BEEN A WHILE

Hi Everyone especially my old Folfox buddies. It's been a while since I posted. I guess it was about a couple of weeks ago when I had another four month CT Scan to check out my everything but especially my liver. I had a RFA on my liver about 8 months a go and so far no return. HOWEVER this time my Oncolongist saw something on my liver a gray area not near the RFA site, So the doctor ordered a MRI which showed the same "spot" as the CT scan. I met with the doc and since my CEA was less than 1 he felt it wasn't cancer BUT he wanted to take it to the gaggle of other Oncologists for their opinion. Then I get the call bad news could be cancer!!!!!!!!! So they do an ultra sound to pin point what they need is a biopsy. The ultra sound shows the gray area and I have  to wait a week sweating the outcome. I show up for the biospy in the hospital more pokes and IV's into a backless gown and am told I must stay at the hospital six hours:( hate hospitals just a little less than doctors. Anyway in I go for the biospy and the tech setting up the procedure can't find the gray area. She also couldn't find my gall bladder which I still have. Anyway in comes radiologist and he can find it either. It shows clearly on the week ago ulstra sound but not this one. Radiologist announces well I can't biopsy something that isn't there and says have a nice day. No explaination from anyone what it could have been. My chemo inducted Cirrhosis is apparently getting a little worst...not much the liver panel is just a point ot two higher. My gastrologist said three years ago that my liver should hold out for somewhere between 4-14 years as it slowly dies assuming no more cancer etc. That was three years ago. My oncologist knows it was his chemo and ignoring my symptoms put me on this path. Doctors never make mistakes not even an apology for in-effect killing his patient. Oh well next billing number please......always another cancer patient coming along....Cynicism I earned it. Well hope everyone is dong well. TakeCare Lou