Feb 06, 2014 - 4:49 am
I didn't sleep as long as I would have hoped for. Woke up a couple of hours ago And it's only 4:30am. I worked over 12 hours yesterday trying to prepare for another long absence from work. And on my drive home from an exhausting day my thoughts were taking me to some slippery slopes.
I started to think that this surgery came up so quickly for me. They say that time flies by when you're having fun. Well I must be having a lot of fun cause time seems to be rolling by too quick. When I was young a year seemed so long. Now the years seem to go by in a blink of an eye. And I think that fighting cancer may actually increase this perceived acceleration of time exponentially.
I celebrated 50 years at the end of January and now I'm wondering just how long I have left. Am I living the final chapters of my life? And on the day before another surgery I worry it could be the final paragraphs if the last chapter.
But then comes the morning. The realization. None of us know when the end will come.
And the point of life is to enjoy our time together now. Enjoy today. While we can hold each other and comfort one another.
So that will be my focus. As I go about this day. I will focus on Loving my wife and children. I will pay extra attention to all the people in my life and try to connect with each of them. Listening to what is in their hearts.
Peace and Love to all my friends and fellow warriors on CSN.