Apr 16, 2014 - 5:19 pm
Tomorrow I find out the results from my surgery. I find out if the wide local excision got clear margins and I find out what the other "4 areas of concern" are that the surgeon also removed. My emotions have been up and down while waiting for all of this to happen but now the anxiety is kicking in full force. That feeling that things around you aren't real and everything is irritating me that normally wouldn't.
I'm scared of the results, I'm scared of breaking down in the doctor's office, I'm scared of passing out or doing something equally as embarassing in the waiting room. My mind is jumping ahead of itself with all the worst case scenario's and I don't know how to calm it down.
I wish the surgeon could just call with results. Knowing that I have to go in there isn't helping matters.
Not even sure why I'm writing this post. Maybe just to hear some reassuring words from people that have been in my position at one time. My friend's are great but they don't understand so I just get the "you'll be fine" comments and I sure can't tell my mom how worried I am because then she'll get scared and I'll have to worry about how she's doing.