Surgery, looking for hope

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  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    TMac52 said:

    Sorry Joyce
    So Sorry hang in there. I am praying for you.
    Tom

    Tom, thank you
    Tom thank you for taking the time to write to me.. :) So appreciate your prayers. Joyce
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    Nana b said:

    Joyce
    First so sorry to hear you news. I can also feel your pain. Please try not to be discouraged, get your body strong and keep fighting for those grand kids!!

    I am wondering, did your ONC say that mole size tumors can't be picked up on a pet or ct scan? That is kind of scary.

    What the surgeon said
    Nana, this was the surgeon, and he did not say anything about what size can or cannot be picked up. However, he was careful to say these were malignant "spots", not tumors.

    I asked him how long he thought they might have been there, he said probably about 3 mos. They had the path report so perhaps he felt comfortable saying that since he knew what they were.

    When I asked about why the PET scan would not show them he looked at me, sort of shook his head and said "I really don't know". I also had the newest/latest MRI about 3 weeks ago, in fact Mayo had me sign a paper/consent saying that I would agree to them using it. It is supposed to be the most state of the art MRI there is. And it showed nothing. I do know he said there were quite a few of them in the abdomen. At first they thought it was scar tissue.

    This is really all I remember. Joyce aka Nana
  • lisa42
    lisa42 Member Posts: 3,625 Member
    so sorry
    Hi Joyce,

    I'm so sorry of the new findings and that you weren't able to go through with the surgery as planned. I can only imagine your disappointment in not getting the surgery and having to go back to the drawing board and start over again with chemo. Sending cyberhugs to you- I wish I could make it better for you.
    I have been doing chemo nonstop for the past 2-1/2 years & I am still plugging on, blood counts are good, and I still have the "I can beat this thing" attitude.

    You hang in there & I will be thinking of you-
    Lisa
  • AnneCan
    AnneCan Member Posts: 3,673 Member
    Aww, Joyce
    Joyce,

    I am so sorry for this. It must have been a huge disappointment for you. There are many roads to survival, + now it seems you are on a different road, but that doesn't mean you won't get back on that road that you just took a detour from. Warm hugs are headed to you now!
  • Buzzard
    Buzzard Member Posts: 3,043 Member
    AnneCan said:

    Aww, Joyce
    Joyce,

    I am so sorry for this. It must have been a huge disappointment for you. There are many roads to survival, + now it seems you are on a different road, but that doesn't mean you won't get back on that road that you just took a detour from. Warm hugs are headed to you now!

    OK.JOYCE ......
    I too am sorry for the disappointing news to you, I was told that 1 in 6 Stage 4 came out OK by my Dr......I don't figure that he has really been around me long enough to know that I don't go down that easily, and neither do you.....
    OK, both of us know that someday we're gonna die, well, we're all going to someday. Now, what we have to do is see just how long we can circumvent that situation and how fast we can get the ball rolling on another plan for you.....
    There is someone out there with hope for you...get on the internet and go to all cancer centers in your surrounding area or states, get numbers and start calling them...Tell your story in short and ask for options and don't take no for an answer....Lots of time Drs will take new patients on if they feel an enthusiastic person who is willing to "give it he!!" when fighting for their life.
    Put it out in here and get people to pm you with phone numbers and short stories of why this number may help you in your search for treatment thats right for you....
    You are in a particular situation that this forum could possible help you with in phone numbers and reasons why to call these Drs and Oncologists.....
    Put it out in here on its own post and see what you get back...It most certainly will give you more options and in turn more hope....and thats all we really go on in....love to you young lady.....chin up......Caseys at Bat.........buzz
  • tina dasilva
    tina dasilva Member Posts: 641
    I'm so sorry
    dear Joyce i'm so sorry to hear about all of this .i will be thinking about you and i just feel that you will be here for a long time to come lots of hugs for u Tina
  • geotina
    geotina Member Posts: 2,111 Member
    Dear Joyce:
    Your disappointment must be overwhelming about now. I'm so sorry the surgery did not go as planned. Get a game plan going with your doc and then do what was suggested here, start researching other docs that may be able to help you reach your goal.

    A blog I follow of a guy out of Texas experienced something similar, went in for liver resection only to find tumors on the opposite lobe, surprise to the surgeon, open and close procedure. He restarted chemo and a year later is feeling quite well and working full time.

    What I guess I am trying to say is all is not lost, a big disappointment yes, so have a good cry and get your game plan going.

    Big hugs to you - Tina
  • johnnybegood
    johnnybegood Member Posts: 1,117 Member
    geotina said:

    Dear Joyce:
    Your disappointment must be overwhelming about now. I'm so sorry the surgery did not go as planned. Get a game plan going with your doc and then do what was suggested here, start researching other docs that may be able to help you reach your goal.

    A blog I follow of a guy out of Texas experienced something similar, went in for liver resection only to find tumors on the opposite lobe, surprise to the surgeon, open and close procedure. He restarted chemo and a year later is feeling quite well and working full time.

    What I guess I am trying to say is all is not lost, a big disappointment yes, so have a good cry and get your game plan going.

    Big hugs to you - Tina

    so sorry
    to hear this news joyce. this brought me to tears.i to am just starting on this road and in my mind the resection is going to happen.i know you are devistated but just keep hangin in there,as i read the others posts in this thread there is still hope...Godbless...johnnybegood
  • drmrgirl47
    drmrgirl47 Member Posts: 129
    Looking for Hope
    Hi. Don't give up hope. I will say a prayer for you. Peace.
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    Buzzard said:

    OK.JOYCE ......
    I too am sorry for the disappointing news to you, I was told that 1 in 6 Stage 4 came out OK by my Dr......I don't figure that he has really been around me long enough to know that I don't go down that easily, and neither do you.....
    OK, both of us know that someday we're gonna die, well, we're all going to someday. Now, what we have to do is see just how long we can circumvent that situation and how fast we can get the ball rolling on another plan for you.....
    There is someone out there with hope for you...get on the internet and go to all cancer centers in your surrounding area or states, get numbers and start calling them...Tell your story in short and ask for options and don't take no for an answer....Lots of time Drs will take new patients on if they feel an enthusiastic person who is willing to "give it he!!" when fighting for their life.
    Put it out in here and get people to pm you with phone numbers and short stories of why this number may help you in your search for treatment thats right for you....
    You are in a particular situation that this forum could possible help you with in phone numbers and reasons why to call these Drs and Oncologists.....
    Put it out in here on its own post and see what you get back...It most certainly will give you more options and in turn more hope....and thats all we really go on in....love to you young lady.....chin up......Caseys at Bat.........buzz

    Thank you again
    Buzz, thank you again for the excellent advice and encouragement.. I will do just what you suggested. Tomorrow I see the oncologist and then can come up with a more solid plan, knowing that it cuold change any day.

    Thanks for calling me a young lady too... that was the nicest thing, ha!! I am a grandmother of 5, feel young but that's thanks to makeup.. Love to you! Joyce
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145

    Looking for Hope
    Hi. Don't give up hope. I will say a prayer for you. Peace.

    thank you
    For your prayers... I am not giving up hope. Everyone here, including you have gotten me through once again. Love to all, Joyce
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145

    so sorry
    to hear this news joyce. this brought me to tears.i to am just starting on this road and in my mind the resection is going to happen.i know you are devistated but just keep hangin in there,as i read the others posts in this thread there is still hope...Godbless...johnnybegood

    There is hope
    Johnny I am sorry if I made you sad, keep the attitude you have about the resection. My situation was unique, I found out this morning. Someone asked on the board last night how could I have these "apots" and the PET scan did not pick up on them. Found out.

    The oncologist at Mayo Clinic called me today to see how I was. She sort of was not personally involved with me after I connected with the surgeon. She had the report and called to follow up. I asked her a ton of questions, one being how could they not have known... the "spots" are what she called nodules and there are many of them on the surface of the liver, stomach and in the abdomen. Evidently they are the size of "grain of rice", often blend in with the wall of organ - because they are so tiny they cannot absorb the sugar that would cause them to "light up"... she said everyone was shocked when they found them, at first they even thought it might be scar tissue.

    So please, this is not your everyday situation by any means. If I had not had these nodules my surgeon would have gone perfectly and I would have been "cured" according to Mayo Clinic.. at least for a while if not for the rest of my life.

    There are many people here who have had resections and more than one. There are people who have not had any and some of the posts today are talking about 5+ years and surviving. You are going to be one of them.. and so am I, if I have my way.

    Thank you and bless you as well. Hugs, Joyce
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    geotina said:

    Dear Joyce:
    Your disappointment must be overwhelming about now. I'm so sorry the surgery did not go as planned. Get a game plan going with your doc and then do what was suggested here, start researching other docs that may be able to help you reach your goal.

    A blog I follow of a guy out of Texas experienced something similar, went in for liver resection only to find tumors on the opposite lobe, surprise to the surgeon, open and close procedure. He restarted chemo and a year later is feeling quite well and working full time.

    What I guess I am trying to say is all is not lost, a big disappointment yes, so have a good cry and get your game plan going.

    Big hugs to you - Tina

    Big hugs back
    Tina, thank you.... my cry is over for now. :) Thanks to a group of wonderful, encouraging group of "family", including you. I'm ready to move forward and start the battle over. I'm going to be ok... hugs, Joyce
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145

    I'm so sorry
    dear Joyce i'm so sorry to hear about all of this .i will be thinking about you and i just feel that you will be here for a long time to come lots of hugs for u Tina

    Tina
    Tina, thank you so much.. how is Jorge? I think of you and keep you in my prayers all the time. xox Joyce
  • Erinb
    Erinb Member Posts: 293
    Joyce, I'm so sorry. Your
    Joyce, I'm so sorry. Your news is beyond disappointing. There is still hope! The cancer could go away with treatment. It has happened. I continue to read inspirational stories of people who have beat cancer. BELEIVE. It can be done.
    Erin
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    Erinb said:

    Joyce, I'm so sorry. Your
    Joyce, I'm so sorry. Your news is beyond disappointing. There is still hope! The cancer could go away with treatment. It has happened. I continue to read inspirational stories of people who have beat cancer. BELEIVE. It can be done.
    Erin

    Erin
    Hi Erin, thank you for your encouraging note. It means a great deal to me. Am not about to give up hope...thanks to all of you today (tonight) is much brighter. Hugs, Joyce
  • LindaJS
    LindaJS Member Posts: 20 Member
    I cant imagine how awful it
    I cant imagine how awful it must have felt to drive away from hospital without your surgery - Im so sorry. Im only new to this journey but it seems like most people who are getting a surgery/treatment/good result have been told at least once that they probably wouldnt - yet there they are. I have no doubts that you will get back there.
  • JoyceSteele
    JoyceSteele Member Posts: 145
    LindaJS said:

    I cant imagine how awful it
    I cant imagine how awful it must have felt to drive away from hospital without your surgery - Im so sorry. Im only new to this journey but it seems like most people who are getting a surgery/treatment/good result have been told at least once that they probably wouldnt - yet there they are. I have no doubts that you will get back there.

    Linda thank you
    Hi Linda, nice to meet you. You are right, so many people that were "inoperable" are now candidates for resection or have had one. It is truly amazing. My situation has changed but not being able to have the surgery is not going to be a death sentence for me. I saw my oncologist yesterday and start chemo Monday.. Folfiri and Avastin added in a few weeks after my incisions have healed.

    Take care and keep up the posting so we know how you are doing. Have a nice weekend! Hugs, Joyce