Aug 09, 2014 - 1:45 am
I'm 27. I had a endoscopy in May to check up on my ulcers. When 1 of the 3 did not heal my GI looked into it and discovered I had cancer in my stomach. Two weeks later I had half my stomach removed. My cancer was so soft my GI had to "tattoo" it for my surgeon because he wouldn't have been able to feel it. The pathoogy report also showed that the cancer cell wasn't even 1cm. So im very lucky it was found so early. Then about 4 weeks later that I started chemo. I have to go every week for 6 months. Ive had 5fu for 3 weeks now. I begin getting oxaliplatin next week.
It has been 8 weeks since my surgery and I still can't walk straight. When I try it hurts-- feels like my skin is steching and I'm afraid it might rip open.
I've lost 15 pounds since surgery. The number on the scale keeps dropping.I have no appetite. My stomach can barely hold anything so when I do eat, I throw up because I forget I can only hold 8oz... liquid included. I'm taking it easy. I have greek yougert with some fresh fruits, grilled cheese, and all my soups are blended before served.
I'm nauseaous as soon as I wake up. Zofran and ginger candy helps, but not for long.
I'm always cold.
I can't sleep. For at least a month I was constantly having nightmares about being chased and killed. Drs told me it was the narcotics I was taking after surgery. So I stopped immediately and switched to Tylenol. Now I'm always tired but never sleepy. I probably fall asleep around 3-5 am, waking up around 8, Sometimes when my nausea is unbearable I force myself into a nap. I don't know how, it just happens. haha.
I get sharp pains under my ribs from sleeping in very position other than flat on my back. Took nearly a week to figure that one out after a trip to ER had ruled out everything.
I'm not here to complain. I just wanted to let someone know what I going through and have them understand me and not pity me. Maybe I'm looking for some advice or assuance that things will be better and that this is all worth it.
I'm been talking to breast cancer survivors...while they are inspiring, they don't really understand half the things I'm going through. Suggesting I eat ice cream because it tastes good is not good advice for me because of the cold and sugar dumping.
My family wants me to focus on getting better so I've stopped working. My fiance and I have also put our future on hold. ... This isn't lving....