Mar 02, 2014 - 7:06 pm
My boyfriend has had cancer (skull-base chondrosarcoma) since he was 13 years old (he is turning 40 this year). Because of cancer he has had more than 18 surgeries and radiations. He has lost one eye, forehead bone, eye socket, lost the ability to blink, lost ability to produce tears, lived with severe pain, has to take some hormones for life and now left with a severely disfigured face. We are living together for almost 4 years. I knew him for years and before was everything fine. The decision to move in came to be a bitter journey for me. Since his cancer came back 3 years ago he has been abusive towards me. It is everyday the same. It is hard to write down and describe the manner of abuse. I feel so exhausted by the negative energy he gives. I don't hear anything positive from him. Everything is not good enough and everybody is not good enough too. Most of his friends have stopped communicating with him. He would make humiliating comments towards me in front of people.
I feel that my man has died a long time ago and this person I am living with is a monster. I feel that he wants everybody to go down with him. Lately, I have been reacting sarcasticly towards him.