Surgery tomorrow

Thanks Max And Vasco.

Might be hard to believe that such event like planed surgery can cause so much mental suffering. I found someone on another forum who experienced same symptoms post op. He is Medical social worker from California. I can mirror all his experience as carbon copy. Possible or not, it is happening to people. I do not know how often but it happens. And to be honest, I am not lonely guy. I work 50-55 hrs a week and do some other stuff in my free time. I walk my doge to the park almost every day for 45-60 minute and I go to gym 3-4 times a week. I can fall asleep fairly quickly but my sleep does not lost for long. Waking up having bad nightmares most of the time related to surgery and Ca. After that, I have trouble to fall asleep again and spend most of the night just tossing in bed. When alarm goes off, I fell terribly tired and barely can get out of bed. To get me moving thru the mornings, I need lots of strong coffee to get going. Hard to concentrate on the job that I really like and put lots of pride in it.

I am healthy guy and list I want is to be on depression medication. Already, have enough trouble with ED post op.

This surgery was not my first surgery. Had TURP and sinus surgery before without any probless post op and was feeling great week or two after surgery. This RP hit me very hard. I anticipated problems and knew about them but did not expect to be such hard as it is.

MK

Hi all,

just want to share good news. Started TRIMIX a month ago and today was my 10th self injection of TRIMIX.

Trimix gave me erection every time but today was my first sex with penetration and my wife and I enjoyed it very much. I was feeling like that was my first sex ever. What  a happy day again. I will remember this day for the rest of my life. 

MK

Want to update followers: Today is my 7 months post RALP.

Only good news is that TRIMIX works every time I use it. Erections are lasting between 1.5 - 2.5 hrs with dose of 0.1 ml  which is equal to 10 units. Here is the mixture I use 150mg/ 5mg/ 50 mcg - full strength. Sometimes penis stretches nicely but still short minimum 1 inch from prior tu surgery and is not rock hard but it is useful For penetration.

Other times it becomes rock hard but it does not stretch well, up to 2 + inches shorter from prior to surgery but it is bigger in circumference than in first case. In this rock hard and short scenario,  penis becomes painful and I can not wait to go to soft. Per urologist, it will get to same with every injection with time.

Would like to know if this is normal response and if others experienced something similar.

Other than actual response to TRIMIX,  my penis is still totally in hibernating state. No slightest spontaneous response and still no response to Cialis. It bothers me that is always totaly retracted in my body.

Overal, I feel better mentally and physically now compared to 2-3 months ago.

Also, yestready was my first anniversary of my TURP which led to prostate Ca diagnosis.

Wish to every one who is in post RP time fastest possible recovery and back to normal time.

Also, want to thank everyone who supported me in my dark times.

MK

At 9+ months post RALP, I can report that my 3rd post OP PSA was <0.1.

I still have some stress incontinece but that is something I can live with.

On ED side, I have nothing new to report. Still ABSOLUTE ZERO down there. Nothing spontaneous by now. 

Still no feeling, no stirrings, non existent orgasam, no any succes with Cialis, Viagra, VED, nothing with manual stimulation.

Trimix still works most of the time. Did not recovered any length and girth, still2+ inches shorter and still pathetically small and tiny while erect. Non usable.

I wish at least I could have better and more satisfying orgasam but no luck with that either.

Not much of hope left with being so long at point zero. Still hibernating .....

According to urologist, I already exhausted all my non invasive options. Just wait for miracle to happen.

MK