Oct 01, 2013 - 10:20 pm
I was wondering if any of you have gone through a period after your diagnosis and recovery where you become depressed and/or frustrated?
I don't know if it is my age, my mental health, the hormonal result of my hysterectomy or certain aspects of my life in general, but I am very frustrated with not being in the position to do things I want to do. Mostly I want to quit work, but at 56 I have a few years to go. After my diagnosis and treatment this past January I find my tolerance for some things has changed dramatically. Alot of survivors talk about 'not sweating the small stuff,' but I feel my outlook on life has changed. I no longer want to be tied to a job where I have to hear clients whine all day no matter how real there issues might be. I want to spend time with my family, raise our granddaughter without the interference of a demanding job, do what I enjoy while I still can...I feel like my cancer has made me realize how short and precious life can be...
I know most people would like to be free agents who do not have to work, but my feelings have grown in intensity and are leading to depression because I am financially trapped so I cannot escape the need to work. Maybe this is just a phase or a delayed angry reaction to getting cancer...I was kind of emotionless from diagnosis thru treatment...
I am just curious if anyone else has experienced anything similar?
Thanks for any input!