Feb 12, 2014 - 6:05 pm
Next Wednesday I go in for my full scans. It's the one year date for the Everest trial I'm on. So I take my last dose of Affinitor on Tuesday the 18th. Hard to believe a year has gone by already.
I'm really anxious. I wanted to put together a party to celebrate finishing 1 year of this drug trial, but I didn't do it. I have to be honest and say I was afraid I'd put it together and they'd find something on my scans on the 19th. I just couldn't bring myself to schedule the party. Maybe I'm superstitious and thought I might jinx it? I don't really think that way, but I sort of think that way somewhere in my childish mind back there. Lol.
My scans and dr. appointment are all finished about 2pm on Wednesday. I'm even having trouble figuring out if I want to make plans later that day, just in case. Or if I should go to the appointment by myself or bring someone along...
I can't have the contrast because my creatinine is too high (1.6). The next worry is they'll miss something and by the time they see it it will be large or many of them...
Funny how all my health issues get run through my cancer filter now. I've had a sinus infection for 3 months that won't seem to heal even after 2 rounds of antibiotics and I've had this bleeding sore in my nose also for 3-4 months. I finally scheduled an appointment with an ENT for later this month. I suppose if I think about it, it seems unusual to have RCC spread to the inside of the nose, but then getting RCC in the first place wasn't a very common thing to have happen either and yet I got sideswiped by that 15 months ago. I'm good at conjuring up stuff to worry about these days.
So I'll be grateful for where I am and what I know today. I'm really doing pretty well and the weather is beautiful outside. I just had my house painted and a new fence put up at home. Looks wonderful. I have one son that's talking to me (wanting all kinds of help, but I'm glad I'm here and can oblige) and another that's doing just great but doesn't want to talk to me right now and that's all terrific. My little dog is glad to see me when I come home and take her for a walk and feed her. Plenty to be grateful for today.