Today I REALLY hate cancer

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  • TMac52
    TMac52 Member Posts: 352

    Ditto
    This really stinks. I'm so sorry that this is going on. Just makes my heart break. Actually, can't even talk about it because they are very special people and my heart keeps breaking more and more.

    Kim

    Wow.........
    That was two months before my diagnosis. What a man. Amazing. Thanks for the post.
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member

    Living with and without our friends

    Time becomes compressed here on the boards. Friendships are developed quickly, in part because of our mutual needs and in part because each of us has learned that life can change quickly, and we know now we and our loved ones are not immortal.

    Each time we open our arms to someone new here we know the risk. We willingly take it.

    We want each and every person to know that they are not alone. That regardless of the reason they are here, we will stand by them and help them all we can.

    If our love and compassion for each other could conquer cancer, it would not again exist in the world.

    Instead we are left with days like today, where sad news abounds. Our tears are shed for our friends and their loved ones. Our tears are shed for ourselves, as we rail against this disease and all it brings with it.

    And yet we are blessed. We have been able to be a part of each of their lives when they needed someone most, as they have been for us. Our mutual needs have given us the opportunity to span the globe. We have met and been a small but important part of the lives of many.

    Not so very many years ago, we each would have been left to fight alone, fearful for anyone to know of our disease. Today even if we never meet face to face, we have known the love and caring of so many.

    For those of our friends who have gone before us, for those who are nearing the end and for those of us left to carry on…

    I tell you each. You brought blessings to the lives of those you touched here. You will be missed but never forgotten. Your light shines because in the time of your own fight, you helped me with mine.

    Love to all our friends

    Well said, Marie!
    As I have said before...

    At that very last breath, we stand alone. The only exception is that if during our lives we have taken people into our hearts....then, at that last breath, they all stand with us...embracing us in love and warmth. *smile*

    Hugs, Kathi
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    Buckwirth said:

    Two years, one month ago
    http://csn.cancer.org/node/166207

    Buckwirth
    Thanks for posting this. I was not on the board when John came on + his two posts really helped fill in his story for me. He has been + always will be a huge inspiration for me.
  • lesvanb
    lesvanb Member Posts: 905
    Buckwirth said:

    Two years, one month ago
    http://csn.cancer.org/node/166207

    Thank you for posting that Buck
    a beautiful reminder from John of what's important about our life; which is why we all so loved John

    all the best, Leslie
  • lesvanb
    lesvanb Member Posts: 905

    Living with and without our friends

    Time becomes compressed here on the boards. Friendships are developed quickly, in part because of our mutual needs and in part because each of us has learned that life can change quickly, and we know now we and our loved ones are not immortal.

    Each time we open our arms to someone new here we know the risk. We willingly take it.

    We want each and every person to know that they are not alone. That regardless of the reason they are here, we will stand by them and help them all we can.

    If our love and compassion for each other could conquer cancer, it would not again exist in the world.

    Instead we are left with days like today, where sad news abounds. Our tears are shed for our friends and their loved ones. Our tears are shed for ourselves, as we rail against this disease and all it brings with it.

    And yet we are blessed. We have been able to be a part of each of their lives when they needed someone most, as they have been for us. Our mutual needs have given us the opportunity to span the globe. We have met and been a small but important part of the lives of many.

    Not so very many years ago, we each would have been left to fight alone, fearful for anyone to know of our disease. Today even if we never meet face to face, we have known the love and caring of so many.

    For those of our friends who have gone before us, for those who are nearing the end and for those of us left to carry on…

    I tell you each. You brought blessings to the lives of those you touched here. You will be missed but never forgotten. Your light shines because in the time of your own fight, you helped me with mine.

    Love to all our friends

    Thanks for this post lovekitties
    I couldn't say what I'm feeling or thinking any better than you just did Marie. Thanks and peace to all here.

    Leslie
  • lesvanb
    lesvanb Member Posts: 905
    lisa42 said:

    I second that
    I agree- life sucks big time right now! I start the day hearing about John passing away. My 15 yr old who is in charter school classes 2 days a week and on home study the other days wouldn't get out of bed by the time I had to leave to go get blood sucked out of me at the cancer center. Today is supposed to be her big school day- she has lots to do. She was doing better, but now won't take her depression meds again unless we force it down her throat & I couldn't get her up to take them before I had to leave. Then I got bloodwork done and my white counts were too low today- lousy- so I had to stay and get a neupogen shot and I'll now have to go back in for four more days in a row to get stupid shots (all because I talked my onc into experiementing and seeing how my counts do without neulasta). I could have just had that one shot, but no I had to go and mess things up- so now I have 5 shots 5 days in a row. Had to cancel my naturopathic appt for Thursday cause of having to go in and get shots. From there I go to the smog place to get our jeep smog checked for registration. While I was waiting, I went and had lunch across the street- then had a diarrhea attack in the fast food bathroom & was in pain and was humiliated if anyone else should walk into the bathroom (fortunately they didn't). It's been a "crappy" morning!
    I come home to find my daughter watching a movie instead of doing her work. I ranted at her at the top of my lungs for about 15 min, then came into the den and logged onto the computer to destress- grrr.....!
    Now more news on Kerry and he won't make it through the weekend. I feel like I have so much going on in my life that I'm responsible for that I don't even have time to dwell on my cancer. I think I can't even go do some of the natural treatments that my ND has recommended because it takes most of the day and my time isn't my own- I have to homeschool a 15 yr old who's out to bomb out of life and school right now. I can't do this and definitely don't need the added stress- but what is someone to do? I do what I have to do (& it really sucks big time right now). My husband is so stressed and overworked & his boss at his law firm just had a "talk" with him last week, telling him he needs to put in even more time at work if he wants to keep his job. Isn't that great- he doesn't have time to give me any support or help with anything and he's about ready to have a nervous break down himself over the stress. Hey- I'm the one with the cancer!! Who helps me????
    Ok- there's my venting and destress- sorry, everyone. I'll be okay again tomorrow.


    Lisa

    (((((hugs)))) Lisa
    love, Leslie
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    I am a little late here
    I was at chemo most of yesterday + came back to this bad news. I agree Brooks, I HATE CANCER. Yesterday was a bad day in our world.
  • Fight for my love
    Fight for my love Member Posts: 1,522 Member
    OMG,yes,it is just too
    OMG,yes,it is just too much.After I read these news today,my stomach started cramping immediately.It is too much.
  • Fight for my love
    Fight for my love Member Posts: 1,522 Member
    OMG,yes,it is just too
    OMG,yes,it is just too much.After I read these news today,my stomach started cramping immediately.It is too much.
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member

    Thank you everybody. You
    Thank you everybody. You have all made my day better by your posts. This board does some wonderful things.


    Brooks

    Thank you
    Thank you Brooks for posting, Marie for your lovely way of wording things, & for the others who said kind words to me after my venting post. :)
    Today is a new day & I feel much better today. I still hate cancer, though!!
    I've been thinking about John and Kerry all day.

    Lisa
  • 462lt
    462lt Member Posts: 117

    OMG,yes,it is just too
    OMG,yes,it is just too much.After I read these news today,my stomach started cramping immediately.It is too much.

    1 year
    I was diagnosed a year ago and came here looking for answers and support. I am so sad that so many of the wonderful people that I have followed for the last year have not made it.My heart goes out to all the family and friends of all the wonderful people gone from this dreaded curse. God bless you all.
  • Buzzard
    Buzzard Member Posts: 3,043 Member
    462lt said:

    1 year
    I was diagnosed a year ago and came here looking for answers and support. I am so sad that so many of the wonderful people that I have followed for the last year have not made it.My heart goes out to all the family and friends of all the wonderful people gone from this dreaded curse. God bless you all.

    Beautiful Marie..as always, right on target with the way
    we feel...Thank you sweetheart, that was gracefully and eloquently written and so true for all of us........Love, Hope, and Calm be with you........Clift
  • tootsie1
    tootsie1 Member Posts: 5,044 Member
    *hugging everyone here*
    Yeah. I can barely take all of it in. I hate it!

    *hugs*
    Gail
  • sharpy102
    sharpy102 Member Posts: 368 Member
    tootsie1 said:

    *hugging everyone here*
    Yeah. I can barely take all of it in. I hate it!

    *hugs*
    Gail

    I HATE cancer EVERYDAY!!!

    I HATE cancer EVERYDAY!!!
  • herdizziness
    herdizziness Member Posts: 3,624 Member
    I really hate cancer
    Yesterday, I hated cancer, Today I hate cancer, Tomorrow I hate cancer even more.
  • plh4gail
    plh4gail Member Posts: 1,238 Member

    Living with and without our friends

    Time becomes compressed here on the boards. Friendships are developed quickly, in part because of our mutual needs and in part because each of us has learned that life can change quickly, and we know now we and our loved ones are not immortal.

    Each time we open our arms to someone new here we know the risk. We willingly take it.

    We want each and every person to know that they are not alone. That regardless of the reason they are here, we will stand by them and help them all we can.

    If our love and compassion for each other could conquer cancer, it would not again exist in the world.

    Instead we are left with days like today, where sad news abounds. Our tears are shed for our friends and their loved ones. Our tears are shed for ourselves, as we rail against this disease and all it brings with it.

    And yet we are blessed. We have been able to be a part of each of their lives when they needed someone most, as they have been for us. Our mutual needs have given us the opportunity to span the globe. We have met and been a small but important part of the lives of many.

    Not so very many years ago, we each would have been left to fight alone, fearful for anyone to know of our disease. Today even if we never meet face to face, we have known the love and caring of so many.

    For those of our friends who have gone before us, for those who are nearing the end and for those of us left to carry on…

    I tell you each. You brought blessings to the lives of those you touched here. You will be missed but never forgotten. Your light shines because in the time of your own fight, you helped me with mine.

    Love to all our friends

    Perfectly beautiful!

    Perfectly beautiful!