending you my best wishes.Please keep an optimistic and positive attitude.A good attitude will always help.I believe things will get better.Take care.
  • dorookie
    dorookie Member Posts: 1,731 Member
    Your in my prayers always
    Lisa,
    I am so sorry to hear this news. Please try to keep a positive attitude. It might not be as bad as you think. Your ONC might just have a simple answer, ya never know. I will pray that you have peace during this until you find out what the next steps are. Your a very strong woman and I know you will beat this. Keep fighting NEVER give up..

    God Bless ya
    Beth
  • eric38
    eric38 Member Posts: 583
    dorookie said:

    Your in my prayers always
    Lisa,
    I am so sorry to hear this news. Please try to keep a positive attitude. It might not be as bad as you think. Your ONC might just have a simple answer, ya never know. I will pray that you have peace during this until you find out what the next steps are. Your a very strong woman and I know you will beat this. Keep fighting NEVER give up..

    God Bless ya
    Beth

    I just said a prayer for
    I just said a prayer for you. I prayed for peace and healing.

    Eric
  • lmliess
    lmliess Member Posts: 329
    Just said a prayer too for you!
    This whole cancer thing is getting old to me and it has been about a year since my 'symptoms' showed, so I can't imagine how you feel going through this so many summers!
    I send you positve thoughts and prayers. You are such a positive person anyway so just take this step by step. Claim yourself as being cured! In fact everyday when I am getting ready I look in the mirror, smile, and say thank you God for ridding my body of cancer forever and making me healthy and letting me feel great. I say that even on my crappy feeling days!!! I feel if I believe it it will come to me.
  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    I Will Pray Too
    Hi Lisa

    I'm sorry to hear about the change on your scans & tests. My heart is heavy because you are hurting so. You are a strong and intelligent woman and I've enjoyed reading your posts - missed you while you were out on vacation - I'm so glad that you got to go and enjoy yourself.


    Let's see what your oncologist says on Tuesday and then you can tell us more about the new plan. I'm wondering if your onc would consider switching you over to Oxaliplatin instead of irinotecan? It's a hard one too as you've probably read about those of us who've had that. I was doing that - the Folfox + Avastin + Xeloda.

    I know you dread having to fire up the big artillery again - I was doing Avastin & Xeloda at the end of my treatment and it was much easier to tolerate, so I see how you are feeling about that.

    I too will pray for you - I've come to believe in the power of prayer alot more. It is something that I can do to help you. You've got all of us pulling for you.

    I'm praying for calm and peace and strength in your fight. We all care about you.

    Take care and all my best to you

    -Craig
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    thanks everyone
    Thanks everyone, for your well wishes and prayers- I can feel them, and they do give me strength and hope! I appreciate all your thoughts and experiences & know several of you have gone through even more than I have. I'm sorry if I'm unnerving any of you who are not as far along as I am in this "game".
    As to a couple of your questions, I've already done oxaliplatin (with the Folfox/Avastin), back when I was first diagnosed, starting in Aug '07 and had a lot of neuropathy, as well as had to counteract allergic reactions each time I was given it, so I don't think we'll be trying that again. Yes, I've done Xeloda and Avastin- that's what I'm still on. The irinotecan is one that seemed to work well for me, so I'm imagining I'll probably go back on that again. The Erbitux is out for me, since I have the kras mutation. I do have basically two oncologists giving me input- my main new oncologist, plus Dr. Fanta at UCSD who is very willing to consult with my new oncologist, Dr. Helton.
    I'm feeling okay today and will trust in God that this is all part of his plan. I will, however, continue to pray for healing and thank him for the strength and otherwise good health I've been experiencing. I'll get back to you all after my onc. appt Tuesday afternoon.
    Blessings to you all and have a nice weekend- I'm going with the family to my husband's work beach party in a couple of hours.

    Hugs,
    Lisa
  • dmdwins
    dmdwins Member Posts: 454 Member
    lisa42 said:

    thanks everyone
    Thanks everyone, for your well wishes and prayers- I can feel them, and they do give me strength and hope! I appreciate all your thoughts and experiences & know several of you have gone through even more than I have. I'm sorry if I'm unnerving any of you who are not as far along as I am in this "game".
    As to a couple of your questions, I've already done oxaliplatin (with the Folfox/Avastin), back when I was first diagnosed, starting in Aug '07 and had a lot of neuropathy, as well as had to counteract allergic reactions each time I was given it, so I don't think we'll be trying that again. Yes, I've done Xeloda and Avastin- that's what I'm still on. The irinotecan is one that seemed to work well for me, so I'm imagining I'll probably go back on that again. The Erbitux is out for me, since I have the kras mutation. I do have basically two oncologists giving me input- my main new oncologist, plus Dr. Fanta at UCSD who is very willing to consult with my new oncologist, Dr. Helton.
    I'm feeling okay today and will trust in God that this is all part of his plan. I will, however, continue to pray for healing and thank him for the strength and otherwise good health I've been experiencing. I'll get back to you all after my onc. appt Tuesday afternoon.
    Blessings to you all and have a nice weekend- I'm going with the family to my husband's work beach party in a couple of hours.

    Hugs,
    Lisa

    I will continue to pray for
    I will continue to pray for you Lisa. So sorry that the news was not what you had hoped.

    Dawn
  • regslady
    regslady Member Posts: 37
    You've got those prayers
    I'm praying for you.
  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    regslady said:

    You've got those prayers
    I'm praying for you.

    I'm so sorry
    I don't know what to say but that I am sorry that your tests didn't come back like you hoped they would. You sound like such a positive person and I can only offer you my thoughts and prayers.

    Kim