Scan today

Kazenmax
Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member

so yea, having the ole scanxiety! I finished treatment last December. The first scan at the end of 2018 was NED. It’s been 3 months and time for the next one and of course I can’t sleep. I wish I could turn off my brain. My sister, who I dearly love, tells me I must meditate and ”see” myself as healed. I really want to... I do But that’s so hard.

When the cancer came back, it was in my left lung. I never had symptoms. I took an aggressive approach and rather than bother with a biopsy, I had surgery and a third of my lung was removed with clear margins. Now I’m just scared. I don’t know when you ever feel confident about your health again. 

I know it’s hard for family and friends to understand how it feels. Everyone has their own life to live and are busy with just living. I know the people on this board can relate and I appreciate being able to express how I feel here.

thank you all for your support.

k

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  • Pamcakes
    Pamcakes Member Posts: 112 Member
    Sending prayers and positive

    Sending prayers and positive vibes to you!!!

  • myAZmountain
    myAZmountain Member Posts: 417 Member
    Praying you have scantastic

    Praying you have scantastic results and NED!!

  • Diane_K
    Diane_K Member Posts: 84 Member
    We know how you feel.  I hope

    We know how you feel.  I hope it goes well. Let us know when you get the results.

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,796 Member
    Thinking of you, K

    May you have a quick scan and even quicker good results. 

    Tru

  • feckcancer
    feckcancer Member Posts: 189 Member
    Good luck. thinking of you.

    Good luck. thinking of you. xx

  • SandiaBuddy
    SandiaBuddy Member Posts: 1,381 Member
    edited March 2019 #7
    Scanxiety

    "Scanaxiety," a term only those who have had cancer can really understand.  I keep two months of calendars on my refrigerator, and when the scan stares me in the face it truly is sobering.  It seems like a good night's sleep left me permanently after the initial diagnosis.  I do not know if that is age, the disease, or something else.  And yet, it beats the alternative.  We undertand fully the anxiety and wish you a good result (and an appropriate celebration).  Best of luck to you.

  • beaumontdave
    beaumontdave Member Posts: 1,280 Member
    We all get it, the only

    We all get it, the only effective treatment for me was not thinking about it, blocking it from my mind as much as I could. If I felt it creeping in, I'd starting singing a song in my head, or out loud. Just pick an obnoxious earworm that won't go away, like a Sousa march, AC/DC or something. I've even had "How Great Thou Art" going round and round in my head while I was doing stuff, just to crowd out anything that might sneak in. Anyway, it sounds silly, but it works for me.....................................Dave

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    edited March 2019 #9
    I hope and pray that you will

    I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    I hope and pray that you will

    I hope and pray that you will receive a good result! Just keep yourself busy to avoid the scanxiety. I'm sure Tru already has her little dancing man ready. Lol

  • Sestra17
    Sestra17 Member Posts: 68 Member
    Scan

    Oh my gosh, I know how you feel. My recipe is " be realistic, and don't be afraid to hope" Sending you a big hug!

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,796 Member
    Bike on!

    Kaz, I just read your post on Sandia's thread.  How wonderful to have goals. I see your riding with your grandchildren, and loving it. 

    Don't push too hard, even if it is a year out. Still early days. Go gently and build up to it. 

    When do you get your results? 

    Tru

  • Kazenmax
    Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member
    Trubrit said:

    Bike on!

    Kaz, I just read your post on Sandia's thread.  How wonderful to have goals. I see your riding with your grandchildren, and loving it. 

    Don't push too hard, even if it is a year out. Still early days. Go gently and build up to it. 

    When do you get your results? 

    Tru

    Results are Friday. 

    Its crazy. I just got off the phone with my dear cousin who was just told she has lung cancer, stage 2b. somehow I can pep-talk the heck to her but have a hard time with myself. Lol.

    thanks Tru. I will report results one way or another as soon as I know.

    k

  • Annabelle41415
    Annabelle41415 Member Posts: 6,742 Member
    Prayers

    Scans are hard and the waiting is torture.  Prayers are with you for a great scan.

    Kim

  • Kazenmax
    Kazenmax Member Posts: 463 Member
    edited March 2019 #15
    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,796 Member
    edited March 2019 #16
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Wooo Hooo!

    That is just so exciting to hear. 

    Come, celerate. Dance with my little freind Happy Dancing Men

    image    super happy dance emoticon

    Tru

  • SandiaBuddy
    SandiaBuddy Member Posts: 1,381 Member
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Congratulations

    Congratulations on the good results!  Now you have three months of peace in which to really live life.

  • myAZmountain
    myAZmountain Member Posts: 417 Member
    edited March 2019 #18
    Terrific News!

    So wonderful to hear you are still NED! ENjoy the next few months!

  • Lily Flower
    Lily Flower Member Posts: 260 Member
    Kazenmax said:

    NED 11 months!

    Ct scan shows no evidence of disease. Blood counts are improving. Everything looks great. Next visit in 3 months.

    Thank you all!

    K

    Congratulations! That is

    Congratulations! That is awesome news! 

  • Melanie67
    Melanie67 Member Posts: 24
    Wonderful news!

    I am so happy for you. 

  • beaumontdave
    beaumontdave Member Posts: 1,280 Member
    Good news indeed!!! Now enjoy

    Good news indeed!!! Now enjoy the spring, renewel comes in many forms...............................................Dave