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  • Brighton
    Brighton Member Posts: 15
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    Kvdyson said:

    Anxious About Treatment Ending

    Hi Mary Ann, welcome and so sorry that you've had to join our group. I have 3 rounds of chemo left but I already feel that same trepidation about treatments being over.

    It's like you put all of your time and energy into fighting this beast, you even have an entire team (or two) of people in the fight with you and then - poof - it stops very suddenly.

    I think maybe it's a little PTSD? I will definitely try talking to a professional, staying active on this and other forums and continuing to exercise daily. Getting outside with my dogs also seems to help put everything into perspective.

    Congratulations on ringing that bell. It's an important milestone that let's you look back to see how strong you are and far you've come!

    Wishing you strength and good health,
    Kim

     

    Treatment End

    Kin, good luck on your next few treatments.  I found the first one so scary, because of the fear of the unknown.  Next ones were the same, I just knew what to expect.  But the last one I had myself worked up into a tail spin.  I did talk to a professional about it, helped.  He explained my mind and body were in a "fight or flight mode" feeling a little yuck, but pushing forward just to get to the end keeping emotions high, again fear of the unkown come up with last treatment.  I did it and you can too.  But this morning I feel like a dog chasing a car, after he catches it "now what"  I guess I will join the survivors club.  Now that's a club I want to stay for a long time.

    Hugs Mary Ann

  • Brighton
    Brighton Member Posts: 15
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    Editgrl said:

    Being cut loose

    I do understand that feeling of all of a sudden being cut loose and left to fend for yourself.  During my treatments, I was seeing doctors regularly, getting regular blood work and felt well monitored.  All of a sudden, that all ends.  Now what?  I've begun working with a naturopathic oncologist to help me keep treating myself, in a sense, to keep the cancer from coming back.  And I am going through that process where every ache and pain gives me pause.  I'm hoping that I do get over that phase, or at least find a way to deal with it in a less stressful way.

    But still, ring that bell and be happy that this step is over and done!  Congratulations!

    Chris

    Alone

    Chris, I have had a great surport group.  Great Dr and his team are the best.  My family [4 grown children and their families] and several true dear friends, and many acquaintances and they have all been wonderful.  Yesterday was great 3 cards in the mail 2 vases of flowes delivered, and dinner make for me.  All with congradulations for having it over.  Well it was wonderful, but its not over, "I HAVE ONLY JUST BEGUN TO LIVE" I am blessed in so many ways, but just feel a little sorry for myself.  I know I dont walk alone, I just have to remember that.  There have been many day I only left one footprint in the sand. [know what I mean].  Sounds like you are taking care of yourself with the natural Dr.  I hope the Great Healer eases your mind.

    Take care and hugs to you

    Mary ANn

     

     

  • Brighton
    Brighton Member Posts: 15
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    unknown said:

    The bell

    My last chemo is next week.  I have pictured myself ringing the bell, and each time I get emotional also.  It's a big deal to be done with chemo and I guess that explains why.  I normally am not emotional about stuff, but this time I am.  I also have a dear departed brother in law who didn't get to ring the bell, but was so happy for others when he heard the bell (he was diagnosed with terminal Klatskin cancer in the beginning).  The last swing I take will be for him.  Hugs Nancy

    your brother

    I just picked up a whistle my grandaughter left and blew it for your brother in law.  I know its not the same but the though is there.

    Take Care and hugs to you

    Mary Ann

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    Brighton said:

    your brother

    I just picked up a whistle my grandaughter left and blew it for your brother in law.  I know its not the same but the though is there.

    Take Care and hugs to you

    Mary Ann

    Thank you!

    That is so sweet to blow the whistle for Larry.  My sister (his wife) is my chemo buddy.  I tried to insist she not go with me, knowing how hard it would be, but she wouldn't hear the word no.  He was a patient for almost 5 years at our local University training hospital, and his doctor was amazed that he lived almost 5 years after given a 6 month life expectancy.  He was a guinnie pig for different chemo's and treatments, and his doctor said they gained valuable information on how to treat his cancer.  And, of course, an inspiration for me to stop whining and move on.  And big congratulations on finishing your treatment.  Savor the moments and look ahead to the future.  Hugs Nancy

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