I just haven't been able to write this because I guess it means it's really true. Dick is having a very, very difficult time. We are waiting to see if any immune therapy trials come this way in the next few days (honestly not likely) or we will be calling hospice. Dick has been at this fight (and he does consider it a fight) for 5.5 years, over 100 chemo treatments, 5 surgeries, too many to count scans and all that goes with all of that. Despite all of that he has lived so fully up until that last months. He never really recovered from March and has been getting weaker and weaker since then. We have not been on our boat all summer and he has only been down to the beach a handful of times. We are really working on pain control and have it under control most of the time but not all of the time.
In a way, because of all on here who have gone before us, I think I know what is coming but then again I have no idea. Family has been visiting and I think we will bring our daughter home for a bit before she heads back to college. This is a difficult time. Not sure how to navigate it all but I do know that I want Dick to be at peace. He is such an incredibly brave man and I respect him and love him beyond anything. I will be by his side as we go forward.