Dec 10, 2013 - 9:11 pm
Ok, I know it's been a long time since I've been active here...(that's good though, right?) But tonight, I've got some things that I have to unload. Please bear with me.
Those of you who've been here since Hissy Fitz and Dorian may remember me. I'm not a whiner or a fatalist. I'm a survivor. But tonight I find myself in need of some prayers and positive thoughts. I've had one recurrence, brain mets in which my Ca125 doubled about every 2 weeks. This year, my CA125 has been creeping up since January. Not anything significant yet, from 12 in Jan. to 28 in Nov. , my oncologist assures me that anything below 35 is normal and nothing to worry about, but it hasn't been stable...only rising.
On top of that, my husband for almost 15 years told me at the end of May that was leaving me. He tells me he's just not happy, but he's told others it's because after the steroids, brain surgery ,whole brain radiation and gamma knife to eliminate the tumors in my brain that I "got fat and my hair didn't grow back right." Ergo, he's not attracted to me anymore.
I understand that that is his problem, not mine, but it still adds to the stress in my life. Stress that I don't need, nor do I deserve. I'm seeing a counselor, but I'm not sure I can go through this alone.
Not asking for solutions, as I don't think there are any, just asking for prayers. I've always found comfort here, from Dorian, Linda, Hissy Fitz and many many others who are still here...hoping to find it again.
Love and Good Health to all,