Starting 16 rounds of AC-T chemo. Scared and depressed. :(

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  • Kristin N
    Kristin N Member Posts: 1,968 Member

    It Does Take a Bit to Settle

    A year ago this week I was told that I needed to consider chemo and radiation therapy, based on the results of my pathology reports.  My oncologist laid out the stats to show why this was what he was recommending.

    I really was hoping to avoid chemo, and so it took me a bit to settle and accept this.  Oddly, the day I was told this -- and that I would need to get a port -- was the day that in the afternoon I had a follow up appointment with my initial surgeon.  By the time I had that appointment, my oncologist's office had called his office to let them know the plan.  So, that afternoon I was shown what the port looked like and how it would be put in and how it would function.  That was Monday.  Friday morning my port was put in.

    I had the same number of infusions of AC as you will have; I had fewer of T.

    I made it through.  My friends and colleagues tell me that if they did not know what I had been through last year, they would have no idea to see me today.

    Keep a positive mindset.  Hang in there.  Plenty of people here can share with you things that will help and encourage you.  Just remember that two people can have the same diagnosis and treatment plan and their reactions and responses be different.  We here can give you ideas of what you could expect, and you will find that some things we have in common; other things we don't.

    e

    I know you can see all the

    I know you can see all the love and support you've got by just seeing the posts.  You will never be alone, you've got us! 

  • Sun Whitey
    Sun Whitey Member Posts: 36
    Thank you.

    Thank you my friends.....thank you for everything.

    Your comforting words mean the world right now!!

    Getting my port put in today...will be a sleepy day!

    xoxxoxo

    Susan

  • LoveBabyJesus
    LoveBabyJesus Member Posts: 1,679 Member
    SUPER HUGE HUGS!

    Well you may live alone but you are not alone! We are here for you. I think you will do great! Time will fly so fast you won't even notice.

    Remember to ask questions about side effects, how to avoid them, how to stay healthy during chemo, etc. There are a lot of useful posts here you can use as reference.  It is normal to feel upset. No one deserves this. (Not even my worst enemy.) As time goes by you will feel more in control with a solid plan and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will be praying for you so you heal well and everything goes smoothly with NO complications. Remember you can count on all of us!

    Hugs!

  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member

    Thank you.

    Thank you my friends.....thank you for everything.

    Your comforting words mean the world right now!!

    Getting my port put in today...will be a sleepy day!

    xoxxoxo

    Susan

    How did today go for you

    How did today go for you Susan, getting your port?  Let me just say again what the other pink sisters have written, and, that is you are not alone.  We're here :)

    Hugs, Noel

  • Josie21
    Josie21 Member Posts: 382 Member
    Hi Susan

    Hi Susan,

    I just wanted to say Hi and let you know you are in my thoughts.  Keep going with your blog, it's amazing.  You are so honest and I think it's therapeutic for you and it will be for others one day as well.  

    Hugs coming your way,

    Ginny

  • Jessies miracle
    Jessies miracle Member Posts: 7
    Josie21 said:

    Hi Susan

    Hi Susan,

    I just wanted to say Hi and let you know you are in my thoughts.  Keep going with your blog, it's amazing.  You are so honest and I think it's therapeutic for you and it will be for others one day as well.  

    Hugs coming your way,

    Ginny

    Sending hugs :)

    Hi Susan!

    I just saw your post and your story.  I want to encourage you to take one day at a time, I did the same treatment plan - port placed then 4rounds AC, then 12 rounds taxol.  I just finished my last taxol 2 weeks ago today and I am scheduled for a double mastectomy with no reconstruction 2 weeks from today. 

    Through the journey I found taking one treatment at a time was easiest.  If you look ahead its overwhelming at points, but honestly once in the taxol treatments it flew by.  The treatment itself was scary just not knowing what to expect but I prayed a LOT and I got peace through it all that it would be ok.  A friend of mine I found through cancer had the same treatment and she just flew through the whole thing without being very sick at all.  There's just such a broad spectrum depending on the person.  You sound very strong and determined though so I am sure you will do great!

    I am praying for you today that you can find that peace and strength.  If you have any questions dont hesitate to ask!

    Jessie

  • Alexis F
    Alexis F Member Posts: 3,598

    SUPER HUGE HUGS!

    Well you may live alone but you are not alone! We are here for you. I think you will do great! Time will fly so fast you won't even notice.

    Remember to ask questions about side effects, how to avoid them, how to stay healthy during chemo, etc. There are a lot of useful posts here you can use as reference.  It is normal to feel upset. No one deserves this. (Not even my worst enemy.) As time goes by you will feel more in control with a solid plan and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. I will be praying for you so you heal well and everything goes smoothly with NO complications. Remember you can count on all of us!

    Hugs!

    You've got more hugs coming

    You've got more hugs coming from me!   How are you doing?  Post any update when you can for us.

    Hugs, Lex

  • kmenurse
    kmenurse Member Posts: 217

    Sending hugs :)

    Hi Susan!

    I just saw your post and your story.  I want to encourage you to take one day at a time, I did the same treatment plan - port placed then 4rounds AC, then 12 rounds taxol.  I just finished my last taxol 2 weeks ago today and I am scheduled for a double mastectomy with no reconstruction 2 weeks from today. 

    Through the journey I found taking one treatment at a time was easiest.  If you look ahead its overwhelming at points, but honestly once in the taxol treatments it flew by.  The treatment itself was scary just not knowing what to expect but I prayed a LOT and I got peace through it all that it would be ok.  A friend of mine I found through cancer had the same treatment and she just flew through the whole thing without being very sick at all.  There's just such a broad spectrum depending on the person.  You sound very strong and determined though so I am sure you will do great!

    I am praying for you today that you can find that peace and strength.  If you have any questions dont hesitate to ask!

    Jessie

    Lots of HUGS!!!

    I can't do much in the way of advice other then a positive attitude is a must.... For my journey too, is just beganing.... Lots of HUGS AND PRAYERS!!! coming your way... Kathy

  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member
    kmenurse said:

    Lots of HUGS!!!

    I can't do much in the way of advice other then a positive attitude is a must.... For my journey too, is just beganing.... Lots of HUGS AND PRAYERS!!! coming your way... Kathy

    Sun ... How are you doing sweet Sister?

    Just checking in with you, dear Sister in PINK. 

    Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

    Vicki Sam

  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member
    VickiSam said:

    Sun ... How are you doing sweet Sister?

    Just checking in with you, dear Sister in PINK. 

    Strength, Courage and HOPE for a Cure.

    Vicki Sam

    Susan, how did your first

    Susan, how did your first chemo treatment go?  Thinking of you and sending lots of prayers and hugs.

     

    Jan

  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    Josie21 said:

    Hi Susan

    Hi Susan,

    I just wanted to say Hi and let you know you are in my thoughts.  Keep going with your blog, it's amazing.  You are so honest and I think it's therapeutic for you and it will be for others one day as well.  

    Hugs coming your way,

    Ginny

    I hope you're ready for more

    I hope you're ready for more hugs and prayers Susan as they are coming to you from me today and for as long as you need them. 

  • Noel
    Noel Member Posts: 3,095 Member
    kmenurse said:

    Lots of HUGS!!!

    I can't do much in the way of advice other then a positive attitude is a must.... For my journey too, is just beganing.... Lots of HUGS AND PRAYERS!!! coming your way... Kathy

    Checking in also to see how

    Checking in also to see how you are doing.  Lots of positive thoughts and prayers!

    Hugs, Noel

  • Pink Rose
    Pink Rose Member Posts: 493
    Josie21 said:

    Hi Susan

    Hi Susan,

    I just wanted to say Hi and let you know you are in my thoughts.  Keep going with your blog, it's amazing.  You are so honest and I think it's therapeutic for you and it will be for others one day as well.  

    Hugs coming your way,

    Ginny

    Keeping you in my thoughts

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  I might have missed it on here, but, where is your blog? 

     

    Hugs, Rose

  • Treecy1106
    Treecy1106 Member Posts: 144

    Thank you.

    Thank you my friends.....thank you for everything.

    Your comforting words mean the world right now!!

    Getting my port put in today...will be a sleepy day!

    xoxxoxo

    Susan

    Hi Susan

    Just checking in on you!!!! (((HUGS))) and prayers coming your way.....nefore you know it...chemo will be a distant memory and you will be stronger than ever and helping others too!!!! xoxoox

     

     

     

    Patrice

  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    Josie21 said:

    Hi Susan

    Hi Susan,

    I just wanted to say Hi and let you know you are in my thoughts.  Keep going with your blog, it's amazing.  You are so honest and I think it's therapeutic for you and it will be for others one day as well.  

    Hugs coming your way,

    Ginny

    Sending big smiles, lots of

    Sending big smiles, lots of hugs and hoping that if you've started chemo, that you have no side effects.

     

  • Pink Rose
    Pink Rose Member Posts: 493
    Megan M said:

    Sending big smiles, lots of

    Sending big smiles, lots of hugs and hoping that if you've started chemo, that you have no side effects.

     

    How is chemo going?  You

    How is chemo going?  You ok?

    Hugs, Rose

  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member
    Pink Rose said:

    How is chemo going?  You

    How is chemo going?  You ok?

    Hugs, Rose

    Starting to worry...  I hope

    Starting to worry...  I hope you feel good enough to post something for us this week.

    Sue :(

  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991
    Ritzy said:

    Starting to worry...  I hope

    Starting to worry...  I hope you feel good enough to post something for us this week.

    Sue :(

    Thinking of you also and

    Thinking of you also and sending many cyber hugs!

    Hugs, Angie

  • kdawg
    kdawg Member Posts: 7
    Mikilog said:

    Chemo

    Hi ssue I am also starting my chemo treatments this coming weds: adriamycin/cytoxan for 4 wakes then taxol for 16 wks to make a total of 20 wks. Yes I am scared silly but we will make it!

    miki

    Hi Miki
    Checking in to see

    Hi Miki

    Checking in to see how you are doing. I went through the same chemo June thru November 2012. You will make it through. Stay strong.

    Kathy

  • DebbyM
    DebbyM Member Posts: 3,289 Member
    kdawg said:

    Hi Miki
    Checking in to see

    Hi Miki

    Checking in to see how you are doing. I went through the same chemo June thru November 2012. You will make it through. Stay strong.

    Kathy

    Checking on you too.  I am

    Checking on you too.  I am always looking for any update from you.

    Hugs, Debby