Just an inclusion, which is a fancy word for surgery scar tissue with fluid build up aka a cyst.

So doc says it's just an inclusion which is scar tissue with fluid behind it, a very fancy word for cyst.  I have a lot of scar tissue from the surgery.  I requested to biopsy for peace of mind anyway since the lump is hard but she said she can't justify when I just had a clean scan and she doesn't see the need for it, she's not at all concerned by it.  I have to take that at face value.  We'll revisit it in 6 months and deal with it if it grows but it's not dangerous in any way even if it grows, just a nuisance.  Best part of the visit was when she said she'd have to do a rectal exam (as always) and I said "well you can sure try" (as always).   ..... I haven't had a rectum in 4 years so it always make me giggle.  It's the only silver lining in all of this.

I think I'm going to try to take a step back (again) and try to remember that not everything is cancer (again) and maybe take up some sort of gentle yoga so I can work out the anxiety that cancer has put into my life.  I'm finally able to do some exercise without pain using the recumbent bike.  Goal is to knock off the 40 lbs I've put on in 5 years since this all started.  Down 9 lbs in 3 weeks.  Physical therapy has been a real God send with my pain and abdominal, foot and leg cramping and I think all cancer patients should have it as part of treatment.  I am officially considering myself cancer free mentally (again) so I can stop stressing over every lump and bump, have to get back to a normal, relaxed brain again (which I've said at least 10 times now).    Helen Smith, former cancer patient (who am I kidding, knock on wood, don't want to be too cocky about it).  As always, for those still in the fight, keep on trucking!  One step in front of the other.  

 Thanks for checking on me Sue!  I love you too.