Oct 21, 2013 - 11:08 am
It's finally over. I'm home after completing my 4th round of IL-2. I'll say it again, "This has been the hardest thing I've EVER had to go through." All of my muscle has wasted away. I've lost the fluid retention and I'm nothing but wrinkles. The world of psychosis is someplace I never want to go to again. It has beat the living crap out of me. So, let's surmize the cancer is running scared with no where to hide. My kidney shut down for 2 days and that is a strange feeling not having an urge to pee. This time I developed some cardiac complications and my enzymes were going off the chart. Let's also hope I've had no cardiac damage. For those unfamiliar with my story, I've been in tremendous shape for 61. Life history of weight training and running. Now I can barely get up from a chair. Can't lift my arms over my head. I had no skin redness or skin peeling this time. But dryness is extreme. I walk and leave a cloud of dust in my path like Pig Pen in Charlie Brown. Everything hurts. My knee is swollen and hurts just as if I've had major knee surgery. It barely supports me. If I never vomit or have diarrhea again it will be too soon.
The good news is that I will not have to do this again. I don't know if I could. I see my Dr. wednesday and will take a look at my blood work. Scans in probably 6 weeks after it's had it's chance to do it's thing. So I'll have a long deserved break. It will feel good. I wonder when I will be able to begin exercising? It won't be for a while. That I know. For those that have endured this, we have our own exclusive club. For anyone who is going to do this, I pray it will be easier for you.
For almost everyone the wait for treatment or scans can drive you crazy. The fear of disease progression. But I am in no hurry for scan results or next treatment plan. I need down time. I will have to even limit my computer time. Total veg out. I just don't want to know. I don't even want to answer the phone. I think I deserve a nice long sabatical. I'll get my a$$ back in gear when it's time. Thanks for listening. This site is still the best for getting concerns and worries off our chests. I love you all. I pray we all do well. Don't ever give up. Fox.