Mar 14, 2014 - 5:30 pm
Hello, I’ve been trying for ages to open an account here and never got a password or notification yet it kept saying I was a member. So finally after opening a third email account (since it thought I was a member it kept saying that email address is already in use) I got a password. I just want to say that I’m in awe of all of you; so strong and gracious and helpful. Thank you for all the information I’ve been able to get by reading here ever since I got my diagnosis. I’ve no idea how to “tell about me” so couldn’t do that.
In a nut shell, I’m a woman in my early 60s and I have a 3.4 cm tumor on my left kidney. I’m having open partial nephrectomy on Monday at Sloan Kettering and I’m terrified. Terrified of the surgery, the pathology results, the possible recurrence and mets, the pain, infections, you name it, I’m terrified of it. I’ve never had surgery in my life and have never been in the hospital except once when I passed out and hit my head so they were observing me. Please talk me down from the ledge; and I feel really embarrassed for being such a wuss when you’re all dealing with things so bravely. I’m so sorry anyone has to be here but at the same time, thank you for being here to help everyone.