Feb 14, 2014 - 8:50 pm
I said a silent thank you prayer when I found this discussion board tonight. I am in desperate need of honest and humble advice. :)
Here goes the basics:
My mom and dad moved from Florida to Illinois 11 years ago. I followed behind being just 18. I have now been in Illinois for 10 years. I have an extremely close relationship with both of my parents. Like extremely close. In the span of my ten long years here I have two children ages 5 and 1 and 1/2 and I am happily married. I have a sister in Tennessee. So the story sounds grand thus far, here is where the ball really drops:
My mother is 54 years old and was diagnosed with stage 4 small cell lung cancer in April of 2013. The moment we found out I felt as though I could not ever breathe again. Well I did and still am :) It has been a very long and hard road. I alongside my father have taken care of my mom. We fought using chemothearpy and the cancer re-appeared in less then a month. We began another round of chemothearpy and just recievecd her latest scan. The cancer is there, better but there. They want to begin chemothearpy again week after next, this time five days a week every four weeks. Thats where we are with her........ :(
Now to the dilehma:
Please-Please anyone who takes the time to read this, remind urself I am a humble person who loves her parents very much. I am extremely unhappy living in Illinois, I hated it the moment I got here. I just could not bare to leave my parents behind, so I stayed and I stayed and I stayed. Do not get me wrong I count my blessings every day I could not be any happier with what Illinois gave me but I am so unhappy here. My son is from a different man I was in a long time relationship with and he passed away this year from a drug overdose. As you cna probably tell not our finest year. Illinois feels like a death sentence to me emotionally. My husband and I decided a month ago we were ready to take the leap and make the move to Tennessee. My sister is ready to help me the hubby and our two kids adjust to school, work, etc...
Well we got my moms sans a week ago, the scan at the bottom of paragraph 2. The cancer needs more treatment, my mom is ready and willing to proceed and I am in limbo. Do I go or do I stay??