Apr 12, 2014 - 6:42 pm
Let me say I am now two years out from dx (4/2012) and doing well. I think I always worry about every ache, bump, twinge, that cancer has come back. I push it aside and think I need to adjust my thinking, but I also find myself worrying about my family and friends. My sister travels and I worry something will happen. Right before my dx my father passed and my mother lives alone in another state, so I worry about her. I worry that the company I work for, in an industry in upheaval, could hit a major speed bump and I know that stress cannot help this evil disease.
Fortunately a woman at work started a weekly yoga class and that has helped me to relax and refocus, but I still find myself worrying as yet another blood draw and gyn onc visit is about a week away.
It seems everytime I turn around I hear yet someone else has been dx with some form of cancer. Esophagus, lung, breast...some never had the chance to even fight it.
Today was the "pink" race in town and an interview with a woman on TV said she beat her cancer to find it has metasticized to her bones and she says "It's ok." NO IT'S NOT! I hear the women here who have had recurrences. It was a google search which took me to a post by Linda (she has since lost her battle with UPSC) which found me all of you and, for which, I am so grateful.
I just feel in a hole right now. I just want to scream. I want you all to get better and give this disease the finger!
This board is a great form of therapy. I am thinking some of you know what I mean. God bless all you warriors and thanks for listening.
Does it ever get easier?