Apr 06, 2014 - 12:43 pm
I am a 27 year old male.
About a month ago, I was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer, from a large nodule being on my left side neck. I do not remember which type of cancer they said it was, as I was just distrought, but the appointment is tomorrow. They said it did go to my lymphnodes, and all they've told me is I will get it removed via a 5 hour surgery tomorrow, then a 2 hour wait in the recovery room, then get put into a regular room for overnight stay. I am very scared of surgery. I have never had one other then my wisdom teeth. I woke up 3 times during that surgery even though I was supposed to be "put to sleep." I am afraid of needles, I am afraid of being put to sleep again. I am afraid of all the 'if the cancer spread to your vocal cords, you could have permenant horse voice.' Etc.
Also, they say that I will be given a pill one a day for the rest of my life, which is 'just as good as having a thyroid.' But from everything I have read on this forum.... It seems like a bad idea to even go through with this.. I have already had bouts of depression, anxienty, weight gain (and trouble keeping it at 250lbs), exhaustion compared to people my age (I'm just always so tired so easy), etc. Now, I see people having these things that didn't before their surgery.. So, I'm thinking all of mine are just going to completely worsen. I have tried to find positivity, but it seems there's so much downfalls, so many side effects, and so much wrong.. It's hard to look at this positive. My girlfriend tries really hard to keep my positive, but it's hard seeing all of what can come after tomorrow.. I'm very scared. I don't want my life to really end tomorrow. At this point, I wonder if I should even go through with the surgery or not..
Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated..