Hi. Just like the title said, I am new to this. I have always concidered myself blessed that no one close to me has suffered. I knew it had to do with the fact that growing up in foster care, I never really had anyone close. A few years ago, I found all of my family on facebook, including my father. We talked a lot, got closer, but never truely "father/daughter" close. This January, on my birthday, I got the fateful message that my father was hospitalized with throat cancer. My whole world came crashing down. Within the couple of months since then, a lot has happened.