Surgery #19 - "Here at Last!"

Ok, we made it the surgeon consult.....

I've got an unusual tale on what has transpired in the last 48 hours, so please be seated and let's talk about this one...as the Beatkes said, it was a magical mystery tour:)

First, I was too ill to barely get from the bathroom and back into with gripping pain, so I said we will see if I can go.  I had this strange feeling if I did not make this appointment I was going to be a dead man in thirty days or less....it was a have to deal...I'm sure of that night and I'll try and explain.

We took all the meds and patches for the trip to get that done and I asked my wife help me with things I needed help with and it went too...she followed what I wanted and affection and love...she truly has become a caregiver now...wonderful to see.

Then I was able to go to restroom and get through those trials and had success there as well...and that went well.

We prayed for the strength and e did make it...so there's that one too.

It gets better...

I was supposed to get early check in to rest my back...needless to say there was a problem...so I just casually walks past her and went to the nurses station and you want to know what?

That's right....in 69 seconds I had a room with a bed to lay Down, lol

It appears I can still hit a few winners down the line - even on my last dime:)

After a really shirt wait time, the door opened and in comes the surgon and not the nurse going over vitals and paperwork to spend your time.

Then he says his schedule had some room to do the surgery!

What?

Ok, this just not just by accident folks...just don't believe it.

I believe that we were riding on the wings of angels sent to get me there.  And I believe something happened to get the surgery so quickly and cleanly. 

I believe that a couple of our prayers finally worked on this level.  God is listening right now and perhaps the collective voice of the forum voices and with others unknown that something is in play right now.

Also there is a drug that is needed to make the trip and hispice had been debying it to me.

When the nurse came today, I told her the above story...I told her to be fair they could only rx a few  of them to get to the surgery .

I told her I did not want to get one pill legally subscribed and a hospice getup.

And they finally agreed....so that door opened as well.

im gonna' get serious now for this part of the story...

The other night I wrote about dying because I felt my body shutting down and I finally became scared at how would come to me and I didnt think it was going to end like this.  My mind was all over the map and I was exploring my thoughts and feelings...just got real so fast.  

My thoughts shifting from wanting to let or try and live....it the thiught of trying but the body not cooperating anymore...the scariest of the three options.

I felt that night I was knocking on Death's Door - and I never use that term flippantly.  I'm being real about what I thought was going on.

My appetite returned and I ate about 5 varieties of foods...day before  all this no way I was eating I was water only laying in my deathbed.  Going to have cheese broccoli soup from Jasons deli tonight...maybe a coke float tonight too:)

After the appt.  I remember saying I was ready to shop, lol...day before?  You already know...

So what a turnaround in less than 48 hours, huh?

Think I'm going to call it a modern miracle that you and I are clearly watching on The Sundance Channel right now:)

It was Ripley who said, "Believe It - or Not."

Decide for yourself...

I'm gonna' win this one now folks...I know that now and carry that conviction wit me as I fight for just a chance to resuming my cancer fight.

We're all gonna' be ok:)

Now, will this be the big comeback story of the year?

Stay tuned to The Sundance Channel - "Story Matters Here"

Its been nice talking to you all...thanks for listening:)

With all my love,

-Craig