Jan 07, 2014 - 2:58 pm
Yesterday, I had a Rituxan maintenance infusion and talked to my Doctor, AGAIN, about my brain. He asked me some questions about last night, yesterday, last week, etc. After I answered the questions, he pointed out that I could remember these things. That was when I realized he was "testing" my memory. I told him I wasn't that worried about remembering yesterday, yesterday is over and I have moved on. I am frustrated about remembering what I am doing NOW.
Several times a day, I ask myself, aloud, "What am I doing?" or tell myself, "Focus. Focus". I start to write a word I have know how to spell forever and suddenly don't know how. I walk to another room and wonder why. I will be mid sentence and forget the word I am about to say. Multi-tasking? Forget it. It is very tiring and draining. And it causes me considerable anxiety.
A search at this site yields me nothing really but joking about the subject. And I have joked about it myself. Chemonesia!
I would really like to hear how others cope with chemo brain and also some validation that this is real. It is hard to talk to my doctor about my brain when my brain doesn't work right!