everything hurts

Know the feeling...
Hi Lisha,
I keep telling myself..."this is my new normal, so get use to it"..well..if this "IS" the new normal..it sucks... so I know exactly how you are feeling. How I miss the good old days when I could go from dawn to dusk and right through the evening without batting an eye. Please don't feel like your whiny..because you arn't. The Chemo, meds and just having this damn cancer is going to take it's toll on all of us and I'm sure everyone here feels the same way you do alot of the time...I know I do. I was sooooo tired all day today, but hopefully tonight I'll get a good nights sleep. You were up late also. I'm glad you at least took the time to take Lola for the walk...more than I got done. Hang in there dear and know we are always here for you. Love you...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

Michele23 said:

Slowly but surely...
Lets all hope that this isn't the real mes now.I don't much care for this poky person pulling me down.Things to do places to go.After hearing 2 more months of treatment to go even though its working well.I look around this house at all the things that should have been done by this time of the year.Stresses me out that I can't do it.Don't like this sitting around on the "butt thing".Hang in there we'll hang with ya.Blessings,Michele Dx95FNHL3

You're not a whiner
Lisha and everyone,

You are one strong woman, not a whiner!! We ALL have our days and moments and this new normal just plan old sucks!! Treatment, cancer pain, anxiety ... or just that "feeling" you have (and I know that feeling) it all is very real. Follow your gut it won't lead you wrong.

I pray for you and all of our friends that they find a cure soon. I love you all. We will get through this together!! Give Lola an ear scratch for me!

Love,
Donna

miss maggie said:

You say "not good"
Dear Lisha,

It's OK to whine. I can't imagine keeping our feeling inside and not saying anything.
It's very frightening when we don't feel right. Also, considering your past history.
You got through it then, and you will again. I promise you. When I first heard my DX,
I was in such mental anguish. Everyone I love was by my side. Even then I couldn't cope.
I didn't know about this site, but I did call the lymphoma society. Slowly after speaking
with different associates I started to feel much better. So please, continue to whine, and
get it all out.

First things first. Please, please go to the doctor. It could be the new medication or
something totally different than cancer. Remember, we are our worse enermies.

Love you sweet Lisha. And keep posting. Love Maggie

In Tears
Oh Lisha can we whine together my dear??

You are the sweetest person, your greeting to newcomers is always so encouraging no matter how you feel. I envy that as sometimes I just cannot get past my own stubborn troubles.

I am on what I thought was my resting week and that things would calm down. I am still so tired and came home from work early today to rest, it's 6:30 and I am still in bed with very little desire to get up. The tears are coming more frequently now because I know how badly I do not want to go for chemo next week. I just don't want to feel so bad again. It's exhausting, overwhelming and hard. Three straight days of chemo is just too much. I know from experience the side effects will be close to the same and the idea of being sick and nauseated like that again...just yuck.

I think it's going to be even worse since my hubby is likely going to be working out of town, so I'll be on my own...with a 6 month old puppy who has wayyy to much energy. I feel like I am sliding emotionally and I can't stop the ride.

So, even though my pain today isn't physical, I feel for you too.

Take Care,
Beth

forme said:

Together
Hi Beth,
Sure do wish that I could be there with you. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone even when hubby is downstairs. But i know that if I really need him he will be there. Do you have any friends who are available next week to help you out. Maybe take the pup for a long walk to drain the energy. Maybe a neighbor.
I'm not going to tell you to not think about next week, because I would be doing the same as you. It is hard, no matter what anyone says.
Hopefully you will have lessened side effects or maybe none at all...
Iv'e just returned home after a crazy long day of dr app and stuff. I am so tired too. AND it's about to rain again...
I don't always have the energy to post, but if you need me, I will always answer you as soon as possible. hang in as best you can.
Lisha

Getting through
Lisha,

I have a neighbor kid/daughter that I may see if she will come stay. She works nights so I wouldn't see her too much but she would be a huge help if she can have someone watch her dogs (Sams brother).

Also lots of Aunts close by. I am sure Jim will ask them to stop by and check on me. My neighbor next door comes over and plays with Sam every day since she doesn't work during the day. She's helped us potty train 2 dogs now, talk about a nice neighbor lol.

One of the Aunts is a taxi driver and she's always running around town and I see her drive by quite a bit.

It'll be ok, just kind of down in the dumps today. It was pretty here today and I spent the afternoon in bed. Probably be better tomorrow.

I'm hanging..
Beth