I'll have to do the ****** chemo again.

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  • aisling8
    aisling8 Member Posts: 1,627 Member

    Man Linda U been thru the ringer~
    I truly hope you will have clear margins with pathology~ U have hardly had time to catch your breath thru all this. I certainly feel your tears and anger. I think most all of us have had those moments washing over us time and again~ like you said however the mood pendulum swings~

    ~as for those ugly black sutures...I called mine "Franken~tittie" cuz those babies are ugly to look at.

    Thinking of you, and praying for peace as you wait~
    ~Melanie

    Sending
    all my best energy your way. I'm really sorry about this news.

    xo
    Victoria
  • smalldoggroomer
    smalldoggroomer Member Posts: 1,184
    Linda, I am so sorry to hear
    Linda, I am so sorry to hear that you have to go through this all over again. Your in my prayers sweetheart. I wish I could say some thing to make you feel better. You know you can always come here and scream, cry, yell what every helps at the moment. We are all here for you We love you and will always be here for you. Sending strength and HUGS your way. Take care darlin Kay, Prayers Going Up right now.
  • epark
    epark Member Posts: 339

    Linda, I am so sorry to hear
    Linda, I am so sorry to hear that you have to go through this all over again. Your in my prayers sweetheart. I wish I could say some thing to make you feel better. You know you can always come here and scream, cry, yell what every helps at the moment. We are all here for you We love you and will always be here for you. Sending strength and HUGS your way. Take care darlin Kay, Prayers Going Up right now.

    Linda
    i just wanted you to know you are in my prayers and thoughts....you are always so positive that i know you will get through this.....

    Hugs
    Eva
  • RozHopkins
    RozHopkins Member Posts: 578 Member
    Linda
    Good luck to you Linda. Can I ask how long ago you had surgery? After surgery everything appears good for a while and then lumps and bumps appear all over the place it seems to me.

    Ladies like yourself give me strength, I wish you well. XX
  • Ritzy
    Ritzy Member Posts: 4,381 Member

    Linda
    Good luck to you Linda. Can I ask how long ago you had surgery? After surgery everything appears good for a while and then lumps and bumps appear all over the place it seems to me.

    Ladies like yourself give me strength, I wish you well. XX

    Linda
    when I read your post I was so hoping that I could wave a magic wand and make it all just go away, but, I know I can't. Words can't express how sorry I am to read this news.

    I also said a few f*#@ too. This disease needs to be kicked off the face of the earth!

    I will be here for you Linda, holding your hand, holding you up, or, just reading your posts and writing back something positive, or, just letting you know that I am thinking of you.


    Please do keep updating us to let us know what is going on with you and your treatment.

    I am sending big hugs, big prayers and loads of love!


    Sue :)
  • Chickadee1955
    Chickadee1955 Member Posts: 355 Member
    Ritzy said:

    Linda
    when I read your post I was so hoping that I could wave a magic wand and make it all just go away, but, I know I can't. Words can't express how sorry I am to read this news.

    I also said a few f*#@ too. This disease needs to be kicked off the face of the earth!

    I will be here for you Linda, holding your hand, holding you up, or, just reading your posts and writing back something positive, or, just letting you know that I am thinking of you.


    Please do keep updating us to let us know what is going on with you and your treatment.

    I am sending big hugs, big prayers and loads of love!


    Sue :)

    Linda,
    Please contact me if

    Linda,
    Please contact me if there is anything at all I can do. I'm just a few minutes away. You are in my daily prayers; I wake up with prayers for you on my lips. Be strong.
    Chickadee
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member

    I'm sorry,too :(
    So sorry Linda for you having to go through all this again. It's bad enough to have to do it once. It certainly isn't fair to deal with with this horrible disease again. Prayers and hugs as you wait to find out what to do!

    Sandy

    So sorry
    I am so sorry Linda that you have to have chemo again. This just isn't right. I will be praying for you.


    Hugs, Jan
  • survivorbc09
    survivorbc09 Member Posts: 4,374 Member

    I'm sorry,too :(
    So sorry Linda for you having to go through all this again. It's bad enough to have to do it once. It certainly isn't fair to deal with with this horrible disease again. Prayers and hugs as you wait to find out what to do!

    Sandy

    double post
    double post
  • dbhadra
    dbhadra Member Posts: 344 Member

    Linda,
    Please contact me if

    Linda,
    Please contact me if there is anything at all I can do. I'm just a few minutes away. You are in my daily prayers; I wake up with prayers for you on my lips. Be strong.
    Chickadee

    Linda, so sorry to hear
    that you have to do the *&^() chemo again! That sucks.

    When I got back my pathology report with all the positive lymph nodes and was told "yep, more chemo" believe me (well, you all heard me here on the board) I screamed and cursed and cried for a month. I was DONE with chemo and didn;t want any more! Jump forward two months - I'm now at the end of the 5 weeks of 3000 mg Xeloda along with the radiation and have not had ANY side effects at all. So, the chemo I was absolutely dreading turned out to be not so bad. And I am praying that your next chemo will also be side effect free but at the same time kick the cancer's butt.

    Yes, about the lymph nodes - if they can biopsy them, why can;t they take them out? I don;t get that either. I do know Nancy (MAJW) had a similar lymph node situation which were treated with radiation and Xeloda rather than surgery.

    Wishing you the best and please PM me if you want.

    Laura
  • sinee
    sinee Member Posts: 196 Member
    Dear Linda
    Show us the way~how can we be supportive to you right now~you know we are all praying already, but what else can we do? Here is my shoulder, if you need a good cry, here is my hand to hold, here is my fist, to pound with yours, here is my heart to hold you up when you feel to scared to think. You will get what you have given to all of us. Lots of love and support, courage and strength, wisdom and faith, peace and knowings...we will cry with you, hold you, curse with you (that's the best part) hehehe, scream to the top of our lungs, share our ice cream and baked potatoes while you are going through chemo again. And the knowledge that you will be victorious once again~ Sinee
  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991
    epark said:

    Linda
    i just wanted you to know you are in my prayers and thoughts....you are always so positive that i know you will get through this.....

    Hugs
    Eva

    So sorry Linda that this has
    So sorry Linda that this has happened to you. I will be praying for you and I'm sending you big hugs now also.


    Hugs, Angie
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413

    Linda
    Good luck to you Linda. Can I ask how long ago you had surgery? After surgery everything appears good for a while and then lumps and bumps appear all over the place it seems to me.

    Ladies like yourself give me strength, I wish you well. XX

    Roz, I had a bilateral
    Roz, I had a bilateral mastectomy (no reconstruction) in January of this year. Then the new little lumps and bumps were removed this past Tuesday.
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413

    Linda,
    Please contact me if

    Linda,
    Please contact me if there is anything at all I can do. I'm just a few minutes away. You are in my daily prayers; I wake up with prayers for you on my lips. Be strong.
    Chickadee

    It means a lot that you
    Chickadee, It means a lot that you would do this for me...thank you.
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    Thank you all for the
    Thank you all for the support and encouragement. You all mean so much to me...it makes it more powerful that you all gather and send your strength to me.

    CC and Dbhadra, I will send those pm's when I need a special boost.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • New Flower
    New Flower Member Posts: 4,294

    Thank you all for the
    Thank you all for the support and encouragement. You all mean so much to me...it makes it more powerful that you all gather and send your strength to me.

    CC and Dbhadra, I will send those pm's when I need a special boost.

    Hugs,

    Linda

    Linda I am very sorry
    Linda,
    I am very sorry . just when you have started feeling better and getting back to normal, the **** strikes again.
    Please know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
    As far as research goes, you probably need different Chemo drugs than you were treated first time. I hope your oncologist and you will find effective treatment with minimal side effects.
    Hugs
    New Flower
  • jewels5
    jewels5 Member Posts: 57

    Thank you all for the
    Thank you all for the support and encouragement. You all mean so much to me...it makes it more powerful that you all gather and send your strength to me.

    CC and Dbhadra, I will send those pm's when I need a special boost.

    Hugs,

    Linda

    You are in my prayers
    Linda,

    I am so sorry to hear you have to go through this. You are in my prayers. Stay strong, you will beat this!

    Hugs,

    Julie
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    gami43 said:

    Linda - I am sad that you
    Linda - I am sad that you are having to face this
    beast once again. My thoughts and prayers will be
    with you for this new battle. I wish you strength
    and courage for the fight; and, of course our hope in
    the Lord. Fight like a girl, Linda!
    Sending you a big tight hug.

    Luv, Teresa

    ((((( HUGS )))))
    Linda, I am sending you prayers, positive thoughts and cyber hugs!


    Hugs, Kylez
  • mollyz
    mollyz Member Posts: 756 Member
    Praying!!!!!!
    Linda,I'm so sorry you have to go through this again,ask God for a healing of your body,we can pray for you but you have to ask him also we love you on this board and i for one respected your opinion when i was going through so i know you'll make the right decision.How are the kids? keep us posted! MOLLYZ
  • camul
    camul Member Posts: 2,537
    Linda
    So sorry u are doing this again... sending prayers and positive thoughts. I too am surprised that they can get to the lymph nodes to biopsy, but not to remove? I am sure they have their reasons, but I have wondered this before with others.

    Will continue to send prayers and positive thoughts for you and your family.

    Carol
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member

    Linda I am very sorry
    Linda,
    I am very sorry . just when you have started feeling better and getting back to normal, the **** strikes again.
    Please know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
    As far as research goes, you probably need different Chemo drugs than you were treated first time. I hope your oncologist and you will find effective treatment with minimal side effects.
    Hugs
    New Flower

    I'm sorry too Linda that you
    I'm sorry too Linda that you have to do chemo again. I was so praying for better news. We are all here to support you however you may need us.


    Hugs, Leeza