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This is the week.

Thursday is the big day. I'm terrified of all of it. I don't want to do any of this but I know I need to finish treatment to lessen the likelihood of relapse. Hopefully there's enough time for the ovarian tissue freezing. In 2 weeks from now I could possibly be starting the transplant process. This is crazy.

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They said they found 2 possible international bone marrow donors that need further testing. I didn't think they would find anyone. This new makes the transplant more real and that's scary. If all goes well, they want to start the process at the end of the month. I have to decide if I want to do ovarian tissue freezing for a shot at having my own kids when the time comes. They let me know how good of a match those donors are next Thursday. And now we wait.

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Book blog, maybe?

I think I'm going to start a blog about the books I read. I don't always remember what happens in some books and this would be a way to help that (plus, I've kind of always wanted to start a blog anyway! This doesn't count, it's more of an online journal). What's stoppin' me? Nothing. Now, I just have to figure out a name...

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I have to leave my home tomorrow for an undetermined amount of time. I'm so sad to leave, I wish I could stay here.

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Made My Day

Barnes and Noble had a book blowout sale today and members got 50% off of a selection of books. And, if you buy at least 3 books, you get a free tote. I bought 2 books the other day and I got 4 today so I got the tote (I know I have a problem)! The real highlight of going to the store was that a total stranger gave me a hug. It was so sweet of her to do that, it really made my day. Every once in a while I'll experience a kindness like that and remember how much good there is in the world.

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Colds and Unicorns

Bleh, I have a cold. It's not so bad right now, hopefully it doesn't get worse. I just finished The Last Black Unicorn by Tiffany Haddish. She had quite the life. I didn't like it at first but as I read it, I found myself rooting for her more and more. It was a quick read, less than 300 pages. Now on to the next book!

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I'm back!

I'm finally back home in NC! I'm in such a better mood now. I want to fully enjoy this week and do things that me happy. Today I went to Barnes and Noble and bought 3 books. It's the happiest place in the world. If I worked there, I'd never come home with a check. 

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Home Sweet Home

It's so good to be home, I missed it so much. It's sad that I have such a limited time here but I need to make the best of it. I really wish I could stay.

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So, the doctor suggested transplant. He was my last hope for any other treatment. They typed me for a bone marrow match and it turns out whatever it is they call call it, mine is unique and will likely be difficult to find a 100% match in the donor bank. I found out today that my brother is only a 50% match to me so they started looking in the donor bank. I need all the positive energy I can get because it seems like the universe doesn't like me anymore. I get to go home for a week tomorrow and see my boyfriend. I can't wait spend time with him, it's been so long.

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Big Day

Tomorrow is the big day, I hear the doctor's opionion on the next phase of treatment. I just need the appintment to come so I can decide on treatment and move on. If it's the option I want, I'd have to stay in New York for at least a month. I can't wait to get back home and see my boyfriend. Whatever happens, I need to go down there before treatment starts and spend at least a little bit of time. He sent me a bunch of stuff for Valentine's day, it was very unexpected and very sweet of him to do that. I feel bad for only sending him a card and lottery tickets.


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