Peyton was born prematurely 5 weeks early. Doctors had found a mass in her chest during a sonogram and it was determined she needed to be delivered. She spent her first week of life in the NICU as doctors debated on what to do. At a week old she underwent surgery to remove the mass in her right chest. The doctors came out of surgery with bleak expressions on there faces. We were told they were unsure as to what we were dealing with. The pathologist was unable to make a positive diagnosis and the tumor was sent to St. Judes. Ten days later we were informed that Peyton had Ewing Sarcoma. I had never heard of this type of cancer and so i looked to the internet for information. How could my newborn baby have cancer. The information i found was complex and hard for me to understand. I gave up.
Nothing touches me that has not passed through the hands of my heavenly Father. Nothing. Whatever occurs, God has sovereignly surveyed and approved. We may not know why (we may never know why), but we do know our pain is no accident to Him who guides our lives.
This picture sums up my feelings for music. The passion, emotion, and over-powering strenghth that it brings me. Without music I don't know where I'd be.
A man had a dream one night. In his dream, he was walking along a beach with the Lord. As they walked, scenes from the man's life flashed across the sky. When he looked down, he saw two sets of footprints etched in the sand; one set belonged to him, the other to the Lord. As they continued to walk, he noticed that, at the saddest and most trying times of his life, there was only one set of footprints in the sand. He asked the Lord, "When I needed you the most, why did you leave me?" "My son, my precious child," replied the Lord, "I would never leave you. During those times of trial and
I had a total thyroidectomy for papillary thyroid cancer in June 2007. The pre-surgical sono showed 2 nodules (one on each lobe) and a suspicous 'mass' that was 'probably' a lymph node. Only one of the nodules was biopsies and proven malignant. I thought I did a great job of researching a top top doc in New York. When I questioned him about the possible lymph node involvement he assured me that he would remove everything that needed to come out. He told me he didn't need to view the pre-surgical sono, or do a CT scan, because he would be in there and see for himself. Well - he was wrong. (He did remove 2 nodes - one left and one right central and the left was positive).