Dec 11, 2013 - 1:48 am
Hello, my name is Josh. But, I prefer the nick name Cando. I'm a costumer who likes going to conventions and I am 35 years old.
Three weeks ago, I had finished my first week of work and came into Reno to stay at my apartment with my father (We share the apartment) And we had just moved in and was still moving things from out of town to here.
I went to sleep and then next thing I know, I was awoken by an ambulance medical guy and several other medical people, who were asking me various questions...that for some reason, I could not answer. I apparently had a seizure in my sleep, and wasn't even aware of it. I hadn't even felt anything regarding it.
They took me into the Emergency Room, and it was revealed to me that I had a large tumor on the left side of my brain above my ear and that a Doctor name Dr. Song was going to operate on me.
The entire situation was very worrisome for me and my family. My sister from Kansas flew down to be here for my surgery with me, my family, and best friend all stayed for the three and a half hour operation. To me it literally felt like I shut my eyes and opened them up moments later.
The surgery went well and Dr. Song was very confident that he got all of the tumor, or 99.9% of it.
While I was recovering, another doctor came in and told me that it was a form and cancer and that my removed tumor had been sent to Stanford to be studied.
Today I went to Dr. Song's office to have my stitches removed...there I discovered that a fax had been sent from Stanford explaining several things to me...I was diagnosed with AA3. The doctor who was helping me at the time, told me not to stress because there were several other things listed on that fax that they could not explain but they knew were positive.
It was a very long bus ride home with my sister. I broke down in tears while in the elevator and have been having a hard time sleeping and focusing on anything. I'm worried and scared, and will find out more details on Thursday. My sister goes home tomorrow or Thursday and won't be here.
I am very worried and scared, but doing my best to keep my head up and hoping for the best. A friend of mine is telling me not to worry because my surgery went very well.
I am doing the best I can, but this has all hit me very very hard and I'm not sure how any of it will turn out. I have no insurance, no job, no food stamps, can't find my birth certificate...etc etc.
It seems to me like every time I start to get back on my feet and improve my life, that I'm hit with something harder and harder and harder. I'm not sure how to deal with this and I'm very nervous and scared. I've read the fax several times, and looked up everything mentioned and I'm not entirely sure what it all means...and waiting until Thursday is going to seem like a long time.
I've been praying almost all day today for god to give me the strength I need to deal with this.
I was also diagnosed at Diabetic and have been adjusting to deal with that. I lost my Mom to Diabetis four years ago...
This just all hit me so fast and soon, that I'm not entirely sure how to deal with it, or how to mentally and emotionally deal with it...I'm scared and worried.
If any of you have any advice, I would appreciate it. Thank you.