About one year ago, my good friend Kyle Macintosh was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer known as Ewing Sarcoma. Kyle is a 23 yr old scholarship track runner at the University of Colorado at Boulder, from Littleton, Colorado. No one has been stronger and more positive throughout his battle than he has been. Kyle was in the process of the same clinical trial that Stuart Scott went through. Recently Kyle endured a bit of a setback when on Christmas night he suffered a serious brain aneurysm, which resulted in a stroke.
Had my port removed today. Feeling like I'm closer to the reality of passing from this life. Finding it hard to live in the moment. I find my mind wandering to the past and all those wonderful memories and wondering how my husband can do all the things I do in the house and the yard when I'm gone. He doesn't know a weed from a flower.
Just woke up from a nap I took because I felt so bad and in pain.
Pain is not much better now, if any. :(
They told me I could be sore tomorrow... something to look forward to, right?
Here is today's composite of what I look like tonight, after the radiation session.
I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphocytic ( ALL ) at the age of 23 on April 23, 2009. I had chest pains and went to the ER and had bronchitis , but the next day they called back and said they saw a shadow near my lung and I needed a c-scan. There they found a mass the size of a tennis ball , they were going to do surgery to remove it but before they did they found it I had cancer.
What a gruesome, long hospital day!
The first radiation session was excruciating!
More than an hour motionless with my arms above my head, on a flat, totally hard surface with not even a hint of padding.
I was already in pretty bad pain when I got there, and this definitely was not making things better.
That session experience? So not fun, and having no break was ridiculous. I mean, couldn't they have given me a few minutes of break once or twice?
It would not have taken forever to re-align my body on the table, right?
I uploaded some of my photos in my gallery at ViewBug, including lots of cool insects, doves, frog, sheep, and goats with yours truly.
You might enjoy seeing them and it may bring a smile or chuckle to your day.
Tomorrow is my first radiation session, and my PET scan (finally!).
Will keep you posted on that when we know more.
My aunt sent me a journal she had started on a trip to Ireland. She had some old family photos and pencil drawings of places in Ireland she visited. She told me to finish it however I wanted and included some colored pencils. So I draw nearly every night and have rediscovered the joy in it that I used to have. It's something I can leave behind that is a part of me.
What's your forgotten gift? Find it and see what I mean!
Just another one of the kaleidoscopes I made, this one from the photo my wife took of me (originally to show how bent and crooked I looked because of the cancer rib and lung pain).