Just found out I dodged a bullet

JanJan63 · October 2018

Trubrit said:
Dang, girl!
I feel like my cancer battle hasn't been too terrible.

You are one tenacious lady. Having followed your ups and downs for the last four years, I am impressed that you can say that. You have been through the ringer, as we would say in England.

Your positive, strong will, will take you far. Don't rule out old age quite yet; though I don't wish you to become decrepit in any shape or form.

Tru

I think it's like having a

I think it's like having a baby. After a while you kind of forget how awful being pregnant and giving birth is.

It's been horrible. I didn't know there were so many painful, unpleasant or downright embarassing things we could go through. I had no idea that they had so little control over pain as they do. I think I had PTSD for a while because of it. But at the same time, I'm here and alive and not in that bad of shape. My quality of life is not what I'd wish it would be but it could be a lot worse.

Thanks for your support Tru.

Jan

JanJan63 · October 2018

beaumontdave said:
More good news, glad things
More good news, glad things are rolling in the right direction for you, who deserves it more? Your philosophical take on old age has me smiling, once life has knocked you around a bit, you know your not as vulnerable or threatened by circumstance. It's also a plus that since they're monitoring us closely, few things can sneak up on us healthwise, like the regular folk. Mostly your positive take on maybe missing out on the more negative aspects of aging and loss had me singing an old Cat Steven's song 'Moonshadow". If you get a chance to hear it or read the lyrics, you'll know why. Hang tough, lady you inspire......................Dave.

I love Cat Stevens! Or

I love Cat Stevens! Or whatever he's called now... But I'll look up the lyrics anyway Dave, thanks!

Jan

BRHMichigan · October 2018

Congrats Jan!

Of course you deserve good news! I wish & pray for good news for every single one of us. My husband and I often feel we're living in a nightmare, just waiting to wake up. It's so hard to keep fighting some days. But you are an inspiration. Thanks for sharing.

JanJan63 · October 2018

BRHMichigan said:
Congrats Jan!
Of course you deserve good news! I wish & pray for good news for every single one of us. My husband and I often feel we're living in a nightmare, just waiting to wake up. It's so hard to keep fighting some days. But you are an inspiration. Thanks for sharing.

Aw, thank you. I'm just

Aw, thank you. I'm just determined to not let this take away any more of my life than it already has. As long as I'm here I want to enjoy things and not spend a single day sad. Of course, I have no choice sometimes. But, if I can, I want to always be as positive as possible. Everyone dies eventually, we're just unfortunate to know what it most likely will be from. People die every day from all kinds of things and some is pretty ugly.

Can you imagine how awful it would be if everyone knew what would eventually kill them? People trying to ignore the fact that they're going to die in the next several years in a car accident, or skiing, or swimming, or choking on a piece of chicken, or tripping down their own front steps and hitting their head, or drinking too much and choking to death on their own vomit, there are so many ways. But if everyone knew what it would be ahead of time life would not be the same. Everyone would live obsessed about it and scared to enjoy life.

And enjoying life is one thing I will not allow cancer to take away from me until I have no choice. I don't want it to have any control over me if I can help it.

Sorry for rambling, I guess I'm just trying to understand why I'm not more upset about it than maybe I should be. And I'm not one of those little miss sunshine people that sees the good in everyone and everything. I'd love to wake up one morning and find out it was all a nightmare. One of my favourite sayings is "I hope, or I could not live" HG Wells. Maybe that sums it up.

Jan

Trubrit · October 2018

JanJan63 said:
Aw, thank you. I'm just
Aw, thank you. I'm just determined to not let this take away any more of my life than it already has. As long as I'm here I want to enjoy things and not spend a single day sad. Of course, I have no choice sometimes. But, if I can, I want to always be as positive as possible. Everyone dies eventually, we're just unfortunate to know what it most likely will be from. People die every day from all kinds of things and some is pretty ugly.

Can you imagine how awful it would be if everyone knew what would eventually kill them? People trying to ignore the fact that they're going to die in the next several years in a car accident, or skiing, or swimming, or choking on a piece of chicken, or tripping down their own front steps and hitting their head, or drinking too much and choking to death on their own vomit, there are so many ways. But if everyone knew what it would be ahead of time life would not be the same. Everyone would live obsessed about it and scared to enjoy life.

And enjoying life is one thing I will not allow cancer to take away from me until I have no choice. I don't want it to have any control over me if I can help it.

Sorry for rambling, I guess I'm just trying to understand why I'm not more upset about it than maybe I should be. And I'm not one of those little miss sunshine people that sees the good in everyone and everything. I'd love to wake up one morning and find out it was all a nightmare. One of my favourite sayings is "I hope, or I could not live" HG Wells. Maybe that sums it up.

Jan

That was a wonderful ramble

And so true, so very, very true.

While we are able, let us live. Live life every single day and every single moment.

Of course, some here, are struggling, suffering, and we have all been there and the joy is sucked out, the sturggle is hard; but for those who can, lets live.

Tru

Just found out I dodged a bullet

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