Jan 18, 2014 - 8:27 pm
I don't know where to start but I guess with alittle history - I was 38 years old when I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer in stage 3b. I found out December 23, 2008 and I had surgery December 28, 2008. It took forever to get diagnosed because of the insurance company. By the grace of God, my doctors kept pushing for the necessary test. My ovaries were the size of a basketball when they were removed. I endured 6 rounds of chemo and got a clean bill of health. Then in September 2011 it was back again with avengence. I started chemo again. Over the past 30 months, I have been on 6 different kinds of chemo. Needless to say it's been hell at times. But I must say for the most part I have been lucky as far as side effects go. I have continued to work full time and raise my kids. I have never been one to want sympathy or want pity. I have always taken the position that cancer is apart of my life it is not my life. I have a wonderul support structure and I couldn't ask any of them to be there anymore for me than they are already are. One of the hardest parts about having cancer for me is watching the effect it has on those that I care about. As strong as I am and I would never burden them with this - for some reason over the last 6 months I have become very emotional and feel I need to talk to someone about how I am feeling.
I would really like to find someone who has or is going through this journey to talk to. I don't know if this is related to the cancer or something else. Like I said I have great friends and family but I would never let them know how I am feeling right now. Yes they would understand and be there for me but I just can't bring myself to do it.
Has anyone ever attended a support meeting? What are they like? I am open to any advice.
Thanks for listening.