Oct 05, 2013 - 8:15 pm
Dear old and new friends, my mother passed away a couple weeks ago from Squamous Cell EC. She courageously fought for 2 years and the cancer stayed stable for a while w/ continuous chemo, but things went downhill in July. We completed hospice at her house for 2 months. She was a fighter and the most important person in my universe. As I'm sitting here 2 weeks later, I'm struggling to accomplish something (ANYTHING) for the day so today I'm accomplishing coming back to this board to thank the old and new friends who have helped me get through the last 2 years as a caretaker.
This board provided support from day 1 when I was scared, shared the ups when scans got back clean, empathized when the scans came back bad, and provided so much of emotional support everywhere in between. Thank you.
This is my first personal loss since I was a kid so I'm struggling right now. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy wondering if I'm normal. My heart weighs heavy, and wonder if the pain will go away. Things seem weird. I have read countless posts w/ similar stories of the grieving, but it's still unbelieveably difficult. I have shared emotions and info on this board that I haven't even told my friends. Thank you everyone for being my support network.
Thanks once again to the friends/strangers (new, old, and deceased).