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  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    teenadee said:

    GOOD LUCK ANNE - I am praying for good news to you!
    I will write you later tonight if I can and let you know what the Oncologist has to say. Thank you for the kind words in your other message and I will pass the message to my dad :) I will also cry more on my husbands shoulder as he feels helpless at times knowing he can't help me. I just want you to know that you have helped me dearly as have others on this site. I am still in an emotional roller coaster and not in the best state mentally but I have found some relief with you's and I appreciate and love you for that. Your mom needs to take care of herself as well as Fibromalgia and migraines are so very hard to deal with. Good luck my sweet friend and you will give me good news OK ;) xoxo

    hang on for the ride
    your emotion are going to be up and down mine still are. Just don't let them over run your life. That is why I said cry on your hubbies shoulder and let him carry the weghit for a while it will make him feel like he is helping you. Good luck to day and you are in my prays also. I will make sure my mom get some rest I know what it is like I have fibromalgia and migrianes also. Take care dear friend until I we talk again


    In God love
    Anne
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    hang on for the ride
    your emotion are going to be up and down mine still are. Just don't let them over run your life. That is why I said cry on your hubbies shoulder and let him carry the weghit for a while it will make him feel like he is helping you. Good luck to day and you are in my prays also. I will make sure my mom get some rest I know what it is like I have fibromalgia and migrianes also. Take care dear friend until I we talk again


    In God love
    Anne

    emotional ride going down and down...
    Hello Anne,

    Sorry to hear you even have fibromalgia and migraines. Do you take Lyrica for the Fibromalgie?

    We went to the Oncologist and my mom was so terrified it was all over her face and skinny little body. The Oncologist took one look into her eyes and for the first time I could see he felt her fear. He did not give her too many details, actually not any at all concerning her bone scan. He let me read it in full and it shows multiple lesions through her body some existing and have grown and some new one's. I have no idea how I held back just flipping out but I did. The doctor told my mom that he will put her on a treatment for her bones to strengthen, it's called Zometa. I haven't had a chance to read up on it yet but i'll do so evenutally. She had her first treatment today. She was so scared like a little girl. I don't know if I mentioned and I should probably write it in my profile but my mom was on the chemo agent Sutent. It's a chemo form pill. Anyways, she almost died on it, she had brain swelling and seizures. The then Oncologist refused to take her off so I kind of had a small war with him and switched doctors. I went with his colleague so you can imagine the tension. All this to say is that my mom so fears anything they give her now. She asked me 100 times if she's ok and if they see anything and I lie lie lie telling her no and that it is for her bones to get stronger that's all. I cannot be the one to break her spirit I just can't. I'm sorry I'm going on so much. We were at the hospital today from 8 am until 5, it is emotional drain seeing all these people with Cancer so sick, so pale, so unfair. I thought about you very much today, what did your doctor tell you? How are you doing? You know you told me your mom said to you that when you can't fight no more to stop fighting, I am not ready to tell this to my mom, it scares me so much to say these words because I feel she will just stop. Take care sweet Anne and whenever you can let me know how you are. Tomorrow I'll go back to work so I will probably write to you from there if I have some time. I pray for you and your family always now...
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    I will be thinking of you
    I will be thinking of you and Anne today so much. Strength for all of you. Anne sounds so strong it inspires me. As for you Teena, I think part of your problem is that you are in shock. As I have gone through this with my sister there have been times when I have actually been "shocked" and it is those times on the roller coaster that I shed the most tears. In August my younger sister was diagnosed with breast cancer and it was as if a bomb had gone off. All my senses seemed to be affected. I don't know how I survived it but I did and God gives me the grace to keep on going. Your family will too. And Anne's and all of us. Neither of my sisters are married so you can imagine that it falls on me. I will continue to check here looking for you. Please keep writing on here. Be strong today. xo

    I have found great friendship in you and Anne thank you
    Now your other sister has Breast Cancer oh god I could not handle more than one person having it in my family. I am sorry Alexandria, God is giving you the grace but I want god to answer our prayers ok.

    I was strong today for my parents but inside it is this wrenching feeling that you know what I'm talking about. I am in shock because can you believe for 2 years my mom was misdiagosed as having Acid Reflux. Her voice completely changed so I decided to Google it and it said Thyroid or Lung Cancer. I immediately called the moron treating her for Reflux and he told me that he is the doctor and he can assure me that my mom has no cancer. I took his word for another couple of months till we saw her GP and I brought it up to his shock that the moron (sorry) never put a camera down her throat to be sure. We changed specialists who put the camera and sent her ASAP to the hospital Endocrinologist department where all the nightmares began. Yes doctors are human and make mistakes BUT had he put the damn camera my mom would have Thyroid Cancer maybe stage 2, surgery etc... but no, we found out late, she had stage iv and later moved to her bones. I wrote the details of what happened today to Anne if you want to take a look, all I can say, she cried very much today and it breaks every ounce of my heart. She use to weigh 150 she is now 99 pounds. She is frail and in pain. The doctor put her on a treatment but the pain is so much he didn't really mention anything but to continue the Dilaudid. ok A, I am beat exhausted but I won't go to sleep now because I can't, I'll try to have some tea and watch TV late late so I can be too tired to even think. xox good night, may god help us all
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member
    teenadee said:

    I have found great friendship in you and Anne thank you
    Now your other sister has Breast Cancer oh god I could not handle more than one person having it in my family. I am sorry Alexandria, God is giving you the grace but I want god to answer our prayers ok.

    I was strong today for my parents but inside it is this wrenching feeling that you know what I'm talking about. I am in shock because can you believe for 2 years my mom was misdiagosed as having Acid Reflux. Her voice completely changed so I decided to Google it and it said Thyroid or Lung Cancer. I immediately called the moron treating her for Reflux and he told me that he is the doctor and he can assure me that my mom has no cancer. I took his word for another couple of months till we saw her GP and I brought it up to his shock that the moron (sorry) never put a camera down her throat to be sure. We changed specialists who put the camera and sent her ASAP to the hospital Endocrinologist department where all the nightmares began. Yes doctors are human and make mistakes BUT had he put the damn camera my mom would have Thyroid Cancer maybe stage 2, surgery etc... but no, we found out late, she had stage iv and later moved to her bones. I wrote the details of what happened today to Anne if you want to take a look, all I can say, she cried very much today and it breaks every ounce of my heart. She use to weigh 150 she is now 99 pounds. She is frail and in pain. The doctor put her on a treatment but the pain is so much he didn't really mention anything but to continue the Dilaudid. ok A, I am beat exhausted but I won't go to sleep now because I can't, I'll try to have some tea and watch TV late late so I can be too tired to even think. xox good night, may god help us all

    I am so sorry
    for the misdiagnosis and ordeal your mother has had to endure and for the toll it is taking on all of you.

    Your mom and your family will be in my prayers, teenadee.
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    teenadee said:

    emotional ride going down and down...
    Hello Anne,

    Sorry to hear you even have fibromalgia and migraines. Do you take Lyrica for the Fibromalgie?

    We went to the Oncologist and my mom was so terrified it was all over her face and skinny little body. The Oncologist took one look into her eyes and for the first time I could see he felt her fear. He did not give her too many details, actually not any at all concerning her bone scan. He let me read it in full and it shows multiple lesions through her body some existing and have grown and some new one's. I have no idea how I held back just flipping out but I did. The doctor told my mom that he will put her on a treatment for her bones to strengthen, it's called Zometa. I haven't had a chance to read up on it yet but i'll do so evenutally. She had her first treatment today. She was so scared like a little girl. I don't know if I mentioned and I should probably write it in my profile but my mom was on the chemo agent Sutent. It's a chemo form pill. Anyways, she almost died on it, she had brain swelling and seizures. The then Oncologist refused to take her off so I kind of had a small war with him and switched doctors. I went with his colleague so you can imagine the tension. All this to say is that my mom so fears anything they give her now. She asked me 100 times if she's ok and if they see anything and I lie lie lie telling her no and that it is for her bones to get stronger that's all. I cannot be the one to break her spirit I just can't. I'm sorry I'm going on so much. We were at the hospital today from 8 am until 5, it is emotional drain seeing all these people with Cancer so sick, so pale, so unfair. I thought about you very much today, what did your doctor tell you? How are you doing? You know you told me your mom said to you that when you can't fight no more to stop fighting, I am not ready to tell this to my mom, it scares me so much to say these words because I feel she will just stop. Take care sweet Anne and whenever you can let me know how you are. Tomorrow I'll go back to work so I will probably write to you from there if I have some time. I pray for you and your family always now...

    I am so sorry but don't give up hope
    You will know when you can let your mom know that it is ok to let go. You will be able to see it in her eyes when she is ready to go but do not give up hope on her. I don't know why some seem to do well and others don't but I do know there is hope in all this mess. I am stage four which in it self means I am in the last stages of it. Most people in stage four do not survive. Well I did meet with my doctor today and was not ready for what he had to tell me. This appointment had me scared because I knew this was the first appointment after my first four rounds of chemo and this was going to be the appointment were he let me know if I was going to be able to beat the cancer. It was on my mind so much that I did not sleep well last night. I got there at 1pm for my weekly blood draw went from there to my GYN/ONC. He walked into the room and sat down looked right at me and said the words I did not think I would hear at this point of my treatment but I am in remission. There is no cancer right now. I will have to finish my next two rounds of taxol/chemo and advastin. After that I was to be on the Advastin for five more months and then be done with the chemo. He has decieded to keep me on the Advastin as a maintance chemo for the next two years and then he would talk to me about coming off the chemo. He did think that I might have to stay on it to say in remission unless I start having problems with the chemo. So right now I am going to rejoice in the remission and worry about the advastin and being on it so long for later. I tell you all of this to say there is hope from your mom I will continue to pray for her and your father and you. Lean on me when you need it and don't worry about how long your emails might be I have enjoyed being there for you and you are helping me as to know how my mom feels when I have to go through the chemo or in the doctors for an update. By the way she was with me when I got the news we both have not slept well because of our worring so when we got home we both fell asleep but we first rejoiced in the news she is taking me out for lunch on Thursday to celebrate the news. Please emial me when you get to work tomorrow.

    Anne
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member

    Thank you for the prayers
    Thank you for the prayers Anne. Your story is so interesting, as everyone's is, and your attitude is beautiful. Keep it up and keep us posted.

    Let me know what I can do
    Let me know what I can do for you it could be praying or just let you vent to me what ever you need I will try my best to help you.

    Anne
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    teenadee said:

    I have found great friendship in you and Anne thank you
    Now your other sister has Breast Cancer oh god I could not handle more than one person having it in my family. I am sorry Alexandria, God is giving you the grace but I want god to answer our prayers ok.

    I was strong today for my parents but inside it is this wrenching feeling that you know what I'm talking about. I am in shock because can you believe for 2 years my mom was misdiagosed as having Acid Reflux. Her voice completely changed so I decided to Google it and it said Thyroid or Lung Cancer. I immediately called the moron treating her for Reflux and he told me that he is the doctor and he can assure me that my mom has no cancer. I took his word for another couple of months till we saw her GP and I brought it up to his shock that the moron (sorry) never put a camera down her throat to be sure. We changed specialists who put the camera and sent her ASAP to the hospital Endocrinologist department where all the nightmares began. Yes doctors are human and make mistakes BUT had he put the damn camera my mom would have Thyroid Cancer maybe stage 2, surgery etc... but no, we found out late, she had stage iv and later moved to her bones. I wrote the details of what happened today to Anne if you want to take a look, all I can say, she cried very much today and it breaks every ounce of my heart. She use to weigh 150 she is now 99 pounds. She is frail and in pain. The doctor put her on a treatment but the pain is so much he didn't really mention anything but to continue the Dilaudid. ok A, I am beat exhausted but I won't go to sleep now because I can't, I'll try to have some tea and watch TV late late so I can be too tired to even think. xox good night, may god help us all

    pain doctor
    Here in Arizona we have pain doctors that all they do is deal with pain. I am seeing one now you should as your pcp for a referal to a pain doctor and let him deal with the pain part of this because what the ONC has given her is not working.

    Anne
  • bubblegumx3
    bubblegumx3 Member Posts: 7
    cry for my mom as well
    i'm 20 and my mom has stage 4 primary liver cancer. doctors told us yesterday that she may not make the night and is on her last days. i'm happy that you and your mom atleast had 20 more years than i did. All i wanted was for my mom to watch me gradate college, rate my boyfriends, watch me get married and be a grandma to my children. i guess that was too much to hope for. i dont know how im going to cope with this. stay strong, because there are many people who are going through similar situations as you are.
  • alexandria54
    alexandria54 Member Posts: 15

    I am so sorry but don't give up hope
    You will know when you can let your mom know that it is ok to let go. You will be able to see it in her eyes when she is ready to go but do not give up hope on her. I don't know why some seem to do well and others don't but I do know there is hope in all this mess. I am stage four which in it self means I am in the last stages of it. Most people in stage four do not survive. Well I did meet with my doctor today and was not ready for what he had to tell me. This appointment had me scared because I knew this was the first appointment after my first four rounds of chemo and this was going to be the appointment were he let me know if I was going to be able to beat the cancer. It was on my mind so much that I did not sleep well last night. I got there at 1pm for my weekly blood draw went from there to my GYN/ONC. He walked into the room and sat down looked right at me and said the words I did not think I would hear at this point of my treatment but I am in remission. There is no cancer right now. I will have to finish my next two rounds of taxol/chemo and advastin. After that I was to be on the Advastin for five more months and then be done with the chemo. He has decieded to keep me on the Advastin as a maintance chemo for the next two years and then he would talk to me about coming off the chemo. He did think that I might have to stay on it to say in remission unless I start having problems with the chemo. So right now I am going to rejoice in the remission and worry about the advastin and being on it so long for later. I tell you all of this to say there is hope from your mom I will continue to pray for her and your father and you. Lean on me when you need it and don't worry about how long your emails might be I have enjoyed being there for you and you are helping me as to know how my mom feels when I have to go through the chemo or in the doctors for an update. By the way she was with me when I got the news we both have not slept well because of our worring so when we got home we both fell asleep but we first rejoiced in the news she is taking me out for lunch on Thursday to celebrate the news. Please emial me when you get to work tomorrow.

    Anne

    Oh Anne, you have made my
    Oh Anne, you have made my day, my week, my month! Good for you. Please embrace it. I work with a friend who had stage 4 colon cancer and went into remission and instead of being thrilled she was sort of shocked and it took her precious time to process it. I totally understand her confusion. The feelings we have when we're waiting for these important appointments is gross. I go with my sister again on Wednesday and I feel like it will be to discuss hospice and believe me, the night before I will be throwing up on myself. I am coming to terms with losing my sister, my biggest problem now is that I have to watch her suffer and because of her head injury she is becoming worse and worse in terms of agitation and being difficult. The hospice nurses will have their hands full, believe me. I must get ready for work but I am so happy for you. Have a good day friend.
  • alexandria54
    alexandria54 Member Posts: 15
    teenadee said:

    I have found great friendship in you and Anne thank you
    Now your other sister has Breast Cancer oh god I could not handle more than one person having it in my family. I am sorry Alexandria, God is giving you the grace but I want god to answer our prayers ok.

    I was strong today for my parents but inside it is this wrenching feeling that you know what I'm talking about. I am in shock because can you believe for 2 years my mom was misdiagosed as having Acid Reflux. Her voice completely changed so I decided to Google it and it said Thyroid or Lung Cancer. I immediately called the moron treating her for Reflux and he told me that he is the doctor and he can assure me that my mom has no cancer. I took his word for another couple of months till we saw her GP and I brought it up to his shock that the moron (sorry) never put a camera down her throat to be sure. We changed specialists who put the camera and sent her ASAP to the hospital Endocrinologist department where all the nightmares began. Yes doctors are human and make mistakes BUT had he put the damn camera my mom would have Thyroid Cancer maybe stage 2, surgery etc... but no, we found out late, she had stage iv and later moved to her bones. I wrote the details of what happened today to Anne if you want to take a look, all I can say, she cried very much today and it breaks every ounce of my heart. She use to weigh 150 she is now 99 pounds. She is frail and in pain. The doctor put her on a treatment but the pain is so much he didn't really mention anything but to continue the Dilaudid. ok A, I am beat exhausted but I won't go to sleep now because I can't, I'll try to have some tea and watch TV late late so I can be too tired to even think. xox good night, may god help us all

    good morning Teena. I am so
    good morning Teena. I am so happy for Anne's news! Don't we need news like that sometimes? I hope you are coping and when you talk about your Dad it breaks my heart. My Dad is helping with my sister who is dying and I know it pains him to see her in this condition. He is being strong but it can't be easy. My husband is so great right now but I do talk to him about not worrying about me. I want him to help and hug and support but not worry because then I worry about him worrying and I don't have enough fuel in the tank to worry about one more person!!! This post is brief cause I have to get ready for work. I'll check back later.
    love and light.
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    I am so sorry but don't give up hope
    You will know when you can let your mom know that it is ok to let go. You will be able to see it in her eyes when she is ready to go but do not give up hope on her. I don't know why some seem to do well and others don't but I do know there is hope in all this mess. I am stage four which in it self means I am in the last stages of it. Most people in stage four do not survive. Well I did meet with my doctor today and was not ready for what he had to tell me. This appointment had me scared because I knew this was the first appointment after my first four rounds of chemo and this was going to be the appointment were he let me know if I was going to be able to beat the cancer. It was on my mind so much that I did not sleep well last night. I got there at 1pm for my weekly blood draw went from there to my GYN/ONC. He walked into the room and sat down looked right at me and said the words I did not think I would hear at this point of my treatment but I am in remission. There is no cancer right now. I will have to finish my next two rounds of taxol/chemo and advastin. After that I was to be on the Advastin for five more months and then be done with the chemo. He has decieded to keep me on the Advastin as a maintance chemo for the next two years and then he would talk to me about coming off the chemo. He did think that I might have to stay on it to say in remission unless I start having problems with the chemo. So right now I am going to rejoice in the remission and worry about the advastin and being on it so long for later. I tell you all of this to say there is hope from your mom I will continue to pray for her and your father and you. Lean on me when you need it and don't worry about how long your emails might be I have enjoyed being there for you and you are helping me as to know how my mom feels when I have to go through the chemo or in the doctors for an update. By the way she was with me when I got the news we both have not slept well because of our worring so when we got home we both fell asleep but we first rejoiced in the news she is taking me out for lunch on Thursday to celebrate the news. Please emial me when you get to work tomorrow.

    Anne

    OMGGGGGGGGGGGG GOD has answered our prayers for you
    Anne I am so so soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy for you this is wonderful. I am at work right now and have access to this great site so I was able to write. I am ecstatic for you and you have put a smile on my face today when no one could. Enjoy every minute of life and eat and have the best time. This is just the best news. I prayed for you last night and told God how much you and Alexandria have helped me. Stay this way OK! Also you are in Arizona wow it's super hot there and beautiful I've heard. One day I hope to meet you Anne from Arizona. God bless you and have the best lunch ok! HUGE HUG AND KISS!
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    pain doctor
    Here in Arizona we have pain doctors that all they do is deal with pain. I am seeing one now you should as your pcp for a referal to a pain doctor and let him deal with the pain part of this because what the ONC has given her is not working.

    Anne

    pain doc
    I am going to ask her Oncologist. Here in Canada I haven't heard of Pain doctors but I am going to ask. xoxo
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    good morning Teena. I am so
    good morning Teena. I am so happy for Anne's news! Don't we need news like that sometimes? I hope you are coping and when you talk about your Dad it breaks my heart. My Dad is helping with my sister who is dying and I know it pains him to see her in this condition. He is being strong but it can't be easy. My husband is so great right now but I do talk to him about not worrying about me. I want him to help and hug and support but not worry because then I worry about him worrying and I don't have enough fuel in the tank to worry about one more person!!! This post is brief cause I have to get ready for work. I'll check back later.
    love and light.

    worry about worrying
    I am so thrilled about Anne I just wrote to her. I needed to hear this news so much today and she as did you put the biggest smile back on my face. You made me laugh when you say worrying about him worrying about you etc... you are so much like me it's not even funny. I dont' have much time either as writing from work but I am coping a little better today. I started taking a naturopath product called BACH Rescue Remedy my friend brought me and it's helping me cope. It's non addictive and all natural products (better be anyways.. ;) I am sorry for your poor dad omg it's his daughter and I can't imagine how he is feeling inside. Probably like us but 100 x worse. How is your other sister - is the breast cancer early stage and they will operate and she will be better? Send me news whenever you can dear friend. huge hugs
  • Noellesmom
    Noellesmom Member Posts: 1,859 Member

    cry for my mom as well
    i'm 20 and my mom has stage 4 primary liver cancer. doctors told us yesterday that she may not make the night and is on her last days. i'm happy that you and your mom atleast had 20 more years than i did. All i wanted was for my mom to watch me gradate college, rate my boyfriends, watch me get married and be a grandma to my children. i guess that was too much to hope for. i dont know how im going to cope with this. stay strong, because there are many people who are going through similar situations as you are.

    prayers lifted, BG
    You are not alone, either. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Hugs.
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member

    Oh Anne, you have made my
    Oh Anne, you have made my day, my week, my month! Good for you. Please embrace it. I work with a friend who had stage 4 colon cancer and went into remission and instead of being thrilled she was sort of shocked and it took her precious time to process it. I totally understand her confusion. The feelings we have when we're waiting for these important appointments is gross. I go with my sister again on Wednesday and I feel like it will be to discuss hospice and believe me, the night before I will be throwing up on myself. I am coming to terms with losing my sister, my biggest problem now is that I have to watch her suffer and because of her head injury she is becoming worse and worse in terms of agitation and being difficult. The hospice nurses will have their hands full, believe me. I must get ready for work but I am so happy for you. Have a good day friend.

    for your sister pray over
    for your sister pray over her the peace of God over her each time to seem to be getting upset. I belive in laying on of hand that is praying while you are touching her see if that will calm her dowm

    Anne

    p.s. I am embracing my remission
  • AnneBehymer
    AnneBehymer Member Posts: 738 Member
    teenadee said:

    OMGGGGGGGGGGGG GOD has answered our prayers for you
    Anne I am so so soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy for you this is wonderful. I am at work right now and have access to this great site so I was able to write. I am ecstatic for you and you have put a smile on my face today when no one could. Enjoy every minute of life and eat and have the best time. This is just the best news. I prayed for you last night and told God how much you and Alexandria have helped me. Stay this way OK! Also you are in Arizona wow it's super hot there and beautiful I've heard. One day I hope to meet you Anne from Arizona. God bless you and have the best lunch ok! HUGE HUG AND KISS!

    thank you so much I will
    thank you so much I will enjoy every minute of my life I was a little scared to tell you with the news you got about your mom it is hard to be happy about my news when you are in such much pain but that is why I keep saying don't give up hope if God could do this for me he could do this for her I am thankfull every day for our friend ship and Alex my two sisters in the lord I will keep you both in pray and close to my heart and I will still visit this site every day because I have met so many wonderful ladies here
  • alexandria54
    alexandria54 Member Posts: 15
    teenadee said:

    worry about worrying
    I am so thrilled about Anne I just wrote to her. I needed to hear this news so much today and she as did you put the biggest smile back on my face. You made me laugh when you say worrying about him worrying about you etc... you are so much like me it's not even funny. I dont' have much time either as writing from work but I am coping a little better today. I started taking a naturopath product called BACH Rescue Remedy my friend brought me and it's helping me cope. It's non addictive and all natural products (better be anyways.. ;) I am sorry for your poor dad omg it's his daughter and I can't imagine how he is feeling inside. Probably like us but 100 x worse. How is your other sister - is the breast cancer early stage and they will operate and she will be better? Send me news whenever you can dear friend. huge hugs

    I'm off to two dr.
    I'm off to two dr. appointments today. One is the radiology because this is my sister's last day of treatment for pain in her spine. Then we go to the oncologist and I think today he will mention hospice to her for the first time. I have no idea what to expect from her so last night I had that sick feeling about these two appointments. My other sister is 52 and has stage II breast cancer and is on chemo. They are shrinking the tumor and lymph nodes and then doing a lumpectomy. The good news is that the Dr. saw the exact results he wanted after just one treatment. She's had two treatments now and is quite sick but still trying to work on the weekends. Sometimes I swear I don't see any rhyme or reason. I don't understand the suffering. I understand we can't have everyone living to be 80 or 90 but cancer is evil. Anyway I'm rambling. Just wanted to touch base and ask for some more prayers. And Teena, if you don't mind, how old is your dear mother? I'll check back soon. xo
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    thank you so much I will
    thank you so much I will enjoy every minute of my life I was a little scared to tell you with the news you got about your mom it is hard to be happy about my news when you are in such much pain but that is why I keep saying don't give up hope if God could do this for me he could do this for her I am thankfull every day for our friend ship and Alex my two sisters in the lord I will keep you both in pray and close to my heart and I will still visit this site every day because I have met so many wonderful ladies here

    Hello
    Don't ever feel scared to share your good news with me as true friends are thankful and grateful of such news and not for a minute did I think well why not my mom. I want you 100% healthy and you have been through very much and I know you will enjoy every minute now.

    Good day Anne write you soon :)
  • teenadee
    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    cry for my mom as well
    i'm 20 and my mom has stage 4 primary liver cancer. doctors told us yesterday that she may not make the night and is on her last days. i'm happy that you and your mom atleast had 20 more years than i did. All i wanted was for my mom to watch me gradate college, rate my boyfriends, watch me get married and be a grandma to my children. i guess that was too much to hope for. i dont know how im going to cope with this. stay strong, because there are many people who are going through similar situations as you are.

    Praying for you and your mom
    I am praying for you and your mom/family. I am deeply sorry that you are going through this and wish I could take the pain away from many. I know there are many people going through what I am going and I do my best to stay strong, it's not the easiest as you know as well.
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    teenadee Member Posts: 86

    I'm off to two dr.
    I'm off to two dr. appointments today. One is the radiology because this is my sister's last day of treatment for pain in her spine. Then we go to the oncologist and I think today he will mention hospice to her for the first time. I have no idea what to expect from her so last night I had that sick feeling about these two appointments. My other sister is 52 and has stage II breast cancer and is on chemo. They are shrinking the tumor and lymph nodes and then doing a lumpectomy. The good news is that the Dr. saw the exact results he wanted after just one treatment. She's had two treatments now and is quite sick but still trying to work on the weekends. Sometimes I swear I don't see any rhyme or reason. I don't understand the suffering. I understand we can't have everyone living to be 80 or 90 but cancer is evil. Anyway I'm rambling. Just wanted to touch base and ask for some more prayers. And Teena, if you don't mind, how old is your dear mother? I'll check back soon. xo

    Hospice :(
    Alexandria, I am at my desk right now saying prayers. I said them last night and I will say them always for you and your family. I can't imagine how hard today will be with the doctor saying 'hospice', just thinking about it makes me sick myself (big help I am). Please let me know how it goes. Your other sister is stage II and the treatment is working this is promising news. I can't understand either this disease, a friend of mine asked me when I first found out about my mom, isnt' it better you know her illness than her just passing from heart failure or something. I don't particularly opt for either but the suffering is just unbearable. I wonder if anyone reads what I write and thinks 'well try doing the treatment yourself' and talk about unbearable. I hope not because I truly empathize with what a cancer patient is going through, all the poison to kill the poison, the constant needles, the constant feeling of being sick, I see it daily and just don't get it. I don't think we will ever make sense of it ever. Today my mom is not feeling good, she's quite sick can't keep food down and has an awful cough. Her body hurts much so she is taking more of the Dilaudid till we see the next steps. Thank you for asking. xox